Lisa Zion

Time to be Frugal

2012-02-15T14:36:00.000-08:00

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Actors - Hollywood...I love my actor friends. They are so special to me. Creative artists, dancers, actors, poets, writers, directors, camera men and women. I talk to so many others in the business. What I am finding is that we are all going through difficult times. Gone are the days when we could spend away and not worry about tomorrow. But how can a girl still look during a financial crisis? Read on...

I have been thinking of ways to be creative, save money and still do what we need to do. One of the things I love to do is get a manicure/pedicure. However, it will cost at least $25 and then add a tip. Or, you can watch how they do it, buy the essentials and save yourself some money by doing it yourself at home. I buy those little spongy toe separators. I buy a pumice stone to take away rough patches around the heels of your feet. You can then easily clip away toe nails, scrub the heels with a brush and then use your pumice stone. Wipe and pat dry. Use moisturizing lotion. Grab an emery board and shape your nails. Use the tools to take away any cuticles. Use the base coat, then your nail color. Let dry and then use your top coat to set your color. It normally takes 20 minutes to 30 minutes but then you save tons of $$$ and have fabulous looking nails.

Dollar stores are a great place to buy some of the above items. I also like to buy make-up sponges, round cotton type make-up remover, bath sponges, shower gel and cotton swabs. I also found eye shadow collections, black eyeliner pencils and lipsticks. Then I was surprised to find black demi false eyelashes. Oh my goodness, I couldn't believe my eyes. I grabbed 3 packs and really I should have put all of them in my little cart. When I went back to buy the rest of them, they were all gone. You can also buy tissues, paper towels and pot holders for $1 each. Why pay more?

One thing I won't skimp on is good shampoo and conditioner. I go to a professional hair stylist once per month to keep my color looking fabulous and to keep my hair neatly trimmed. As an actor, my product is me and I owe it to myself to stay in top form. My head shots are current and it is up to me to make sure I look like my head shot. If I have a fabulous head shot and I come in looking all scruffy and unkempt then what are casting directors going to think? I buy Paul Mitchell products and use only the best for my hair.

Visit your dentist at least twice per year. My dentist and the assistants love me. They always ask me when my next film is, commercial or print ad. They know I rely on them to keep my teeth looking fab. My insurance covers two visits per year. With teeth whitening, veneers and regular brushing and flossing, my teeth always look great.

Get your sleep! There is nothing like a good night's sleep to keep your skin looking good, your hair and eyes sparkly. Don't exercise right before bed time. Get a regular schedule so you can get some good sleep. If you are a worrier and have something huge coming up, you know you need your sleep. Once in awhile it is okay to take a sleep aide like Tylenol PM. It has helped me when I need an extra amount of sleep. But never take alcohol with sleep aids. A big no no!

Never fall asleep with your make-up on. Always moisturize before you go to bed and after washing your face first thing in the morning. Use a sunblock of 30 or higher.

I ran into an actor friend once at an audition. Her hair color had faded and her hair was all frizzy. She had no make-up on. Her overall appearance was tired and unkempt. I, on the other hand, was relaxed and refreshed. My hair looked good, my clothes were clean and pressed. I arrived 15 minutes early and was ready to go. I had directions, extra head shots with me and was eager to audition. I could tell that she knew I looked great and she was a mess. I felt badly for her but just for a moment.

This is a very competitive business. We owe it to ourselves to be our best and give our best at every audition. You can save money and still look good. You can be the professional that you know you are. You owe it to yourself to be your very best and to shine. It's never to late to begin. These principles are the same if you are an actor, a banker, a salesperson, or a nurse. Until the economy turns around we can still look great and be frugal too.

Super Bowl

2012-02-05T15:03:00.000-08:00

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Nothing like starting the year in my career than with a Super Bowl commercial. Yay! I auditioned for a role in a Pepsi commercial. And lo and behold, I got it! Go to www.Pepsi.com and see the commercial called Kings Court with Sir Elton John. If you look at 30 seconds into the commercial, you will see me dancing. I am left to right the 4th or 5th person, standing next to a tall man who is dressed as a juggler. He is wearing a one piece yellow and red leotard. We are all dancing to Respect!

Starting the year off right!

New Year, New Me

2012-01-20T12:31:00.000-08:00

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My goodness, so much has been happening that I can't believe it is January. So here we are in a new year. I didn't think 2011 was bad at all. And I am hoping that 2012 will be even better. What do they say? Those who fail to plan, plan to fail. I am making lists and taking care of things so that I will have a good year.

October flew by with so many performances of the Wizard of Oz. Before I knew it, we were into November (resting) and lots of eating because of Thanksgiving. We had a visit from Tony, my brother-in-law who loves to visit and he loves my cooking.

Then before we knew it December was here. We didn't even put up our Christmas tree till December 19. That is how crazy everything was. I have a six foot tall artificial tree. And I decided that even though my son is away and cannot visit, that I would still try to be cheerful and decorate the tree. Once I did, then I actually did feel better. I made a fabulous Christmas dinner of turkey, ham and all the fixings. The gifts were few but heartfelt. My brother actually came for Christmas this year. I have been inviting him for years and he finally came. I was so thrilled. I think he loved waking up to mimosas, scrambled eggs, ham and homemade muffins. We had a great time and a quiet new year's eve.

In December, I had an audition out of the blue for a national commercial for a major client. Then, I had a callback! And I booked the job! Even though it was only for background, it is still a national commercial. We didn't film until January but that was okay. We shot the commercial for two days at Sony studios. It was great fun and I made some new friends. It is a fabulous way to kick off the new year.

So my resolution this year is to stay on top of business! I felt like last year was such a blur. And this year I vow to stay on top of things more. We have a new baby on the way. My career is going well. I am writing more and actually just wrote a one act play. My voice lessons are going great and I am looking forward to more auditions and more opportunities to be involved in film projects.

Windows of My Mind

2011-11-21T04:52:00.001-08:00

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I can't believe I am awake at 4:00 a.m. on a Monday morning but there it is. It was raining all evening and very cold for southern CA. I don't like it one bit and I'm glad that I stayed home instead of going out in this mess. Traffic to and from LAX was a nightmare. I felt sorry for the poor folks who were out in the mess.

Ah yes, the windows of my mind. Well, now that things have slowed down a bit and I am recovering from a cold that has lasted two weeks. Funny when you don't feel well how your mind can wander. I feel like the opening scenes of Chicago when Roxie Hart is watching Velma Kelly perform onstage. There is that watching and knowing that she can do what Velma is doing onstage. Of course the music is fantastic and the choreography, wow!

So Thanksgiving is in a few days and it reminds me of some previous turkey days. Where have the years gone? Sometimes I think I can hear the kids playing in the other room and me scrambling to get everything cooked and prepared on time. Now they are all grown and working. I never thought I would miss all those hectic times but there it is. Sometimes you don't know how good things are until they are gone. But I'm glad that they are living their own lives now and making their own memories.

I am staying positive to new opportunities around the corner. And I realize that in this showbiz you cannot wait around for the phone to ring, you have to make your own opportunities. I've had some new opportunities this year and made some new friends. My goal right now is to be kinder, to not say the first sarcastic thing that comes to my mind. I must get all the facts before I speak. I must learn more before I throw myself into that next project.

Dollars and Sense

2011-11-15T08:13:00.000-08:00

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Well now that The Wizard of Oz is over I am back to looking for another job. Such is the life of an actor. It is what we do. What most of you don't know is that prior to being an actor or I should say, in addition to being an actor, most of us hold day jobs. Now that is not always an easy feat. One must find a job that has some flexibility because if an important audition comes up, well we have to go and do the audition. Many actors work in restaurants. Many work in temp jobs. I was working as a banker. A mortgage banker.

I actually started working in finance years ago when I lived and worked in Ohio. A job transfer had me working in the Finance Department. At first I was very nervous. But then I found I was good with dollars and cents. I enjoyed reconciling figures. I enjoyed doing reports that showed the bottom line. And then I started applying those same financial principles to my own life. Bookkeeping became not a chore, but a well needed review of where we were financially and it became a time to think and plan for the future.

When women are around each other I noticed the conversations would turn to family, children, recipes, upcoming family events, etc. When I was around men the conversations turned to money, financial investments, the best place to take your autos, etc. In other words, how we could make more money and how can we save money? Needless to say, I enjoyed being around the men because I learned something from them. At first I was dismissed with a raised eyebrow. But when I started to talk about investing, saving, 401-K and portfolios then I was embraced into the fold.

Actors and good financial common sense many times do not go hand in hand. Many creative folk have talent to spare but when it comes to dollars, well their financial decisions don't make much sense. To be an actor today, you must invest in your livelihood. And that means you must pay for a good photographer, you must always have good head shots that look like you look right now. It means being able to pay for acting classes. You must pay for sites where you can submit yourself for acting jobs.

