Boxing with God

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I had a wonderful time working on a low-budget SAG film over the weekend. The casting agent contacted me early last week. I spoke with the producer on the same day and she booked me as one of the 10 angels. We got to play in heaven and we fought with God.

It was great to see some of my friends again. Some of us had worked together last year on the national commercial "Santa" for Capital One. And I met some new mates, too. Everyone was a little person. It was fun to see my fellow actor friends work. Some of them have been working quite a bit; others not so much.

Part of being an actor is not being afraid to take chances. So, I got to dress in full army gear, crawled in the mud, shot paintball rifles and was shot at. We were running in the woods, hiding behind trees, and shooting rifles. It was awesome. I hung in there with the guys and it was great.

The next day we were in full angel attire including wings. We were like children, playing with toys. I had a blast watching my friends perform using green screen technology. I was able to bring out the little girl in me and just laugh, play and have a good time.

We had very long days and after the first day all I wanted to do was go home and soak in the hot bubble bath and go to bed. Driving around downtown LA with all the lights and leaving the studio was awesome. I had to pinch myself.

My agent was very pleased that I got this job. Hopefully it will turn into more work in the future. The team was amazing, they made sure we were all comfortable, they had chairs for us, water at all times. They were great, I wish all of our projects were like this.

I'm Booked for a Film

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I'm booked for a film! Very exciting as a Casting director emailed me last week. Then I received a call from NY, we talked and now I'm booked. I believe it is a SAG film and I'm doing background work. But it is a film and even though I don't have any lines (that I know of), it is work and it is a paying gig.

I received notification of an audition for a really big project, of course working on the same day as the film. I asked my agent to see if she could some how get me in for another date & time. Hopefully, she'll be able to do that.

A hectic week but it's good to be working. I don't even have my Christmas tree up. It's been a tough year and I will be so glad when the new year comes in. Trying to stay positive, professional. My goal for next year will be new headshots, more training and more opportunities.

I was asked to audition for Vagina Monologues again. But I did that already and I don't want to go backwards. I want to go forward. It's a worthy cause and I will attend the show, but don't want to be in the show.

My goal is to work on strictly SAG projects, and moving up the ladder in my acting and writing career.

Adelante!

POLIO Store Now Open

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I am very excited because I just opened an online store for Polio survivors. My store has merchandise such as tee shirts, golf shirts, baseball caps, license plate holders, etc. I would like to bring about an awareness of Polio and the fact that thousands contracted polio. Polio is not something you overcome. It stays with you till the day you die. For those who contracted polio, they must live with this everyday. There are others who never received the initial diagnosis of polio. They may not even be aware that they had it.

My intent is to bring about awareness and in turn, educate the public. The March of Dimes was actually started as a public fundraiser to help bring money in for research and to help find a cure for polio.

There are some polio support groups out there. And there are organizations like POLIO Today that help polio survivors connect through information on the web. You can even upload a video and tell your own story.

My online store is through Cafe Press and my link http://www.cafepress.com/69442395
I want to use a portion of sales to help our local polio support group. Thank you for reading this blog and by checking out my site!

Weekend in LA

Hit counter provided by www.website-hit-counters.com . I had a really good time in Los Angels over the weekend. My friend wanted me to house sit for her and it was no problem as I really love cats. I had an opportunity to go and see some of the museums I have been wanting to see. In a way I wanted to do some studio tours and I do have a friend at Universal but he was working on a film at the time. If you have an opportunity to work in this business you must grab every opportunity to do so. So I totally understood. I did feel bad about missing another friends invitation to watch his band perform Saturday night. He totally had a ticket for me but I'm afraid I over did the activity on Saturday and I was wiped out. Fortunately, he understood and invited me to his birthday bash in January. I will definitely go to that event. And my friend, Susie Albin Najera invited me to a Showtime taping of her husband,Rick Najera's show, "Daddy Diaries". I am so excited because I missed that show when he performed it in San Diego. Very excited as that event is coming up on December 11. I really feel it is important to help my people in front of or behind the camera. I am not perfect for every role so if I know of a friend who is, I will encourage him or her to go for it! I went to the Museum of Tolerance and it was so moving. We spent the entire day there and while I knew we would be there for awhile, I did not expect that I wouldn't want to leave. It was very hands on and history buff that I am, I enjoyed it. I definitely want to go back again and show my support to such a worthy organization that is dedicated to informing people about the dangers of intolerance. And we ate at one of my favorite places again, Jerry's Deli in Studio City. So I'm sitting there with all this food that I ordered, a corned beef sandwich, a cup of chicken noodle soup and who walks right by me? Nicole Kidman on the way to the Ladies room! She looked beautiful in a blue grey suit, hair pulled up. Very little makeup and it showed off her blue eyes beautifully. I have interviewed enough people to know when they want to be left alone. And she definitely had that look of gee, I hope no one recognizes me here with my husband, Keith Urban. She returned to her booth which was very close to mine and they ordered and ate breakfast. After she left I asked the waitress what Nicole ordered and she said they ate egg whites with spinach! Nice, and now I see why she looks like a size 2. I guess that is why she is making movies like "Nine" and I am still auditioning. Gotta love Hollywood!

Plays & Familia

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The play is going well and I wanted to upload a photo to get an idea of what the play is about. Jason & Medea have a love affair and Medea kills their two young daughters. Why? Well, that is my job as a reporter to find out why a mother would commit such a heinous act. I play the role of Gertrudis Hernandez, a reporter who has lost her edge and must find it again. The script is amazing and kudos to the playwright, Patricia Crespin.

Last week, my sister Linda and her husband Phil came to California to visit. They were able to attend the show. And then we took several days to visit our brother in Las Vegas. We saw him working too! He is also an entertainer and is part of the latest production by Frank Marino and his latest show, Divas Las Vegas! We all had a great time and had some wonderful food at the Mandalay Bay and Bootleggers Italian restaurant.

I came home on Friday morning, did a Friday night, Saturday night and Sunday matinee. Very tired but happy as I love, love, love acting!

For more information on the play go to the Breath of Fire website:
http://www.breathoffire.org

The Medea Complex opens this Friday!

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The world premiere of The Medea Complex opens this Friday, October 30 at the Breath of Fire Latina Theater in downtown Santa Ana. We are so excited and have been working very hard to put on a good show. I have had a blast getting to know the other actors. I have taken some photos and put them up on Facebook.

It would be wonderful if our friends could come and see the show. I told the Director, Sara Guerrero that it has been about a year since I've done a big play like this and I had forgotten how much work it all takes. We all volunteer our time and efforts to put on a good show. It takes so much dedication and hard work. As an Actor, it is amazing how much dialogue there is to memorize. And you have to really listen to take direction. I may have an idea on how to play this scene and the director may have a different take on it. You have to work together and I do learn from every director.

The other day we were rehearsing and I was just in the moment and realizing that pretty soon it would all be over and just another credit to add to my acting resume. But the people, the laughter, the struggling to memorize the words, the blocking -- it's all wonderful. After this, television feels like a walk in the park.

Where would we be without actors, dancers, singers, magicians, clowns, artists and musicians? I don't know, it would be a very sad place.

I really want to see some friends there. It would mean the world to me! Here is a link for all the information. http://www.breathoffire.org/

Dress rehearsal tonight-- and we open on Friday!

I'm on TV - October 21 @ 8PM

The television program that I worked on last month is now airing tomorrow! I filmed an episode of I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant on TLC (The Learning Channel). I checked the Internet Movie Data Base (IMDB) and that is how I found out today! It will air at 8 PM & 11PM.

Watch for me!

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Starving Artist vs. 1984

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Rehearsals for the play are going well. It's a long drive for me and I always grumble and moan about it. But then once I get there and I'm surrounded by the other actors then it makes me want to work to do my best work. If there are actors that are better than you, they want to make you work harder to do better. If you are a better actor than they are, it makes them want to come up to your level. It's a win-win situation.

I'm getting very concerned about the job situation right now. Our county level is at 13% unemployment. I have sent out so many resumes and all I get is inquiries to join the work force as an insurance agent or to sell annuities to senior citizens. No thanks. I'm done playing loan officer and financial advisor. So many folks have gotten themselves into hot water and when I tried to warn them they got angry with me. One man even swore at me and hung up the phone. Crazy. I just want a regular job where I can help my family, pay my bills and do an honest days work for an honest days pay. I'm not going to kill myself for an employer who has no morals, or tries to work me to death. I've been there, done that and I'm not doing it again.

I love being an artist, an actor and a writer. And I truly believe that if it were not for the artists in this world, it would be a very sad place. Have you ever read 1984? Big brother is watching all the workers and all the joy is taken from their lives as they give their all to the Corporation. Sound familiar?

So I don't understand, what is the joy in being a starving artist? We have to eat too, we have to pay rent. I don't know how many times I have volunteered my time for libraries, charitable events, film festivals and causes for politicians. You cannot put a price tag on that. And where has that gotten me? True, I believe I am a better person for it on the inside but you can't take that to the bank.

And speaking of banks, I am so tired of being ripped off by them. I am sick of Wells Fargo, Bank of America, Chase, and Citibank. I think everyone should take their money out, close their accounts and do their banking with a local, trusted Credit Union. Shame on these big banks for taking government handouts and hanging onto that money. There was no accountability and they are still foreclosing on people left and right. They can all go to hell as far as I'm concerned. I knew something was up when Bank of America bailed out Countrywide, the nations #1 lender. And then Chase bought out Washington Mutual. What a mess. These banks have gotten too big to fail and who bailed them out? We did, the public. Well I say we have to take our power back.

I'm upset. People are losing their homes. My actor friends who are living on poverty wages are starting to sell their personal items just to eat. Our children are wondering what to do because they can't find jobs either. And college graduates now owe a mountain of debt and can't pay it off.

When will this all end?

Frida & Me: A Success Story

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I was feeling very alone as I waited for my turn at the Los Alamos Rehabilitation Center in Downey, CA. I didn't know then this would turn into an original performance called Frida & Me. At first I was going to perform it alone with a photo of artist, Frida Kahlo but the more I thought about it, the more I knew I needed to cast an actress to bring Frida to life onstage.

I have been wanting to work with Diana Alvarez since seeing her perform in Hurricane in a Glass at the Breath of Fire Latina Theater in downtown Santa Ana. We stayed in touch and thankfully she was available for the show. I got to work by emailing her the script that I wrote and we made an appointment to meet at my home. We discussed characterization, the script, makeup and wardrobe. She was immediately onboard and I enjoyed getting her view point.

I found I really like directing! We arrived at the Stella Adler theatre in Hollywood early Saturday morning. I went over the light cues with the crew and we had a minimal set. I met with Diana -- we stopped to grab a quick bite to eat.

As actors, we do need to have some quiet time right before performing. We reported to our dressing room that we shared. We put on our costumes and then went to our quiet space. I reviewed the script. Diana was pacing the corridors.

Finally, it was time for us to go on. The act that went on before us was a hit! We heard the laughter from the audience over and over. The stage lights dimmed which was our cue to step onstage.

I went downstage left and Diana stepped downstage right. The light hit me and I started my monologue. I looked out into the darkness and could barely make out the audience. Then the light hit Diana and she looked like a statue of Frida that had come to life. She looked amazing.

I could feel the warmth of the stage lights on my face. I could tell that the audience was hanging on my every word. I felt right at home and forgot what it felt like to be onstage in front of a live audience. I loved every minute of it. At the end, when we held hands we heard a huge roar of applause.

I know Diana was so happy and so was I. How often do you get to write, direct and perform in a show in Hollywood? And at the prestigious Stella Adler theater? It was a dream come true, again! Because I did this last year too!

I want to keep writing -- and keep performing. I want to share my world with you. Thank you for your support. It was wonderful meeting the people and shaking their hands. It was wonderful to hear that they liked my show.

I say dream big! And tell people about your dreams, say them out loud. Bring them to fruition. Don't listen to negative people who want to put a damper on your dreams. If you don't believe in yourself and in your talent, no one else will either!