I am constantly amazed when I meet people who tell me that they want to do what I do. It is not an easy job, being an actor. You must have a thick hide! Nine times out of ten you will not get the job that you just auditioned for. And that is if you are lucky enough to even get called in for an audition in the first place. There are many actor friends that tell me that they will submit themselves for acting jobs once they contact a photographer because they have no head shots. Or they just don't have the money to join any acting sites where they can submit themselves. Or they took one acting class five years ago and now they don't feel the need to take any additional classes. I just smile and nod my head because they just don't get it. And that is one less person to take seriously as an actor. Because if they don't take their acting career seriously, no one else will either. So they should not be surprised when they don't get called in to audition.

And so people, and I am serious here. Don't think pennies. Think dollars. If you get hired as a professional actor -- and by professional I mean, they are paying you to act. Then you must reinvest some of those monies towards future acting jobs. Put aside some of your earnings towards future jobs. Many times those paying gigs are too few and too far in between. It is tempting to take all your other starving acting friends out to dinner or lunch. We have all been there. However, that is the time to think about the future.

Believe me, I had many friends asking me for comp tickets to see me in the Wizard of Oz. I would have loved to be able to give all of them comp tickets. However, financially this makes no sense.

Being an actor or any kind of artist is difficult, believe me. So if you have a friend who is an artist, we do suffer for our art. Take them out to lunch or dinner. Treat them to a film you both want to see. Listen patiently when we cry over a role we didn't get or an audition that didn't go well. And do cheer us on when we do get a role! It means so much to have supportive friends in your corner. And do come and see us when we perform. It means the world to us knowing we have friends and family in the audience. And that is something that is a pay check of the heart.

I truly hope that this post answers some financial questions for my actor friends out there. Save, save and save for a rainy day. We all have them and by being prepared for that rainy day will mean all the difference between a stressful life and a life that is comfortable. You have the power in your hands to choose what kind of life you will have. Be well, my friends!

Is it really over?

2011-11-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

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After 3 weeks of rehearsals and 3 weeks of shows, the Wizard of Oz is over. Our play went so well, everyone loved it and we received some great reviews. There were parties, and sad goodbyes. Our Dorothy will work the cruise lines in January. Our Tin Man will go to work at Disney Tokyo. The rest of us including yours truly will go back to auditioning again.

However before I do that I am going to relax this week and go to Las Vegas. I deserve some needed time to relax and enjoy. My sister Linda is in town and we are going to have a blast.

I enjoyed making new friends in the cast and Geraldine and I enjoyed a great sushi dinner prior to leaving for the final cast party. I had a really good time.

Well, have to get ready, pack my bags and hit the road. Next week, back to hitting the pavement in search of my next adventure. Adelante!

The Show Must Go On

2011-10-18T10:54:00.000-07:00

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Wow, it has been a whirlwind of activity since our show opened on Friday, October 14. We had an 8 pm show on Friday, Saturday and a 2:00 pm show on Sunday. We received standing ovations at each show. And two reviews have come out and they are saying, Wow! It is so exciting! We had a few glitches on our first show but the subsequent shows have been great.

My friend, Geraldine is so excited because this was her very first time onstage. She plays a Munchkin, a crow, a poppy flower, flying monkey and a character in Oz when we are in the Emerald City. I help her with some quick costume changes. We both learned all of the songs with the exception of the four main character's songs. So she doesn't get a chance to do much singing.

I play the part of the Barrister in the Munchkinland scene. And I do sing and dance in that number. And then I sing and dance in the Emerald City. I am glad to not have more scenes that the ones I have because I was worried that my little legs would not be able to keep up. But I am doing great and having a blast! I don't like to toot my own horn so I will tell you what happened after our Saturday night show.

We remove our costumes and make-up before we leave the theater. Geraldine and I were walking out of the theater on our way to the parking area when a man and his wife came up to me and he said, "I just want to say how good you were and I'm so glad you are part of the show". I looked at him because he was wearing a name badge that said STAFF on it. I said thank you so much, what is your name? He told me his name and that he is a part of the Production Staff. He said I can tell that the children performers are Munchkins but when I saw you, I said now she is a performer. That was so cool because even though I have very few lines in that number, it was great to know that he noticed that I was giving my all.

It is great to take our final bows for the night, look out into the audience and see a full house and they are all standing and clapping. I get to do it all again Thursday night through Sunday. After we finished our bows on Sunday, I asked Geraldine how she felt about finishing our first weekend shows. She was so excited and said she didn't want it to end. And I said, exactly and that is show biz! I think she is hooked now. She is currently studying to be a registered nurse but now that she has gotten a taste of show biz, well she may not ever get that out of her blood.

Some of our ensemble cast members are regular performers at Disneyland. Our Dorothy will go back to working as an entertainer on a cruise line once she wraps up in Oz. And even our little dog who plays Toto will go back to the east coast as he is a working dog too. Well, I won't get sad because we have two more weeks of the show.

And now that I have a few days off, I am back to voice lessons every Monday afternoon. Back to doing laundry and cooking for my family. I am enjoying watching my favorite tv shows like Rachel Zoe, Glee and Modern Family. I have to line up some more auditions and give my Agent a call. Yes, it is a crazy life being an actor. You can feel like a gypsy going from job to job. One week you are working then you are unemployed again. But to be a working actor in the theater, oh there is nothing like it.

Very quickly I have returned to finding a spot in the green room where we all apply our make-up and talk about our day. We rush to get into costumes, finding shoes and hairpins. Getting our wigs on just so and grabbing our props. It is a great feeling and it is like riding a bike. It all comes back to you, the smell of the grease paint the roar of the crowd.

Three Films in One Year!

2011-10-03T09:52:00.000-07:00

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Well, rehearsals are coming along nicely. I had a few days off and then back to rehearsing on the weekend. After Saturday's time I went to a party. I ended up leaving at 12:30 and went to bed at 2:00 a.m. I haven't done that in a long time. I made sure to only have one glass of wine so I was not drinking and driving.

I do end up doing quite a bit of dancing after all. Fortunately, there are no difficult steps. Being a dancer is one thing, being in the chorus is something else. We are dancing too but not like the dancers. They are center stage and doing difficult dips, waltzes and ballet moves. It's coming along beautifully.

My partner is an older gentleman who has many years experience as a dancer and choreographer. He has even danced in some shows in Las Vegas and on several cruise lines. He will make me look good! Thank you, Jim! Plus he is very nice. One of the little girls had a birthday the other day and we all sang happy birthday to her. Per parents surprised her with several boxes of cupcakes which she shared with all of us. And that was just great because I realized I had not eaten all day and that cupcake tasted pretty good.

Now I know you are wondering, how can you forget to eat all day? Well I get up kinda late (8:30 a.m.) and I have my morning coffee. I don't like to eat breakfast so I usually skip unless I'm craving protein so I will usually boil an egg. Then I go onto house cleaning, doing laundry, running errands. Then take a warm bath, get dressed and go to rehearsal. We rehearse for 3 or 4 hours. Then I come home, watch late night tv, eat a bowl of cereal and go to bed. Then I get up the next morning and do it all over again. Needless to say, I keep hearing songs from the show in my head all the time.

I am looking forward to the screening of the film, White T. We are waiting for the film to be finished, it is in post production right now. When the screening is scheduled, I will be invited along with the other actors to walk the red carpet. I have come along way from working on background on television and film projects to actually have a role in a feature film. So I will let you know more once I know more. My contract says that I have to make myself available for any additional pick up scenes, interviews and advertising of the film. No worries so long as it does not interfere with my current production.

And I did another film earlier this year, Attack of the 30 Foot Chola which is also in post production. And I did another film, Lean Like A Cholo. Wouldn't it be something if all three films were released this year? This is turning out to be another great year for my acting career and I know next year will be even better.

It's Not the Poconos!

2011-09-22T15:23:00.000-07:00

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My family back home is vacationing in the Poconos mountains in Pennsylvania having a good time. I do admit that Fall was my favorite time of year and I still miss the changing of the leaves. However, I am relaxing by the pool and getting ready to eat dinner before I go to rehearsals tonite.

The show is going great, many talented folks. There are the dancers, the children who are munchkins and some of the vocals are beautiful. Can't wait to see the sets and I've heard there are some great effects too. My part is coming along nicely and I am not sure if I will be dancing after all. I had to learn the dance just in case and I'm glad I did. We will see if my costume fits because whoever wore it before me sure was tiny.

I am meeting some new folks and making some new friends. I forgot how much I love doing musical theater. All day long I was humming some music from the show. I'm trying not to get too comfortable here at home. Have to start making dinner soon before heading out the door for a late rehearsal.

The kids are off for a few days. I have to admit they are as cute as they can be. They are so talented too. One little girl was telling me that she is taking dancing lessons in every form, except hip hop. I was not surprised that she picked up the steps very quickly.