Here is a photo of the lovely Diana as Frida!

Frida & Me

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Frida & Me is an original piece that I wrote about artist Frida Kahlo and her influence on my life. I will be performing this work on Saturday, October 10 at the Stella Adler theater in Hollywood for the Los Angeles Women's Project. They are having their second annual 20% New Works project. I believe I go on between 2:00 and 2:30 p.m.

I am very excited because this work is very personal to me. So not only have I written this, but I will be performing it and directing it as well. At one time I did consider having another actress perform this piece but it was too dear to my heart to give it to another actor.

This week is Tech week so I'll have to get in there and really give it my all. It has been very hectic because I just started rehearsals on another show that I will be doing in November. I will be at the Breath of Fire Latina theater until the end of November. Whew!

And to top that off I went to el doctor and I got my braces put on my little legs. Yup, I understand that I will need to wear these so that I keep up my strength, it will help my spine, shoulders, arms. At first I didn't want them. And then when it was explained that this is an aide, a tool to help me live a better life then I was okay with it.

It took some getting used to seeing myself in braces. And I'm still getting accustomed to them. I move more slowly now and I still need to get some proper shoes. But I know I'll get the hang of this. Then I'll have to move into seeing if I can get in the car and drive with them. Hmmm, think I'll wait awhile for that.

I had an audition for a feature film, low budget SAG film. There were so many Latinas in the group and we were all going out for the same part. It was a long way and then I got there at 1:10 and my call time was 1:45. I didn't get seen until 3:15. I was not very happy but what can you do? It warmed my heart to see so many Latinas all going out for the same part. And some of them were really good. I don't think I did that well, but the casting director said very good! But who knows maybe she says that to everyone once they are done. One thing I did notice was I really looked like the character. And I was glad I did. She gave me some good direction and I always learn from each audition, even if I don't get the part.

Frida & Me and then The Medea Complex. I am living my dream of being a working actor in Los Angeles.

Does anyone read these blogs? I wonder...I hope so. I hope that all the people who read these blogs would become followers. I don't want to be alone out here people. Be brave. Be like Frida, brave and fearless. If I can open up my heart, my thoughts and feelings to the universe then you can be brave and click on being a follower.

All my poetry, my songs, my acts, my interviews are part of who I am. I give it all. And sometimes its scary. And sometimes it sucks. And sometimes it's damn good. Because we only have this one life and while we are living we have to make each day count. And I have spent enough of my life giving to everyone else and being afraid to be me. And shame on me for wasting all those years and not thinking enough of myself to know that I matter too.

And I discovered that I like people, and I like to make people laugh. And I break out in song at inappropriate moments. And I get very quiet and I pick up a pen and start writing and then I can't stop. And it's all for you...so stay tuned.

The Medea Complex

I am very excited that I booked a role in the play, The Medea Complex which opens on October 30 at the Breath of Fire Latina Theater in Santa Ana. Directed by Sara Guerrero and Assistant Director, Angela Cruz the play runs thru November 21.

Written by Patricia Crespin, this play is a loose adaptation of Euripides Medea, with a latin twist. Medea thrives on the weakness of others and reeks of temptation and doom. She encompasses all women who stand to be judged for their actions and apologizes for none of it.

I can't wait to meet Ms. Crespin. As you all know, I love words and am actually working on a novel that I started several months ago. I am so thankful that I took this slow time and worked on my craft in more acting lessons. One cannot sit around and wait for things to happen. I went back to the basics, read and studied, learned new things in acting class. I started writing new comedy routines and started auditioning more and more.

I love writing for Latino LA but I wanted to work on my own career more too and I'm glad that I took the time to really think about what I want to do. I have a supportive family and that helps tremendously. I also think it is important to surround yourself with other supportive artists. I don't know where I would be without my family, my friends, and my editor.

Everytime I meet a celebrity, 9 times out of 10 they are very supportive of other Latino artists. There is a generosity and love of our people that I see that is so rewarding.

We begin rehearsals tonite. The play runs through November 21 and even though I am doing another show in Hollywood in October, it should be okay.

Now to get a little rest before I review the script and onto rehearsals!

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From Mexico With Love

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It's been a crazy week. I went to Beverly Hills to meet up with actor, Kuno Becker for his new film, "From Mexico with Love". I had 15 minutes to interview him at the famous Four Seasons Hotel. It was my first time at this hotel and it was as beautiful as you can imagine. He was very sweet and the film will open on October 9 in San Antonio, Texas!

On Tuesday, I was invited by Sara Guerrero, Artistic Director for the Breath of Fire Latina Theater in Santa Ana to come and read for the new play, The Medea Complex. I received the script the day before and it is amazing. Written by Playwright, Patricia Crispin, it is a modern version of the Greek tragedy of Medea & Jason. And I got the role! I'm very excited and we start rehearsals next week. It's a very meaty role and as an actor, a play will keep you on your toes. If you mess up,there are no new takes. I'm looking forward to performing there. The play runs for several weeks in Santa Ana and opens at the end of October.

On Thursday, I was invited to come and do a 1 minute audition for the CBS Diversity Showcase. Yes, a 1 minute comedic audition. I think I did pretty well. I wrote an original piece about a month ago and just did that piece. Everyone laughed and that is a good sign. I felt relaxed and ready to work and boy that 1 minute sure comes and goes so quickly. I've heard other actors say they've received callbacks and I hope I get one too. This showcase is only done annually so if you get invited to come audition it is a pretty big deal.

What a week! Crazy but this is my life right now. I have 2 interviews to conduct for Latino LA and lots of research to do so my work is cut out for me.

I connected with Jackie Barber on Facebook. I did a student film with her several years ago for Chapman University Film School. I believe she was the assistant director. I never saw the final film and through Facebook, we connected and she sent me the film. It was pretty good! Lots of folks don't like to see themselves on film but I try to learn from each film so I can get better for the next one. In the film I am held hostage by bank robbers and get shot. It was so much fun and it was great to see a film I did 4 years ago. The film is called National Bank and Trust and you can see it on http:/www.vimeo.com/1333912

Happy viewing!