There are some other acting jobs out there and I am hoping to get some more auditions before the show is completed. Well, I would love to go away on vacation sometime soon. Maybe we'll go to Big Bear before it snows up there. The weather is still in the low 90s which is nice for swimming. It seems hard to believe that we will actually get to use the fireplace again.

Okay, I have to stop yawning and gear up for tonite. Later, folks!

Ding Dong, the Witch is Dead!

2011-09-20T11:23:00.000-07:00

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We started rehearsals last night for the Wizard of Oz. I think I heard this song in my sleep all night. It was a long rehearsal, singing, dancing. I haven't done in a musical for a very, very long time. I am hoping that it will all come back to me but I admit it is taking awhile. Of course this was just a first rehearsal.

The little children that are playing munchkins, poppies, crows, etc. are so precious. Their little voices were so sweet as they were singing. It's going to be a great show!

I ran into the Ex. Producer of the show as I was leaving and he gave me a big hug and told me how glad he was that I am part of the show. I told him how excited I am to be a part of the show too and how all this dancing is going to help me lose weight! I won't need a personal trainer since we are dancing five days a week. And as it comes closer to show time, we are rehearsing six nights/week.

"Wicked" is coming back to the Pantages theater November 30 to January 30 and I am so excited, even though I've already seen the show twice. I have to get some girlfriends together to see the show again. I made the mistake of listening to the soundtrack all the way home from rehearsals and of course now I can't get those songs out of my head too.

Well, wish me luck people! I am going to need it to keep with these little munchkins!

Oh My Goodness!

2011-09-12T01:06:00.000-07:00

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Well, it has been a sad day watching all the events from 9/11 all over again. After watching for most of the day, I had to change the channel and watch some HBO. I also wanted to just thank God for all his blessings, most especially for my family and to get the chance to enjoy living! We had a lovely barbeque and afterwards took a dip in the pool under the full moon. It felt great!

I decided to stay off the computer today and in the evening checked my email. I received an email from a photographer that I know. He wanted to know if I would be interested in shooting some pix for a LA designer. Would I? You bet. Now I do not consider myself a model. I am an actor. But for this photographer and this designer, yes I could certainly model for you. So we shall see what is what. It was too late for me to call him on a Sunday night but perhaps we can talk tomorrow.

I still have to review my contract for the Wizard of Oz. I looked at it briefly but I have to review it in depth before I proceed. I had a costume fitting on Saturday. I went a little early and got to meet our Tin Man. He was really nice. We were both frantically trying on our various costumes. He looked great. And I had to have my dress taken out a little due to boobage. I guess whoever wore this costume before me did not have that much on top. But me, oh sometimes I wish there was a little less boobage, but what can you do?

Tomorrow is Monday which means voice lessons in the afternoon. Early dinner and swimming laps in the evening. I'm really not a morning kind of gal. But that's okay.

I'm hoping to go to Las Vegas sometime soon but now that we are starting rehearsals very soon, that may not be possible. Darn!!! I haven't been there for awhile and I really want to see my brother soon. And now that the temperature has gone down, I'm ready to go. I will keep my fingers crossed cause once rehearsals start, I won't be going anywhere. Sometimes I wish I could clone myself. My goodness, two Lisa's running around LA? That would be crazy, indeed!

The Land of Oz

2011-09-04T10:21:00.000-07:00

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Yes, the musical production "Wizard of Oz" is being put on once more onstage. I auditioned on August 2 and did not hear anything for two weeks. Then the Ex. Producer called me and offered me a role as one of the Munchkin Royalty. I sang a song from the show for my audition. I sang, "It Really Was No Miracle". In the movie version, Dorothy actually starts the song and the munchkins join in. Well they must have liked me because I do have a contract in my hands.

We begin rehearsals on September 19 and the show is the last 2 or 3 weeks of October. I'll have to double check those dates. I know it will be a lot of work in rehearsals and then actually putting on the show. I have a wardrobe fitting next week. Yay!

I was called into audition for a film on Monday but as I looked at the audition it was for a deferred payment. That means you work on a project and if anything comes of the project, then you get paid. If nothing comes of it, meaning it does not get picked up at any film festivals, then you never get paid. Forget that. I have worked too hard and too long to not get paid for my work. You want me, then pay me. Simple as that.

I saw a very interesting article and subsequent video. It was called "F*ck you, pay me! They talked about the importance of having contracts and how everything is spelled out in the contract so there is no misunderstanding as to who does what. If you work hard on a project and complete the project you should be paid. If something occurs and the project changes somehow, you either renegotiate the contract or get paid and then this new change is written up in a new contract. Makes sense to me.

There is nothing wrong with paying your dues. When you are in a learning phase, the knowledge you gain is essential for future projects. If you have a mentor, even better. There is nothing like being on the set of a film and just learning. But after awhile you want to have an actual role with lines, blocking and actually working. It's so rewarding when you do get a chance to perform. And then when you get paid, then you know that you have moved up to that next level.

My friend, Andy already told me that he plans to be in the first row! So sweet. Well in the meantime, I just finished another round of head shots with a new photographer. It was fun and can't wait to see the final two that I have chosen. There's so much to do and not enough time.

Rebecca and I are going to see the movie, The Help. Great book and a good movie. Yes, I saw it already but it is so good that I want to see it again. And I have to call Sweden and see her in Pasadena. I have to tell them both that my film, White T is being released soon and we have the premiere on September 29 in Hollywood. Yes, I get to walk the red carpet again but may choose not to. We'll see how it goes.

No voice lesson tomorrow because of Labor Day but I resume the following Monday. Hopefully, a quiet day today resting, cooking out in the backyard and swimming. Love long weekends. Do I miss being back home? Yes -- occasionally but most important are family and I do miss them. Our niece, Melissa was married yesterday. I hope she had a lovely wedding.

Times continue to be tough for our country, the economy. But we have gone through so much and I know that we will all get through these difficult times. It takes patience and resilience and thinking outside of the box. But every time I try to get away from show biz, I get pulled back in again. So someone up there is trying to tell me something.

Do Re Mi

2011-08-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

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Well, I was a little nervous because I haven't taken private vocal lessons in quite a few years. But, it is like riding a bike. You get back into it and I was on my way with my vocal warm ups. I had a free half hour class today and it went really well. I told my instructor that I have not had a principle role in any musical theatrical productions but I have auditioned and been placed in the chorus. And, lo and behold, I did remember some of my previous training.

I am really impressed with my instructor and am looking forward to my classes. I don't want to just do songs from the show because before you know it, that's all you hear day in and day out. And then by the time the show comes around you get sick of the same songs over and over. That is what happened when we were doing Camelot. I love the show and love the songs but I never wanted to hear "in short there's simply not, a more congenial spot for happily ever aftering than here in Camelot" again!

But it was a great time and a great show. I occasionally think about the other cast members. You get to be like family because we see each other so often. I honestly don't know if I'll be able to do this new show but all I can do is try. I saw that my black tap shoes need a little repairing, so off to the shoe repair store tomorrow.

Well, getting sleepy so off to bed I go. Another good day with great information that I downloaded. Some good tips from some of my online friends. A good lunch of leftover chicken enchiladas and a prayer for my son who is going through some difficult days right now. But otherwise, I am so grateful for the many blessings I have received like having a great family, new opportunities and a chance to do what I love, which is acting and singing again.

Whew!

2011-08-19T23:38:00.000-07:00

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Today has been a blur to say the least. But, dear readers all is well so don't worry. I had a very busy day today and when it gets to be extremely hot outside, it feels like I'm melting! Not good especially for my brains. I had paperwork to fill out, I had to find my passport which expired but now I'm getting a new one. And did I tell you that I had an audition? Yes, I did have an audition earlier this month.

The audition was for a musical. Now it's funny because I actually started my acting career doing theater -- and then musical theater. I do sing and dance but I would not call myself a professional singer or dancer. I have always been relegated to a supporting role or a chorus member. I actually like being part of an ensemble. I have been a shark girl in West Side Story. I have been a lady in waiting in Camelot. I have been a phone operator in The Bells are Ringing. In all of these productions I have had entrances and exits, dancing routines to learn and chorus lines to sing. I have had a blast.

And then I moved out west and started doing background extra work in films, supporting roles in student films, background work on television, supporting roles in indie films, working as a volunteer in film festivals and then started getting supporting roles in television and now in feature films too. Exciting stuff. And today, I received a phone call from the Producer that I have booked a supporting role in...(drum roll, please). Oops, I can't tell you!

Sorry but I have to wait until I receive my contract. Actually my agent gets my contract first. She makes sure it is okay and then sends it to me for my signature. But the assistant contacted me for my photo and my bio. As soon as I get the contract than I'll know it is real.

But in the meantime, thank you for your support and kind words. And yes, people -- don't ever give up on your dreams because dreams do come true! I told the Producer that I am so excited because I have always wanted to be in this show and now I can cross it off my bucket list. And he laughed. I can't wait for rehearsals to begin. So I will have to dust off my dancing shoes and contact my voice coach and get back in there to get my voice in tip top shape. We begin rehearsals in one month!

Hello Again!

2011-08-17T13:54:00.000-07:00

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Hello again from la la land. Well in case I have any new followers out there, this is for you. I have been writing for about four years for an online magazine called Latino LA. My first assignment from my editor was to interview Dexter star, David Zayas. It was a telephone interview and it went great. Then I met him in person when I was sent to cover the red carpet for Lifetime: Little Girl Lost.

At that time I met stars Marlene Forte, Hector Luis Bustamante and David. I also met actor A. Martinez. He was very nice. If you want to see my interview, you can watch it on You Tube. It has over 16,000 hits! Not bad for my first interview. Of course I had no camera man so I took many photos. And put together a video of the event.

This blog was started because I know how difficult it is to start in show biz. And believe me when I first started going on auditions in Hollywood I made many mistakes. But I learned. And I started taking acting classes and I started networking and making friends. Now granted, my friends are actors too so we all struggle together and support each other.

So when you hear that Latinos don't support each other -- consider the source. It is not true. I have also watched Herbert Siguenza perform onstage many times. He is one of the founding members of the group, Culture Clash. They are wonderful!!! I have taken some classes from Herbie. I have interviewed Herbie. I have gone to many of his performances and he always blows me away with his intensity.

There are many people who have helped me along the way. Folks who have given me tips on head shots, acting teachers and even my agent. I have been very blessed. And performers are like gypsies. Every time you get a job, we rejoice. And then we are back to looking for another job through the audition process. It's nerve wracking but essential. And the sooner you learn how to make your nerves work for you instead of against you, then the sooner you can go about the process of doing a great audition and booking the job.

And there is nothing like getting that phone call from your agent to tell you that you booked the job!!! Even beyond a paycheck, it is about knowing that you went in there and did your best and they chose me!

So the best advice I can give right now is, look at the trades. Read what is going on in this industry right now. Not what was going on last Fall or last year. What is going on right this minute and in the next few weeks? What show got cancelled? What do you want to do? Theater? Television? Commercials? Film? What can you do? What skills do you have? Do you need more training? Are you getting auditions but not booking anything? How old are your head shots?

Whew! I'm tired already. So believe me, I have been there and done that. I have learned what to do and what not to do. And if you would like more assistance, then leave me a comment and let me know how I can help. Good luck or as we say in Espanol, buena suerte!

Dear Shaun

2011-08-11T17:02:00.000-07:00

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It is with sadness that I must say that a friend has passed away. His name was Shaun and he lived across the street from us. He was the same age as my daughter. Shaun was born on March 17, St. Patrick's Day. He was tall and thin and had an easy smile.

I have come to know many if not all of my children's friends and I always remember them just like when they first came into our lives. When his family moved into the neighborhood, I think he was happy to find that he was not the only teen on our block. And sure enough, he started to attend the same school as my daughter.

They became fast friends and he was always coming over and frequently had dinner with us too. To me he was like a beautiful little puppy, just wanting to be loved. He fought frequently with his new stepmom and I think he would have been very happy if I adopted him. I did call him and several other boys, my "other sons". I think he liked that.

He ran away frequently and I heard that for awhile he was living under a bridge. I don't know if he got involved with drugs and drinking, but he probably did. I heard that he joined the Army or the National Guard. He was sent overseas and fought in Irag. I wrote to him several times and he wrote back. He seemed so lost and lonely. I often wondered if he joined so he could have some clean clothes and a meal every day. It broke my heart to see that he was so lost.

As life goes on, I cared for my own children and I truly don't believe they understand how hard life is until they are on their own. I have always tried to be here for them and have always told them they could talk to me about anything.

My daughter and Shaun lost touch with each other over the years. About two months ago, we were in the car. I was driving and not really paying attention to what was going on around me. There was a young man holding up a sign at the end of the freeway. As I proceeded into the intersection my daughter said, "oh my God, that was Shaun". I said are you sure? And she said yes, that he looked right at us and then lowered his head. I said, should I turn around and go back? And she said, no -- he probably wouldn't want us to see him like that. I was confused because I wanted to see him and talk with him. But then, what if he were on drugs and what if he was a potential threat to my daughter? Well, I have to keep her safe and her safety was my main concern. I kept driving.

I should have followed my instincts and turned the car around. I should have taken Shaun home with us. I could have given him a hot meal and a hot shower. I could have maybe guided him in a better path than the one he was currently walking through. I'll never know if I could have made a difference.

A month later Shaun died somewhere in Maryland. How? We don't know. My daughter received word just the other day that Shaun was gone. She looked up his obituary on the internet and there was his photo. He was in his military uniform and he looked, well, he looked scared. The article did not say how he died and so we will never know.

There are some days in your life that you wish you could take back. I wish with all my heart that I could take back that day. I wish I had turned that car around. I wish I could hold him in my arms again. I can't imagine not seeing Shaun again. I always imagined that he would finish up his 4 years in the service and come back home again. I always thought he would be a part of our lives again. I miss my "other son" and wish I could tell him how much I cared for him. Rest in peace, dear Shaun. You may not have known this, but you were deeply loved.

What a week!

2011-08-08T08:58:00.000-07:00

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Well I had a fabulous weekend!!! On Friday evening I was invited to a comedy show at the 4th & B in downtown San Diego. My friend Rick was the host. He is a co-star in the film, Attack of the 30 Foot Chola. He set me up with VIP seating and I even walked the red carpet. It was great and I was interviewed as well.

Saturday was a quiet evening at home and on Sunday I was in LA attending a comedy acting class. It was 3 hours of great training. I don't want to be a comedian but I do want to be a better writer. And we learned the difference between being an actor vs. being a performer. Such great information and we watched video clips of great performers like Charlie Chaplin, Red Skelton and Jim Carrey.

I saw a guy yesterday who worked with me on the Starbucks commercial. He looked so familiar and I remember seeing him when we went to wardrobe. I asked him if he was a principal actor and he said yes. I didn't know that I was a principal actor too. When we got to the set they put him in the background and downgraded him. I don't think he was too happy about that. He told me that they upgraded me to a principal role. But that wasn't true. I was all set to be a principal all along I just didn't know it until I was handed my contract. It's funny how you read all this stuff about being an actor and then one day it all comes together and makes sense. Yup, this is my life now -- being an actor, going out for auditions, taking acting classes and always networking.

I spoke to my parents and they are doing great. I may have to fly home for a visit. I am missing my family and friends. But every time I try to plan something, another film comes up!

Well, hungry already and so I'm getting ready to go out for breakfast. Can't wait till the film The Help comes out later this week. Gonna check with my girlfriends and see who want to come with. Have a great week!

Los Angeles Latino International Film Festival

2011-07-26T08:10:00.001-07:00

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The 15th annual Los Angeles Latino International Film Festival (LALIFF) just ended last night with a gala award ceremony. And who was there? Well, yours truly of course. The event concluded with a red carpet walk, screening of the film Cowboys and Aliens written by latino screenwriter, Roberto Orci and a gala after event party.

I attended with friend and fellow actor, Javier who appeared with me in a recent episode of I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant. He also worked on the film Attack of the 30 Foot Chola which should be out later this year.

We had a blast watching the film and the award ceremony. It was cool to be at the event located at the famous Egyptian Theater in downtown Hollywood. I saw many celebrities including Edward James Olmos, Esai Morales and Lupe Ontiveros. I also saw friends including Oskar Toruno, Jesse Garcia and Rick Najera.

The food was fabulous and there was alcohol flowing freely. I had a glass of champagne when I arrived and then after the film had a glass of wine. I didn't take my camera because I just wanted to take in the whole experience without worrying about my camera in my purse.

It was very hot and humid in LA and I am talking 94 degrees in the daytime and it was 68 degrees at 1:30 a.m. when I got home. What I wore: white sleeveless tank top, hot pink skirt, gray heels and a pink & orange scarf. Although I was comfortable, I did feel a little underdressed and most of the ladies were wearing short cocktail type dresses. But then they looked hot and uncomfortable and I was cool and comfortable. Someday when I walk the red carpet, I will dress up and be uncomfortable too. But till then, I am going to be comfortable.

It was fun talking with Esai Morales again and I am loving his webisode, Los Americans. He asked me to spread the word so the show can continue. So google the show and watch all the episodes! It's really good writing and good acting and the Latino cast is so good. I am surprised this has not been picked up by one of the networks.

I have some news which I cannot reveal yet but let's just say that it pays to see and be seen at events like this one. A good time was held by all, great atmosphere, good food, good music and latinos celebrating being in front of and behind the camera.