Guardian Angels

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Today is a day to remember all those whose lives were taken on September 11, 2001. I remember well how frightening it was. We all prayed that there would be no more attacks in any other city. Our hearts and prayers went out to the families of those who lost their lives that terrible day.

I sit alone as I prepare to film tomorrow. And I am so thankful for my family and my friends. From Donna who checks on me to see if I'm okay. To Rebecca who laughs at my jokes. To my friend, John who congratulates me on this new role. And to my new friend, Hector Bustamante who likes my work and cheers me on when I have a new audition.

I am thankful each day for life and for new opportunities. I am saddened when I hear that people are still losing their homes. I pray for the safety of all those men and women who serve our country in the armed forces.

My heart is heavy right now. I am going out into the sunshine. I hope my guardian angels are with me as I need them to surround me with their love.

Wrapping Up My Week

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I saw some commercials on t.v. today that I auditioned for. It's so weird because you never know what they are looking for. And then you don't hear anything and then there it is on t.v. It seems that most of the time the person that they did choose is really over the top. Guess I'll have to remember that next time I audition. Jim Carey is like that really over the top characters. He does get noticed and he is funny. So I'll have to remember to be more like Jim.

Tomorrow I go to Pasadena to get interviewed for a show. It should be good. I normally do the interviewing so I'll have to remember to just relax and have a good time.

Things are picking up a bit and next week I am working on TLC "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant". I was kinda surprised when I got this because I think I did okay and I was asked to do it again. So I really listened for the direction and thought I did a good job. So yeah, I am filming next week.

Several weeks ago I filmed some promos for "Jeopardy". Can't wait to see them come out. I think they are national spots. Good exposure. I was sad that I didn't get a change to meet Alex Trebek. I love Jeopardy! Maybe I'll get a chance to see him some other time.

I'm so happy that my friends are starting to get work, too. My friend Syl got a PSA and in Spanish too. I was supposed to go on that audition too but my car was acting up and since we have the fires everywhere I didn't want to risk getting stuck somewhere. I'm so glad that we both booked gigs on the same day. We have the same agent so I know she was thrilled with both of us.

Well, better get some rest for tonight because we are filming tomorrow!

There's Gonna Be a Great Day!

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I spoke to my agent last evening and she told me I booked a job! One of the auditions I went on last week was for the TLC show, I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant. I auditioned for the role of the Doctor. I had some new scrubs and a stethoscope. We had to learn the lines and the job also called for some Improv work. I love Improv so it was no problem for me.

I got there early, rehearsed my lines, looked good and felt confident. That's all you can do. Go in there and do your best. So even though I did not get the role of the Doctor, they did give me an equally juicy role.

We film next week. Yeah! I spoke to my agent about going on auditions and leaving and not really knowing how you did. She told me they are so busy they don't have time to give people feedback. I know that is true but still when someone else gets hired for the job you have to wonder. Is it that I don't have the look they want? Am I not talented enough? What is it? She said you are talented, it usually is that they are going for a certain look. So that made me feel better. She said be yourself, be confident and don't worry about it.

I really like my agent. She's so professional and that's what I like. I don't have time for folks who are fooling around. This is a business and should be treated like one.

As for blogging, I like it. It helps me stay centered and focused. When I worked at the Police Department for 10 years I learned so much. A person's character is so important. And your word is so important. So if you have ever read any of my articles published on Latino LA you will see that I do not put people down. I try to be always positive and uplifting. Acting is a hard profession and you really cannot take rejection personally.

When terrible things happen like the fires we are having in southern California, it really makes you appreciate the kind of professional people that the firemen are and the police personnel and hospital personnel. Where would we be without these people? The Red Cross and The Salvation Army and the United Way. Good people volunteer their time and services and professionalism to help others. So many good people out there. I worked dispatch and I've worked for The Salvation Army and I've worked with the United Way. So I know first hand how these people are there at a moment's notice to do whatever it is needs to be done.

And so I know that there's gonna be a great day when these fires are put out and folks can go back to their homes and start again. And for those who have lost their lives, our prayers go out to you and to your families.

It's All Happening

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I'm very excited because I went on 3 auditions last week. I received a call from a Casting Agent who had my head shot for one year. She has an upcoming project and wanted me to come in for a Screen Test. I did the screen test yesterday and it was fun. The project starts next Spring so it will be interesting to see what happens. Competition is so tough right now with so many people out of work. The acting competition is fierce but all I can do is give it my all and be as professional as I can.

I will be interviewed later this week for the program, "Marcielle Presents!". We are shooting at the studios in Pasadena. I'm very excited because I'm usually the one who does the interviews. As soon as it airs, I will let everyone know. It's been a crazy year and I've had a fantastic time meeting and conducting interviews for Latino LA. And if I get this new job, I will be conducting the interviews over the air!

I had another opportunity come my way this morning but I can't really say anymore at this point but the event is huge! I will keep you all updated. Confidentiality is important right now.

Two weeks ago I was on a reality show and had to sign a confidentiality agreement. It was very exciting and fun. But I must abide by their rules until after the program airs. It's just so exciting to have things happen in my career. I have worked hard and it's nice to know that it is so true what they say. Pay your dues, be patient, work hard and good things will come to you.

I love the movie, "Almost Famous". The Band Aids and the young writer are all in the midst of the bands and their music and they realize that it's all happening, and that is true of my career, too.

I received an email straight from the Blackberry of actor, Hector Luis Bustamante. He's so kind to take a moment from his hectic schedule right now to say congrats to me on this new gig.

It's all Happening!

Broken Dolls

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I've been writing for as long as I can remember. I think I started writing my first novel in grade school. I'd start and then stop. I'd show my best friend how many chapters I had written. She'd like it. I'd lose confidence and then stop writing altogether. Vicious cycle.

I remember my friend was going to UCSD and they were asking women of color to send in writing material for their new publication. I submitted a story I had written about women who have been sexually abused and called it "Broken Dolls". It was accepted and published. I was so proud.