Hurray, my Dad is okay!

2011-07-15T17:30:00.000-07:00

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Well, there is some good news. My father is home now from the hospital. They kept him there for a few days and ran some tests. They believe he may have had a small stroke. He was sent home today with instructions to take an aspirin a day. I heard all this from my sister and so I will have to call directly to see if this is correct. But I am just so glad that he is home now with my Mom.

Went to the movies last night to see A Better Life and this is the second time I've seen it. It was so good again. Nothing like a great script and great acting. If it comes to a city near you, definitely go see it!

I am very tired today for some reason. Oh yeah, I was awakened at 5:45 am. Then I couldn't go back to sleep. Now it's 12 hours later and I am dragging. Great! Well, I do have some good news.

My agent is sending me out on another audition on Monday for another national commercial. Yay! So excited. I will let you know how it goes after the audition.

A crazy weekend ahead, phone calls to make and going out of town next week. The craziness never ends.

A sad time to be alone

2011-07-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

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My family is very private and so am I. However, when family is involved in a personal crisis it just brings everything to a screeching halt. I normally start my day like any other actor, searching the breakdowns for acting jobs. I work with my Agent on my career I don't sit on my behind waiting for her to get me a job. I am very proactive.

I work on my weight issues, I eat only health foods now and drink water and milk. Okay, occasionally I will have a glass of wine. I take acting classes and read acting books. I am an advocate for the disabled, especially other polio survivors.

I make sure my car is clean and the gas tank is filled up and ready to go. I do laundry daily so that if I need a certain wardrobe, I am ready.

And then you get the phone call that you dread. My father has taken ill. Now he is so far away in Ohio and there is nothing I can do other than stand by my telephone. I have many sisters to look out for him and care for him and my mother. However, they also are going through this difficult time. Some panic, some get loud, some remain calm and try to find out all the facts before notifying me and my brother who also lives out of town. We should try to be there for each other. I was or at least I always tried to be the peacemaker when I lived at home.

My father has always been a hard working, dedicated husband and father. I am kinda glad that I am not there to see him in ICU. I just spoke with my mother and she seems a little distracted and kinda scared which is unusual for her. But then they have been married for over 50 years and I can imagine how they each must feel when the other is not there.

I know that my father has seen so many changes through these many years. He has worked so hard all his life to provide for his family. I know he loves to travel and he loves to come out west to see me and my brother. And we love to spoil them when they visit. We go out to eat all the time, they like to gamble. They love San Diego and they love to visit with their grandchildren. My father likes to take his afternoon naps and he falls asleep early to the television as my mother reads her gossip magazines. They both love to eat ice cream and recently my father showed me how to make his famous soup, Caldo de Rez.

On a recent trip to Los Angeles, I got them a hotel room in which to rest before they flew out of LAX to go back home. I was so glad that I took them to one of my favorite restaurants. I was glad that I purchased a bottle of wine, cheese, crackers and grapes. My mother and I happily munched and chatted while my father took a nap. They were well rested and I had made arrangements for my father to get some assistance before boarding his plane back home. I have learned how to speak up for myself, how to travel, how to enjoy good food and home made cooking. I have learned how to be a good parent and how I am humbled each time they bow their heads in prayer before every meal. They are good parents and I am glad and proud to be their daughter. I pray that my mother will have the strength to get through these next few difficult days as my father goes through tests and more days at the hospital.

Part of me wants to get on the next plane back home to offer whatever support I can. And yet I know that my parents would both want me to continue working and representing Latinos in a positive manner. I continue to work hard as I audition and train to become a better actor. It is with their continued love and support that I am here doing what I love and doing what I feel I was born to do. I will continue to pray for my father and I know that right now he is surrounded by family that loves him and a wife who has stood by him for many, many years. Their love is a testament to all that is good and true. I may see them soon, I may see them later. It is all in God's hands and we his faithful sheep must endure.

Feature Films

2011-07-07T16:05:00.000-07:00

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Yes, people yes it is really me! I have been so busy lately you would not believe it. Last Thursday I met actor Robert David Hall from CSI. He taught our acting class and he is such a gentleman. I took three pages of notes as he shared so much with us. He is a huge advocate for the disabled. He has even spoken in Washington, D.C. and to members of SAG. I was a fan of his show and now I am a fan of David, as he prefers to be called.

And then on Friday, I got an opportunity to audition for Kenneth Castillo. I am a big fan of his work and I finally got to meet him face to face. The audition went well and I received a callback for Wednesday (yesterday). I felt that it went well too and I got a chance to read with another actor, Oscar Torre. I enjoyed his work so much on the cancelled series, Cain with Jimmy Smits. So now I just keep my fingers crossed and say a prayer that I will be the one chosen.

I did not take my laptop with me so I had a ton of emails to attend to when I returned. I haven't written anything for awhile and that is because I am putting all my efforts into being a better actor. And I think my hard work is paying off because while my agent tells me that this is a slow time in the industry, I am still working and auditioning for future work. Thank you, God for the many blessings at this time.

I am meeting new friends, networking and working with some really talented people. I couldn't be happier. So look for me in several films that are in post production right now but should be released soon. And the films are ... Attack of the 30 Ft. Chola, Lean Like A Cholo, The Art Patron and White T. Yes, I can say it now, whew!

Happy Saturday

2011-06-25T11:40:00.000-07:00

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Oh my, I realize I haven't written anything in my blog for awhile but it has been a crazy week. I finished working on a short film, The Art Patron. I was working as the Production Manager on that film. However, one of the actresses had to leave to go on an audition and the Director called me over. He decided to put me in a few scenes in her place. I quickly reviewed the script and wardrobe put some more clothes on me and then I taped the scenes. Later, my script supervisor (who hates to be in front of the camera) commented and said, I can tell you are an actress because you just jumped right in there and did your scenes. Of course! I was really proud though because the cast and crew worked so hard that we filmed ahead of schedule. Can't wait to see the final film.

I received a call from the casting director for the film, White T. Apparently there is one more scene he would like me to film for continuity. I film next weekend.

I spoke with my agent and she told me that right now things are a little slow so I am hanging in there. An actor friend of mine talked to me about wanting new representation. He sent me over his demo reel and acting resume, which were quite impressive. I forwarded them to my agent and she has decided to represent him. Way to go! He thanked me up and down but it was not me that got him a new agent. It was his hard work and his persistence that will pay off. Yay!

Opportunities are everywhere, people! You have to keep your antennae up and keep your skills up too. Work hard -- play nice -- and folks will remember you for the professional that you are!

I recently had another interview in a local newspaper do a feature story on me. It was cool, I actually did the interview 2 or 3 months ago and had heard nothing further. But then I was going through some old emails and contacted the writer. She told me that the interview would indeed come out some time this summer. And so she was right. It was pretty cool although I am not a model and wish I would have learned a proper pose. Doesn't matter, what I care about is acting not modeling.

Another hot day so I will jump in the pool -- and get some exercise in today. Those donuts in the kitchen though are calling out to me to eat them. Oh, I must exercise control. Must exercise control -- must exercise control.

Count Your Blessings

2011-06-04T10:51:00.001-07:00

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What a wonderful Saturday morning. The sun is shining. I just spoke with my Mom. She is being driven home from a visit to Chicago. We had a lovely chat. I am sitting here with my two cats and who are sleeping next to me. My hubby is teaching music this morning and I have the house all to myself. Peace and quiet!!! Love it.

I was reflecting on how blessed I am to have family, friends and furry friends. I love my job of acting and even the audition process is easier. I love the challenge of going out for national commercials.

Look around at this beautiful earth that we have!!! I watched a film the other day, The Book of Eli. And why is it that there are movies out there talking about the end of the world and the destruction of everything? Doom and gloom. Watch the birds fly. Watch a hummingbird as she gracefully flies from flower to flower. Watch the dolphins swim -- go on a whale excursion. Sail on the San Diego bay!!!

This weekend is the Temecula Balloon & Wine festival. Music, good food and parties! I love it. It's what the weekends were made for.

I am counting my blessings. Someday when I am 69 years young -- I will remember this day. A beautiful home, sleeping kitties, and someone to share my days with. My parents talking and laughing on the phone and friends to share my weekend with. My children are fine -- and all is right with the world. Yes, I am truly blessed.

A Lovely Day

2011-05-26T22:16:00.000-07:00

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What a day today. Went to a pool supply place in town to get a part for the pump filter. Went to an Italian restaurant for some good food for lunch. Went to Best Buy, a beauty supply store and the bank. By that time I was exhausted from running around. And now my legs don't want to work.