I was not aware that it would create such a ripple. Everyone wanted to know who I was. Women who had never told anyone their personal horror stories were suddently reaching out to each other and to me. I opened up a can of worms and I didn't even know it.

I felt ill equipped to deal with their pain because I was dealing with my own issues of childhood sexual abuse. My first instinct was to flee. When you are abused physically, mentally, emotionally but especially sexually you really have intimacy issues later on in life. I still find it difficult to reach out to people and to trust them.

You can imagine my surprise when I heard that there is a film coming out entitled, "Broken Dolls". How can that be? I do hope that someone hasn't stolen my stories and put them out there into a film. I wouldn't be surprised if that happened. But at least give me credit for an original idea.

As I said, it's difficult to trust anyone! Sexual abuse is bad enough but to steal someone's idea to make money for a film is just disgusting. I hope that I'm wrong, but I don't think that I am. It's a sad world.

Hellbent for Hollywood: Andy Arias

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Yes, it is true. My friend and fellow acting class member, Andy Arias is in the cast of Hellbent for Hollywood. He is asking all of his friends to vote for him on the website: http://www.hellbentforhollywood.com and he is #207.

I interviewed Andy for the magazine, Latino LA and the interview turned out pretty well if I do say so for myself. Andy is a special person and I know that once folks get to know him from the article, from the interviews or personally, you'll be a big fan too.

So through the magic of the internet and Facebook and Twitter and MySpace, I know we can all make a difference for Andy.

Go Andy!

Andy Arias, Rising Star!

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I went to one of my acting classes and met a really cute guy with a charming smile, Andy Arias. We did some acting exercises, improv and he blew my socks away. Only later do you realize that he is in a wheelchair.

Andy is a young Latino actor who was born with cerebral palsy. He doesn't let that deter him from following his dreams of wanting to reach out to others through his acting. He doesn't want to be a role model but he is one. I wanted to learn more. So I contacted him and asked to interview him for Latino LA.

We spoke on the phone yesterday and I was doing my research on him, I was amazed that he swims, had done stand in work, had training in hand-to-hand combat, and sings. What can't this guy do, I thought?

He is very excited to be one of the actors featured in Hellbent for Hollywood. He tells me that this program features actors and folks like you and I will get an opportunity to vote for him to stay on the show. Although this is an internet show, the producers are hoping that this program will be picked up by one of the networks. Andy is actor #207 and we can begin voting for him now. You can only vote once so do keep that in mind.

My article is published today on http://latinola.com/ and is listed under the Hollywood section. Of course!

Watch out, Hollywood! Andy is in the house!

To vote for Andy: go to http://hellbentforhollywood.com/ vote for #207

And yes, he is as cute as he looks! Spread the word to your friends when you blog. Once in awhile you meet someone who is as beautiful on the inside as he is on the outside. That doesn't happen very often in Hollywood. But in Andy's case, it is!

What's New With You?

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Well, I am so glad you asked. I had a job interview for a writing position. And it was weird timing because I applied and the very next day my Agent called to tell me they wanted to see me. Well, she knows that I do theatre and I do drama and I do comedy. So she represents me for theatre, commercial work and print work. Print work is modeling stuff. If you know me, you know I do not look like a model. I look like your regular average American woman. Now the average American woman is 5'4" tall and wears a size 14. I am under 5'4" and I wear a size 12. Which is HUGE in LA. Most women there are a size 0 to 4. Yup, 0 to 4. I am not large enough to wear Lane Bryant clothes. Although if I keep eating, I'll get there. I am in that in between stage. So needless to say, I don't like going to the mall or shopping for clothes.

Back to the writing position. So my Agent does not know that I write. Even though I am a regular contributing writer to Latino LA. (here's my plug: http://www.LatinoLA.com). So that's cool, I landed an appointment for an interview. But I have guests in my home and I can't just leave them and run up to LA. So I rescheduled the appointment for Thursday (yesterday). It worked out great cause I was able to relax and enjoy my guests. And after they left I realized they will probably want to see some of my new work.

As a writer there are times when you can't write or type fast enough. The material just pours out of you onto the page. And then there are other times when you can't write if your life depended on it. I hate those times. I know they are only temporary and then I'll spring back to life again. So I started to panic because I wanted to show him something new.

And then I started doing some research on some new material I had in mind. Then I started watching some old rap performances on You Tube. And I started watching some new material like Black Eyed Peas and Usher. And I started writing and writing and yes, I came up with some new stuff.

The interview went very well and I may have an opportunity to join and collaborate with some other writers in a new venture. The only thing is, I'm used to doing my own thing. I'm thinking over their offer of joining them and working as a team. But then, who will own my material? See, things to think about before joining anything. People this is Show business. Emphasis on business! So I have to think with my head.

In the meantime, I've been seriously thinking about making my own You Tube videos for a long time. I've done some celebrity interviews. I can do some video interviews. I know tons of famous people and I always have people asking me to interview them. So, let me know what you think. Write a comment and let me know your opinion.

Hasta la vista!

August es Muy Caliente!

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It's so darn hot in August. But after all, it is August. I started August out strong shooting some promos at the former MGM lot in LA. I did background -- once you are booked on a gig you really don't know what is in store for you. There were only 8 of us and 2 were chosen for Principle roles. It was cool to meet the other actors. We were all professional and met the Wardrobe guy and the Director. I was told by my agent that they were very pleased with all of us. We were on time, professional and did a great job. That's how to get future work, so I'm pleased. Getting paid for this will be the icing on the cake.

I have an interview tomorrow as a writer. I started to panic because when you are a writer or an actor, we panic. Why are we so insecure? I did a tarot card reading on myself and if I read the cards correctly, the cards said that if I don't believe in myself, who will? And that is so true. We have to go into auditions and interviews with confidence! We have to know that we are best person for that job and they would be silly to hire anyone else!

Once I started panicking, I started to get to work. I stayed up till 2:00 a.m. I'm not a day person, anyway. And I came up with quite a bit of original material. Very exciting stuff. Now I have to find my tripod which I know is in this house somewhere... and practice on camera work. We do have a few places here in town that have open mic night. It would be a good idea to go over there and practice my new material in front of a live audience to see what works and what doesn't.