They feel like lead. I even grabbed the wheelchair at the Best Buy store because I couldn't stand in line while I was waiting at Customer Service. You can't imagine how awful it feels to not have your legs work. Ever wonder what it's like in a wheelchair? You immediately are way down there. People look at you like you're an invalid. Which I guess I am. So I came home, rubbed my legs with a pain relieving cream (didn't work) and put on some warm stockings. Do you know if you have some old tights that you can cut off the panty part and just separate the legs. It's like leg warmers with socks connected. Then I put the heating pad under my thighs and here I am. The heat feels wonderful but the pain is still here.

I came home, ate dinner and watched a live web training on How to Thrive in Hollywood. It was a two hour program and it was excellent. Afterwards I turned the sound off the television and just listened to some music. It was wonderful. Cats on the bed purring softly. A stand-up comedy show on Showtime and some excellent music coming from my laptop. Today is truly a lovely day.

That's Life

2011-05-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

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One of my favorite sayings is, that's life! You win some and you lose some. I was put on avail for another national commercial. However, that was it. They never officially released me but I know they filmed the commercial earlier this week. Oh well, I know I did really well that I was called in for a callback and put on avail. It's nice to get to the next level of making it that far along. I know that when I do my best that is all I can do. I am proud of myself for having gone as far as I did. Congratulations to the actor who won the role!

I am busy working on a film that we will film in mid-June. I am working hard with the director and it is coming along nicely. I just finished hiring a Sound person and now we have a full crew. I would like to have one other production assistant but you can't have everything.

I am very excited because my son is visiting us from Italy!!! He is only in town for one week and I've cleared my schedule. I am even thinking of hiring my photographer for some great shots. I am getting the house ready. I am getting the pool ready. My daughter will help with the cookout. I will notify the remaining family members so we can all be present.

One of the things I've noticed about being in this business is that families are important. If you do not have family support, you won't have success. It's essential to know why you are doing this business. Is it because you have something to say? Something to contribute? Many times being an artist just does not pay. So you have to do this for other reasons besides monetary ones. And once you start talking to people about their family, well the whole dynamic changes. I have respect for those who respect and love their family members.

I am looking forward to seeing my family. We will be together for the first time in like 2 or 3 years. That's crazy but that is how life is. I was blessed that my parents came by to see me. And we had a nice time together. I have always wanted my parents to see me have a successful career and now they have.

Well, time to sign off and get my day started. Life is one day at a time -- a day to be respected. A day to be cherished this gift of life.

Trip to San Diego

2011-05-14T15:20:00.000-07:00

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So far, a wonderful day. I took a day trip to San Diego and the beauty of the city always takes my breath away. It's so clean compared to Los Angeles. I'm watching "This Is It" with Michael Jackson and I still can't believe he is gone.

I found a new DVD of "Thriller" and it is as wonderful as when it first came out so many years ago. Michael was so very talented and he made everything look so easy. I guess that is the mark of a true professional entertainer.

I am still waiting for word on the callback audition in Santa Monica. My first audition was on Tuesday and my callback was on Thursday. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Woke up tired this morning and I don't understand technology. It is supposed to make our lives so much easier. I plugged in my GPS -- I plugged in my MP3 player. My cellphone was next to me and I was on my way. I guess with all that stuff going, it is important to keep focused.

I have been hired as the Production Coordinator for a short film. I have been on the phone and email all week. I was hoping to have all the positions filled by Friday but that didn't happen. So much depends on getting the right team together. I'm telling everyone to email me so I don't let anything fall in the cracks. I have worked Production before and believe me, being an Actor is so much easier. But I like to be in charge and doing Production can be so time consuming. I even get my own assistant! The film shoots mid-June and believe me, that is just around the corner.

I'm getting rest this weekend if I have to stay put in my bed all weekend. I really do need an assistant!!! One of these days I will have one. It was interesting being at the meeting this morning. It's nice to see old friends and to make some new friends. I need to get a massage. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

Strange dream the other day about Matt Damon. I dreamed that we were lying out by the pool. Must have been at a nice Hotel. Anyway, he touched me and I touched his back and he smelled like lavender. And he asked me for my number and I didn't have my cards with me. Isn't that strange? And the strange thing is I woke up and I wanted some lavender soap. And I wanted some Matt Damon too.

An IPOD 4 Me

2011-05-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

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Well hello again. Every time family comes into town I get a little loca. I get anxious then run around like a chicken and then sad when they leave. It's like I turn into this little girl again who says love me! love me! And they leave and then I go back to normal and being me again.

So back to the real world. I was driving around in Santa Monica yesterday on a gorgeous 83 degree day. The sun was shining and I had just left a callback audition. I auditioned for another national commercial on Tuesday. And on Wednesday I was told I had a callback for Thursday. It went really well as I repeated the same thing on Tuesday. Was given new direction and the director laughed and laughed (a good sign). I stopped at the Whole Foods store to pick up a healthy lunch and marvelled at what everyone takes for granted.

The weather was gorgeous. People were eating healthy food. We take so much for granted here, we truly do. After lunch I headed home and my phone rang. It was my Agent. I am put on avail. Which means they want to make sure my schedule is clear for the shoot next week. That means they like me, they really like me. But it doesn't mean I have the job. So, I am keeping my fingers crossed. Whatever will be, will be.

I picked up a new DVD of Michael Jackson's Thriller and forgot how wonderful it was. He was so talented and I still can't believe he is gone. That is what I love about film. Long after we have gone somewhere else, there is still film of us somewhere.

Yesterday was a very good day. And today, I purchased a new IPOD just for me. My hubby brought me one and then proceeded to use the hell out of it. So I told him to keep it. Then I was given another one by a friend (who happens to be a very famous Actor). But then my daughter adopted it as her own. So I was determined to get one just for me and I did. My plan is to use it when I walk. I intend to use it as I walk around losing weight.

If you think about the body like a well-oiled machine you will see that losing weight is really very simple. Drink tons of water which is good for you. Eat only when you are hungry and watch your portions. Eat only healthy good things and move! Walk, run, swim, play tennis. Do some gardening. Get off your butt and do something fun that burns the calories. And before you know it, you will lose weight.

So an IPOD for me is the recipe. No smoking, no drinking (wine is okay). No sugar, no white flour, no fried foods, no soda. Look out world, you are going to see a leaner me.

Sick Day

2011-04-24T20:19:00.001-07:00

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Um, can I call in sick today? Oh yeah, I don't have a job so I don't have to call in sick. My sister Tina arrived in town with her daughter, Monica. They were both sick!!! Coughing and sneezing and blowing their noses. Yikes! I was their tour guide as they had never been to California before. The entire week they were here they were sick. I think I would have stayed home in my own bed but that is me.

I picked them up from LAX and brought them back here to my home. We went out to eat, we did some sightseeing. We went to a winery in Temecula and had a lovely lunch. We got a hotel room in LA and took Monica to Melrose for shopping. We went to Hollywood and we went to La Jolla. We had a fabulous lunch in Hillcrest and dinner in Old Town San Diego. I'm tired. And now that everyone is gone maybe I can get some much needed rest.

They do not realize that when you have polio and are driving and driving, it wears on my body and on my nerves. And then they over pack and there are 3 gals and they each forgot to bring a hairbrush. Sometimes I don't have any patience. I try not to get upset but really, do you really have to use my hairbrush?

When I travel, I like to rent a car. This way I can come and go as I please. And I like to make my own schedule. I don't like to have my hostess feel like she has to do everything for me. Oh well.

So now I am in bed surrounded by kitties, tissue box, medicine, my laptop and my remote control. Ugh, sore throat please go away!!!

Kitties, come and keep me company. It's nice to have my house back to myself again.

Lazy Sunday

2011-04-17T16:01:00.000-07:00

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Today is a lazy Sunday. I am cleaning again because I am having guests again. Yikes! I guess April is the time to entertain family from back home who are sick to death of ice and snow. I can understand that after living in Ohio for too long. Well, Linda and Tina are coming to visit. Tina has never visited California even though we have been here for 18 years now. I guess some people are slow. And some like to spend all their money in Vegas.

I don't understand that kind of thinking. You work really hard all year. If you are lucky, you get 2 weeks paid vacation. So you save your money and you fly to Vegas and you lose all your money gambling. Why don't you just stay home and throw your money out of the car window as you are driving really fast down the freeway? It will go just as fast in Vegas.

I much prefer the hot sunny lazy days at the beach in Del Mar. Or driving down the scenic route to the La Jolla cove. Or walking down the pier in Santa Monica. Or having a fabulous seafood dinner in a nice restaurant on Santa Monica Boulevard. But I guess everyone is entitled to the way they want to live.

One of the best times I ever had was with my husband. We flew into Portland, rented a car. We were shown around town by some friends. We went boating on the water and saw all the beautiful bridges in downtown Portland. We then left and drove up to Seattle. We spend our anniversary weekend up there with some other friends. It was such a good time. The scenery was amazing and our friends were so hospitable. I've been wanting to go back up to the Northwest. The pine trees were so green and smelled so wonderful. Then you can the beautiful dark blue Pacific ocean along the coast. Amazing! But then, I really missed the warm weather and the palm trees. I missed the casual, easy going nature of the people in California. There is something very special about saying you are from Southern California.

One thing I didn't miss was the darn traffic. The frenetic fast-paced traffic. Like a million little ants all trying to get somewhere in a hurry. Ugh!!!

But today is a lazy Sunday. I hear an owl hooting in the afternoon. There is a slight warm breeze coming through my window. And the smell of the calla lilies is amazing. I have to run to the store to pick up some nice wine, cheese and crackers for a little snack. I look forward to seeing family again.

My life has changed so much these past few years. I am at peace. Life is a little slower but much fuller. I don't take anything for granted anymore. I value my friends and my family. I value the work I have been getting. I study hard and try to give 150%. I learn new things everyday. And one of the things I've learned is sometimes you have to know when to let go. You have to move on with your life. It's a lazy Sunday -- and I wouldn't change one thing in my life right now. I am peaceful and happy.

Oye Vey!

2011-04-15T19:41:00.000-07:00

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It's been crazy ever since Sunday. Mom and Dad arrived safely into LAX. I picked them up and brought them home with me. It's so nice to see them again. They rested on Monday and Tuesday. On Wednesday we filmed my scenes in the film, Lean Like A Cholo. It was a really funny scene. I play a blind, old woman. And wow they changed my hair to totally gray. And I wore an old lady nightgown. Hilarious! I heard from the Director today who said I was great in the film. Hey, as long as he is happy then I am happy!

On Thursday, I played tour guide and showed them all around San Diego. They always love coming to San Diego. And I wanted to take them on a studio tour here in LA but they wanted to hit the road and go to Vegas.

My brother has them for the next two weeks. They always love being with him as he spoils them so. That is fine because I have auditions to go to -- kitties to take care of -- and an acting class here and there.

One of my fellow actor friends from the Starbucks commercial contacted me today but I couldn't talk to him as I was driving to Vegas. Don't want to get a moving violation ticket.

Wow, all of a sudden I am tired. I love having guests but it's nice to relax when they leave too. This weekend will be hot, we are expecting 90 degrees. So time to open up all the windows -- and enjoy the smell of the sweet roses.

Time to study my lines for an audition tomorrow!!!

Travel

2011-04-11T08:02:00.000-07:00

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Do you like to travel? I love it, I love to explore new cities. I would love to travel to San Francisco, one of my favorite cities. My parents are travelling to come see me and to visit my brother in Las Vegas. I am excited to see them again. I haven't seen them in almost one year. I talk to my family every week though. So they know all the craziness that is my life right now.

And then next week, two of my sisters are coming to visit me. I love to play tour guide. I just don't like to pay for everything. So I hope that they will step up to the plate and help with expenses. I don't mind them staying in the guest room. I don't mind that they don't rent a car and I will have to be their driver. But I do mind when I have to pick up their entertainment tab. So I am going to stay positive that we will all have a wonderful time and they will pay for their own entertainment.

I am going to LA to pick up Mom & Dad from the airport. And then I am working on a film on Wednesday. I have a 7 am call time. I am told that I will be working only for a few hours.

Oh and I am still seeing my Starbucks commercial on TV. If you really want to watch it then watch the CBS morning news in its entirety. I've been seeing the entire commercial on there and sometimes I see a shorter version (probably 30 second commercial) on CBS too. Yay!

I checked with my agent and she said it's very slow right now and that accounts for no auditions lately. Oh well, gotta keep my spirits up and concentrate on my acting skills. I have also taken some new head shots which I will put up on the internet soon. From what I saw, they look amazing. I am so pleased with my photographer. He is very good, a friend of mine and I felt totally relaxed and comfortable with him. And the difference between the photos I took last year and the new ones are amazing. It just goes to show just because someone has a camera and the skills does not mean that they are any good.

Well, I'd better get up and get some coffee so I can start my day. I still have some last minute cleaning to do. I have to run to the grocery store and stock up my fridge. I have to wash my car and fill up my gas tank. I love to have visitors. One thing though, while it is wonderful having family visits, it is very difficult to say hasta luego. I try not to get too close to people because they all go away eventually.

Don't Rain On My Parade

2011-04-04T18:40:00.000-07:00

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Every time someone tells me I can't do something, I feel breaking out into song like Fanny Brice and start singing, "Don't Rain On My Parade". I was watching the ending of the film, Dead Poets Society and I felt so badly for the young man who commits suicide at the end. His father wanted him to go to med school and become a doctor. The young man was an artist and wanted to be an actor. I felt so much empathy for him because I know how it feels to want to get up there on that stage and just perform. We do it for free. We do it because we love our craft and work so hard to get better and better to earn the right to be up there on that stage.

I remember once when my mother-in-law and her mother were in my kitchen. They both said you want to be an actor? And they just laughed. I wanted to kick them both out of my kitchen for disrespecting me and my dreams. At first I was hurt. But then I got angry. I felt the anger rise up in my throat like bile. I swallowed it but I did not swallow my dreams.

I received a phone call today from a friend who has cast me in his latest film. No audition -- just I wrote this character for you and I want you in my film. It's a small role, only 3 pages of dialog but that is okay with me. It's a very character driven role and I am looking forward to it. We film on Friday!!!

I saw my Starbucks commercial on television again this morning on CBS. It was so cool. When I went to my dentist this morning I told all the girls about it and they were excited for me. One even said, oh we have a celebrity here! I just laughed.

Well, lots to do -- lines to learn and I am finishing preparation of chicken cacciatore for dinner. Then I will relax and watch part 2 of The Kennedys. I sure hope it's better than part 1.

Never, never let anyone rain on your parade. For years when someone would try to disrespect me or my dreams I would just look at them like they were crazy. Because my dreams are not crazy. My dreams are my dreams. And they should be respected.

Spirituality

2011-04-03T07:54:00.000-07:00

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I was reading some information about actor Ben Foster. He is a hard-working, determined young actor and I am one of his fans. I enjoy his work on the HBO series, Six Feet Under. He was very good on the film 3:10 to Yuma.

I was thinking about The Secret and Abundant Living. Basically I do believe that what you think about you bring about. So if you are thinking negative thoughts, you will bring negative things into your life. If you think positive things and speak positively, you will bring positive things. Of course you have to do the work. You can't just sit around thinking good scripts and good parts will come to you. You have to be ready and prepare for when those good scripts become available to you. You have to train and keep sharp.

I try to be generous whenever I can. I find that when you are generous, it comes back to you tenfold. It really does. I'm not talking about giving your last dollar to the homeless guy at the end of the freeway. But I am talking about being generous in spirit. At the end of the day, you'll be able to look in the mirror and like how you feel.

Yesterday, I was cleaning and cleaning. It felt so good to throw things out, dust and scrub. I love the clean smell of bleach. I love the feel of my bare feet on squeaky clean tile floors. It feels good to vacuum and dust all the dust bunnies away!

Ever since I was a pre-teenager I've loved the clean smell of soap. I give soap away as gifts all the time. I love how anytime you get soap and water together you get clean, lovely things. Change the sheets, use bleach on whites! It's a wonderful feeling. I love lace and cotton. I love white towels that are fluffy. I love hot bubble baths and clean mirrors.

I hope I didn't overdo it yesterday. Nothing is worse than overdoing it and then paying for it the next day. Then you have to stay in bed all day like a vegetable. I've done that and I hate it. But I've been using my CPAP machine and have been getting some good sleep. I can be so stubborn sometimes. I haven't used my machine for awhile and sure enough, I wasn't sleeping well. The next few days were groggy and lethargic. I even started choking again when I was eating and choking in my sleep. I realized I have the power to change that, just by using my machine which was ordered by my doctor. Oh, that stubbornness has got to go!

It's all about taking your medicine. The truth is I have a disability. And that disability is not going to magically go away. I have to learn to live with it whether I like it or not. I will pace myself. I can get up and do laundry and then rest. I can mop a floor and then rest. I can take a nap in the middle of the day if my body says I need a nap. I can eat small meals throughout the day instead of three large meals. I can drink more water. I can write letters instead of talking on the phone.

I may more choices than I think I do. I can work smarter and not harder and therefore save my body, save my strength. Taking care of your body is essential. Brush your hair, brush your teeth. Floss -- watch your food intake. Eat healthier, these are things I have control over. I owe it to myself to take care of myself every day.

Praying is asking for something. Meditation is sitting still long enough to hear the answers and letting the world speak to me. It speaks to me in volumes if only I am patient enough to listen.