See, if I were a manager I would advise my client to do just that. So being part of show business means you are not only the talent, we are the creator of our careers too. Speaking of which, there has been some questionable material on the casting sites lately. Is is me, or is everyone taking their clothes off now? I can't believe some of the breakdowns I am seeing. Like this...

Female actor needed to simulate sex. Nudity required. Low-budget film. No pay. What the hell! Why would any woman say, oh yeah -- sign me up. Please take advantage of me on film, ruin what could possibly be a good career -- and don't pay me for the priviledge of showing you my chi chis. These people need to get real.

There was one time when I went to audition for a play in San Diego. The audition was going pretty well. There were 4 of us ladies on stage. We had to briefly talk about ourselves for a few moments. And then we were asked to simulate masturbation. The other 3 ladies did. I just stood there and refused to do it. I am a former Catholic lady, people. I refused to cross that line. For what? For some stupid 3 guys who, I don't even know who they were. There is a difference between an Actor and a whore. Even in Hollywood, or in this case, San Diego.

'Why don't you give me the respect I deserve?" "Because I am not one of your fans"! quote from Mommie Dearest.

Follow the Yellow Brick Road

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I'm so excited! We filmed the Jeopardy promos on Tuesday. And when I arrived at Sony Studios, I saw a sign on the lot that said Columbia Pictures. When we arrived at the Security gate we were taken by golf cart to our stage. As we were being driven on the lot, we were told that this lot was the former MGM lot! How exciting! They told us this is where they filmed 'The Wizard of Oz'.

I looked around me at the hills and the blue sky and I imagined all the stars like Judy Garland and Clark Gable, Joan Crawford and Ava Gardner reporting to the very same lot. It was a dream come true.

When I was a teen in high school, I always auditioned for high school musical productions. I was a dancer in one production, a chorus member in another. And finally, I played the lead role in our production of 'My Fair Lady'. When we graduate we are supposed to write a where are they now 20 years after graduation. I wrote that I was working on a film at MGM Studios. Is that wild or what? See, who said dreams don't come true?

We were there for 5-1/2 hours. We didn't get a chance to meet Alex. But, Vanna White was there. And some of other actors saw Cameron Diaz. You never know who you are going to see.

In the older days, someone saw potential in you and would give you a contract to be part of the studio talent. In one sense being a part of a studio meant you got some real on-the-job training. They taught you to dance, to sing, how to pose. How to answer questions with the press. All that stuff. But then they tried to control your personal life, too. Now we are pretty much on our own -- left to our own devices.

What a history of that studio. So now I have worked on the Gower lot, Universal Studios lot, Raleigh Studios and now Sony. Look out Warner Brothers, you're next!

What's Your Dream?

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Do you have one? Are you going for your dreams? Do you dream or have you stopped dreaming? I have a friend who said she was awakened because she was panicky about her dreams. They were so big that they literally woke her up. Sometimes that will happen. Your unconscious self will talk to you in your sleep and point you to the right way of achieving your dreams.

That actually happened to me too. I was fast asleep in little Toledo, Ohio and I woke next to my husband in a panic. I knew, I absolutely knew that we had to get out of town and move out West. I knew that I was wasting my life there and that if I really wanted to achieve my dreams that I'd have to leave.

Now for a Latina, to leave your family and your childhood friends is very tough. But I knew I was on the right path once I left and moved to California. When I was starting out as an actor I joined local community theater and started at the bottom as a book holder. My job was to go to all the rehearsals and help the actors if they forgot a line. They would call out, 'line' and I would give them their next line in the play. After awhile, I knew I could be an actor too.

I moved onto chorus work in several musicals. I wasn't a good enough actor or dancer to play a Principle role. But that way okay because I was learning the ropes. And it was amazing how some folks let their role get to their head. And part of me was thinking, this isn't Broadway people, it's little Toledo, Ohio. But I learned to work hard and landed several roles. I even took some acting classes at the University of Toledo.

I met a really nice man who worked for the local television station and his name was Jim Rudes. He was the first person I met who actually said I had talent and he was very encouraging. The other person who encouraged me was our Music teacher in high school. His name was Gordon Simpson.

When I moved out to California I started working as a background extra and learned the film business. I was in the pilot episode of The L Word. I worked on the film, Top Dog and The Virgin of Juarez and Sueno. I worked on Little Black Book and Six Feet Under. I eventually landed roles in some student films for Chapman University film school. I got roles in industrial films and worked as a Production intern for a director.

I started doing commercials and worked on a commercial for UPS, and medical industrial films for the American Cancer Society. I auditioned for and got an agent. I landed a national commercial for Capitol One. I've met some great people along the way.

I started writing and started having my articles published. I am currently writing my first novel and tomorrow I am filming again. So that's my dream. To continue writing and being a working actor. I've even written original material and performed them onstage in Hollywood.

Not bad for a gal from Toledo, Ohio to Hollywood. And I'm not stopping, either. You may find me in an acting class. Or I may interview you for an upcoming article. You can google my name and see some of my accomplishments. I think about all those naysayers in Toledo who said you want to be an actress? Damn right, I do. So look out world, here I come!

Jeopardy!

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Well, I did not get a callback from the Big Lots commercial audition that I went on yesterday. It's okay, I did my best and that's all you can do.

I did find out that I am doing a promo for Jeopardy next week. Don't know if it's a national promo or just regional but it's all good. I love Jeopardy! I always play along to see how smart I am, or not! I report to the studio next week for hair & makeup. I'm so excited!

I got a call from my friend, David Fernandez. David plays the role of Big Rick in the film 'Attack of the 30 Foot Chola'. I will be in the film too in the role of Rosalinda. My daughter, Rosie is one of the chola girls. She is a good girl who hangs out with some bad girls and they get into trouble. The script is really good and I'm looking forward to filming my portion.

David is going to join me and we are going to drink some fine wine. It sounds so good right now. This is a very tough time for so many people and I can't think of a better way that is legal to medicate myself.

Just kiddin' I'm not really a drinker. The last time I drank like two bottles of wine with some friends, it was not pretty! Such is the life of an actor -- studying lines, looking for new opportunities, working with your agent, improving our craft, and wondering how we are going to eat and pay the rent.

Oh, the life of an artist can be rough. But I love this profession, what can I say?

Kevin Spacey said it best: 'To want, to be ambitious and to want to be successful is not enough! That's just desire. If you feel you have something to give, talent is worth developing. Then, there's nothing you can't achieve'.

Commercial Audition

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I had a commercial audition today and it went pretty well. I saw a friend there and met some new friends, too. I was very tired but you have to put all that behind you when you have an audition.

My left shoe was acting up and so I asked if I could just take my shoes off. And the guy said sure! So I did. And I had to move kinda quickly into the shot so I'm glad I asked about the shoes. I think I did pretty well so I'm hoping to get a callback tomorrow. I'll let you know.

I have another audition tomorrow for a film. So we'll see how that goes. It's a low budget non-union film. The pay is terrible but it is pay and that is what I need right now.

I'm looking forward to shooting a commercial next week and I'll update at that time. Another beautiful day in LA!

New Opportunities

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That's the name of the game right now. Staying focused on my career and always looking for those new opportunities. I received a call from my agent yesterday and I will be filming a commercial next week!

I have put in for about 5 jobs all in the entertainment industry. So I am scheduling interviews and still going out for those acting jobs. Life is good!

I had a wonderful talk with my brother last week when I was in Vegas. We shared some brother/sister time and talked about our dreams. Just like when we were young kids. He has grown into quite the smart young man and I am so proud of him. This time he was encouraging me. And we talked about 'The Secret' and other positive things.

Sure enough, I got the official letter that I can now join SAG. And I got the phone call for that national commercial next week. I was chosen and so were 3 others. Yeah!

The universe is blessing me eternally!

Goodnight, Sweet Prince

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Last week as I was on my way to an audition, I heard the news that the King of Pop, Michael Jackson had died. It really shook me as I was driving in rush hour traffic and trying to concentrate on my upcoming audition. I can honestly say I couldn't concentrate. I kept seeing Michael as a little boy performing with his brothers. It was so exciting to see this little boy who was so talented. And you just wanted to see him again and again.

I remember when the King of Rock and Roll, Elvis died. My older sister was crazy about him. She thought I was playing a joke on her when I told her I heard on the radio that Elvis died. Now I know how she felt. We grew up with Michael. We wanted him to succeed. Unfortunately, I never did go to his concerts. By the time I heard he was coming to town, they were already sold out. Michael was a force to be reckoned with. People around the globe imitated him, cried for him, reached out to him.

I received an invitation to attend a gathering to view the memorial services. This event was invitation only and held at Elvis's mansion in Palm Springs. How ironic! Of course I had to attend this event. Security was tight and I had to show my invitation. They took down my driver's license number and personal email address. I had to use the restroom and they told me I couldn't take in my cell phone or camera.

There were about 100 people at the gathering. I wore a black dress, black shoes, little black gloves and a black hat. I wanted to honor Michael as if I knew him personally. I wanted to show my respect. The memorial was beautiful, touching and sad. I honestly wept. I saw photos go off in the corner of my eyes. After the memorial, I wanted to leave immediately.

A reporter approached me and asked for my name because they planned on publishing the photos they took of me. I couldn't speak so I handed him my card. I believe he was from the local newspaper, the Desert Sun.

All I knew was, I was sitting in what was formerly Elvis' home and mourning the King of Pop, Michael. Outside the home there was a huge canvas where we could write notes. I was told these items would be sent to the Jackson family.

I wrote: To Michael, may you finally get the peace that you deserve. Love, Lisa

A gentleman was there with guards because he ran security at Neverland. He brought in some of Michael's personal effects. One of the items was Michael's Fedora hat. We passed it around. And I got to try it on. My head was larger than Michael's! But it was wonderful to try it on. I had to leave because it was just too sad.

There will never be another American treasure like Michael Jackson. May he rest in peace.

Released from Commercial

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Well, I received word from my agent that I have been released from the commercial. I did my best and she said they 'loved me' and will definitely call me back for other work. That's a good sign. To get that close to a really, really good job that I almost got. I can tell my training is helping my confidence level. When the clients are sitting right there and you know they really thought I was good but they decided to go in a different direction -- well, there's nothing you can do about that but chalk it up to experience.

So, I won't think about it anymore tonite and just concentrate on tomorrow.

Possible Callback

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I just received word from my agent that I have been placed 'on hold' for the commercial audition that I was on last week in Santa Monica. I'm very thrilled because I feel that I did a really good job at my audition. I walked in confidently, I smiled and talked a little. I was focused and felt that I did a good audition. Now the holidays came and went -- and my agent said they want to make sure I'm available for a fitting later this week and for filming next week. This is very important because I have been taking classes and taking my acting to the next level. It's so important to take this job seriously because there is so much competition out there. And people are hungry for work. But I don't think about that stuff. I concentrate on myself -- on being professional. Being on time, being focused, being prepared. My classes have helped me so much. And I have been getting lots of encouragement and support from my peers. And it all helps.

I was looking for my rosary so I could pray. I couldn't find it! But I do remember how to pray and I told my agent that I'm going to pray until I hear what the word is. So folks, keep good thoughts and keep me in your prayers.

My good friend, Syl is up for a role in this same commercial too. We've worked together before and she is very sweet. I will pray for her, too. It would be great to work together again.

Blessings to both of us! I will stay focused and remain positive. This job would truly be a blessing and would be another goal that I have set for myself and achieved. I constantly strive for that next level and I truly believe that if it is to be, then it is up to me. And God.

Being a Disabled Actor

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I have an audition today at Ocean Park Casting. I am hoping to have a better July than June. Although June was pretty good. That is my goal this month. In any event, I need some type of paying job. My walleto is looking pretty thin lately.

It's funny, I went to the different casting sites I am on. And there is one section where the disabled actors are listed. I wasn't on there and I should have been included. So I called several people and hopefully they will get that corrected pretty soon. There was one gal on there that is stacked like a Playboy Bunny. She was in several magazine spreads, photos, modeling sites, etc. and no where did she list having any type of disability. So I'm wondering why she is on that site at all! You don't think she would upload her resume on there just to be noticed, do you? It's like able bodied people wouldn't just park in a handicapped spot would they? Exactly!

It is really strange being a disabled actor. You don't want to draw attention to the fact that you are disabled. And yet there are certain things that we cannot do. If you are in a wheelchair and the part calls for running away from a bad guy down the alley and climbing over the fence to get away. Well, I'd have to pass on that role. However, if you go to a casting office and say hi! I'm disabled, please hire me. Yeah, like that would ever happen.

So we have to go in as confidently as we can and show what we can do. And not what we cannot do. But then if they are casting a character in a wheelchair, why would you hire an able bodied person to be in a wheelchair. Why don't you hire someone who really is in a wheelchair?

One in every 6 people are disabled in this country. Why are we not seen more in commercials and on television/films? If your project is a SAG project you can actually get money for using disabled actors in your low budget SAG film. It's a win-win situation.

I have met some fantastic actors recently. One just happens to be blind. Another is deaf but can read lips and can sign. Another is cute as a button and happens to be in a wheelchair. Another lost his leg from a motorcycle accident. They are good actors who just want a chance like everyone else in Hollywood.

I am writing and performing an original piece of work on exactly this theme. You can bet that I'll do my best at this audition. I won't draw any attention to the fact that I am disabled. I will show them what I can do and not what I can't. Give us respect and dignity. Many times our dignity goes out the window. And we must laugh at ourselves. Don't laugh at us, laugh with us.

Wow, I don't know where all that came from. I just love my friends and fellow disabled actors. We all look out for each other and encourage each other. I hope to be an inspiration to someone. I got fitted for my leg braces the other day and that was tough. But I am told it will help me to walk better, feel better and have more energy. Sounds good to me. Anything that will help my balance so I'm not falling over is a good thing. I even have a cane and now all I have to do is perfect my Charlie Chaplin walk and I'll be good to go.

I happen to be a polio survivor. FDR is my role model. He had polio too and look at all that he accomplished.

Off to another audition in la la land...

SAG Eligible

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Oh my! So many deaths in LA lately. Farrah Fawcett & Michael Jackson. I still can't believe it. I have been in LA so much between acting classes, auditions and actually working. I had an audition on Thursday that did not go well. And I worked in Sherman Oaks on Friday on an industrial. That went very well. I sent a thank you note to the casting director and then he hired me again to work on Monday for Style Network, "How Do I Look"? An easy gig for not that much pay. But it is still pay nevertheless.

Also, after I wrapped filming on Friday I had to pop into the Screen Actors Guild to drop off some paperwork. I am now officially able to join SAG and I'm so excited because I really worked hard to making this dream come true. Yes, there is a lot of non union work out there and it is a good way to learn about this business. But I want to officially be on that next level of being a professional actor in SAG. Here is a photo of me in front of the SAG offices on Wilshire Boulevard in Los Angeles. Yeah, me!

I received an email from Blanca Valdez Casting. She thanked me for recommending her to a Producer. Of course, Blanca! I met her earlier this year and I am so glad that she remembered me.

Must write more and really get centered on my piece that I will be performing later this year at the Stella Adler theater. Very exciting stuff. I am reading and studying everything from Method acting to screenwriting.

Stay tuned!

I booked the job!

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I'm so excited! I booked the job that I auditioned for yesterday! I felt very good about it and I just got the official phone call. It's amazing how quickly everything moves with electronic submissions. I submitted myself for this gig. Next morning get a phone call to come audition. Did the audition and today I booked it. Wow and the job films on Friday. All this in 1 week.

Just goes to show that if you want to work and get paid for it, you have to train -- audition -- have headshots -- and a nice wardrobe -- get there on time -- be professional -- and just go with it.

I have another acting class tonite and I believe these classes and the support of other actors, casting directors and my agent really give me the confidence to just go for it!

I am showing a photo of my friend Donna and I who are taking classes together. She is such a good friend. And, I don't know where I would be without her. Thanks, Donna!

Auditions Can Be Fun

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I had a really good audition yesterday in Santa Monica for an industrial film. I know it was good because people were smiling. That's a good sign. I've gone on auditions when I've felt like, gee who let me in the room? And once in awhile you really get the material -- and there was even an opportunity to do some Improv.

I did not have any sides so once I checked in with the receptionist, she checked off my name and gave me some sides. I am Hispanic woman. There are 2 small paragraphs of dialogue. We are told by the show runner that they are not looking so much for perfection on the copy but what they are looking for is genuine feelings. So I started to read all the dialogue, not just my copy but everything to get a feel for what is going on in the scene.

So I knew what was happening. There were about 4 people in the waiting area with more coming in each moment. Then the Chinese food was delivered and they wanted to take a few moments to eat. That's okay with me. Nothing worse than walking into a room of casting people who are irritable and hungry. That gave me an opportunity to run to the ladies room, powder my nose and catch a glimpse of myself. I wore a navy suit, minimal jewelry and conservative make-up.

Finally, they called me in. There were 4 guys in the room. They were very nice and there was the camera. We went over some particulars and then they asked me if I was ready. I was and we continued with the scene. I think they liked what they saw and after I read the 2Nd paragraph, I ad libbed a little. They then asked me to read some of the other parts, which I did. Then they asked me to put down the scripts entirely and give my thoughts on the product. I spoke for a few moments and then they thanked me.

And they actually smiled! So I have a feeling I have the job which films on Friday. The pay is not great but I am doing this for the experience, more material for my demo reel. And the chance to show these guys what I can do.

Thank goodness for the Improv class I did last week, which gave me the confidence to take that extra time in the waiting area. Taking extra time like I had can be used to collect your thoughts, get into the character, be open to flexibility and really listen for direction.

Keeping fingers crossed!