Two Auditions and Counting

2011-03-27T18:01:00.000-07:00

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So glad that it is a slow Sunday. I am getting reading to watch the HBO version of Mildred Pierce with Kate Winslett. I have been looking forward to this. I went out for brunch, returned some shoes that I purchased for a film but never used and stopped by Barnes & Noble. I picked up a book for my Mom as a belated birthday gift. I swear every time that I won't miss her birthday but I was filming and couldn't get a gift. I feel like I need a personal assistant sometimes. Anyway, I know that she will love her book and I sent her some other goodies too.

My sister, Mary also has a birthday too and I am sending her some goodies too. I decided to send her some skin care products. I was going to send her a gift card but decided on something that she could use everyday. I picked up some lovely birthday cards too.

I had two auditions and I sure hope I get the major role which is being a part of the NBC Showcase for diversity theater. I will keep my fingers crossed.

I have a print interview with our local newspaper coming up. It was originally scheduled for last week but I had to postpone because of the big audition. Will keep you informed.

I can't believe it is the end of March already. Several film project opportunities for April. I am excited about working again. Oh, Mildred Pierce is so good already. The costumes, the set and the old cars. Oh, I'd love to work on a period piece. Just once I 'd love to get hired as something other than a Mother, housekeeper, cook or Nanny. I can be so many more characters!!!

Beware of Attack of the 30 Ft. Chola

2011-03-26T11:48:00.000-07:00

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Happy Saturday one and all. I am filming an independent film called Attack of the 30 Ft. Chola. Here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=787TbjZkTxI

I play Rosalinda, mother of one of the Chola girls. A Chola is a bad ass, gang girl who lives in East L.A. Rosalinda was a Chola girl in her younger days and still thinks she is cool. I can't wait till they are finished with production.

I forgot to mention this film when I did the radio interview the other day for Disabled Radio with Rob Pritts. If this link does not work please go to You Tube and in the search area type in Attack of the 30 Ft Chola teaser and you can see a short film clip. Turn up the sound and enjoy!

I am having an awesome Saturday so far. I have been reading a book, Acting is Everything by Judy Kerr. It's got so much information that you have to read through slowly. There are some good websites that she refers to and you can even download an updated version of somem of her recommendations.

Leftover chicken noodle soup for lunch today. I made a big pot yesterday for dinner and it was so yummy. I make it homemade just like my mother-in-law taught me. This is the best receipe to get over a cold. Works every time.

Well, I have to run. I am off to listen in on a conference call.

A Crazy Week

2011-03-25T17:15:00.000-07:00

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I had an audition on Wednesday for a short film. I messed up on the address and was delayed a bit. After my audition (which went pretty well) I told them about the address mix-up and they started laughing. I have learned to always get a phone number and correct address. So once I realized I was at the wrong place, I called the casting director and she gave me the right address.

Then the next day I had a big audition for NBC. I always get so nervous when I have those big auditions. So we shall see what happens with both projects. I will keep you informed.

So on Wednesday night I had the radio interview and that was fun. To tell you the truth I was a bit nervous so I had a glass of wine to calm my nerves. Rob was so nice that before you know it, the time just flew by.

Next week I am doing a print interview. My Starbucks commercial is still running -- and I did stop and pick up a CA Lottery ticket. The prize is $312M -- do you believe it? I only purchased one ticket. I work too hard for my money to play or gamble with it. But one ticket for $1 is not bad.

Tomorrow I have a conference call -- and next week I have an acting class. Whew! My legs are hurting today because I think I overdid it the last two days. So back to the couch, my laptop and a nice fire going in the fireplace. Got to stay warm and rest my legs.

A telephone call from a friend this morning -- possible clown jobs in our future? We shall see. That's what I like about life. You never know what awaits you around the corner.

I Was on the Radio!

2011-03-23T20:33:00.000-07:00

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Wow, I am coming down from my high on being a guest on the program, Disabled Radio. It was my first radio interview and if you listened in, thanks so much. My thanks to Rob Pritts who is the host of the show and to Vince Staskel who is the producer in NY.

I have to admit I was a wee bit nervous and had a glass of wine with me. Before I knew it, the hour program was over. I am hearing good things on my Facebook page so I guess I did okay.

I wanted to reiterate that being a Latina -- being a disabled person can be challenging but not impossible. There are opportunities out there but you have to work really, really hard. You have to believe in yourself. You have to know that as an actor or a performer if you are lacking in some area, get more training. Be confident and go after your dreams.

I have to give a shout out to the folks at Polio Today.org for their efforts in educating those with polio and their caregivers. They are on the web and on Facebook. Their web address is: www.PolioToday.org and they are there to help. I also have to thank my local polio support chapters in Hemet, CA and Riverside, CA. The folks down in San Diego, CA were also very helpful.

I want to thank my Editor, Abelardo at Latino LA for giving me an opportunity to write for the magazine and becoming a Contributing Writer. I love every minute!

I want to thank my mentors, Herbert Siguenza (Culture Clash member) and actor Hector Luis Bustamante for their support.

And finally to my family and friends for your support and love. I hope I am not too much of a pain in the behind.

And to those who listened in and sent in their questions, thank you so much. I have a huge audition tomorrow for NBC. So please keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

Do we need to see more actors with disabilities on television -- internet -- and film? Absolutely!

Disabled Radio Guest

2011-03-21T21:48:00.000-07:00

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Hey there everyone and good evening one and all! I just spoke with Rob Pritts who is the man behind the microphone at Disabled Radio. He has asked me to be his guest this Wednesday, March 23 at 6 pm PST/8 pm CST. This program is an Internet radio show for and about disabled folk. Their website is http://www.disabledradio.com/

I hope you have all had a chance to see the Starbucks commercial. It was great fun to film although it was a cold and rainy day. I always get a kick when I see it on television or on the Starbucks website.

It was quiet last week and I was under the weather so I needed the rest. Getting over a cold and persistent cough.

LA was getting drenched with the rain and believe me, we need it. I am hoping that by April 1 we start getting some warm weather.

Working on the film White T was fun and it will be so cool to be invited to the wrap party and to go to the premiere. I wonder if it will premiere in LA or New York? Guess I'll have to wait and see.

I have been invited to several interesting events. An art gallery party in Palm Springs, a screening of a new film and a chance to meet and hear Phylicia Rashad. Also, my friend Herbie Siguenza will be performing in his one-man show, An Afternoon with Pablo Picasso at the Los Angeles Theater Center. I saw his show when he performed in San Diego last year. He is simply amazing.

Well, I should get some rest. I must prepare for two interviews on Wednesday. Goodnight Moon!

Lazy Sunday

2011-03-20T14:44:00.000-07:00

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Today is Sunday! I don't have a 9 to 5 Monday thru Friday job anymore but I still love Sunday. You can sleep in late. You can go to church and then out to eat. You can do whatever you'd like to do. I love Sunday!

It was a slow week and that was fine with me. Nothing going on and no auditions. I needed the rest. So now I will be ready to go back to work. I have an interview scheduled for later this week. I am being interviewed by a reporter from another local newspaper. And then later the same day, I have a radio interview to do.

I am a little nervous because I am accustomed to doing the interviewing. I do the research and ask the questions. But this time around, I will be answering the questions. I am pretty excited actually. I just want to represent well and not flub up like Sarah you know who. I guess I will just try to relax and just be me.

I completed Attack of the 30 Ft Chola and I filmed my scenes for White T. They should both be released later this year. And my national commercial started airing last week. Yay! I was offered a new role in a film but I am still waiting to get my contract. So until that happens, we shall see.

I have a few errands to take care of tomorrow. We are supposed to get rain all week long. So we shall see what happens. Tomorrow is tomorrow and today is today. And I am resting today.

Feature Film: White T

2011-03-15T17:33:00.000-07:00

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Everything has been happening so quickly that I am having a difficult time keeping up. Thank goodness I am an organized person. I am in the habit of bringing pen and paper, and my digital camera with me everywhere. Not to mention make-up, tissues and of course a toothbrush and toothpaste.

So last week I worked on two films. On Thursday I worked on a new feature film, White T. Look it up on www.imdb.com and you can see the poster. So I report to the 2nd Assistant Director and he tells me he will take me to my trailer. What? My very own trailer? Yes! It was so exciting. My character is described as Old Mexican cleaning woman. Name: Lupita

Here is a photo of me in Wardrobe outside the door. The sign says Lupita! I walked in and there was a sitting area, sink, stereo, lavatory, mirror. And on the sink, bottled water and some food goodies. I went to my car and brought a few personal items. Then I started to think that the next time I have my own trailer, it should include the items I had in my trailer such as:

bottled water, tissues, toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant, dental floss, make-up remover, moisturizer, socks or footies, thank you notes, stamps, a book and of course, my call sheet.

I really felt like a professional actor. I reported to makeup and wardrobe. The director said I looked too young and wanted the make-up lady to put my hair up and to make me look older. My uniform was a rental and I really liked it. It was a soft blue with white piping around the short sleeve. My shoes were soft white slip on flats that I saw at the Rite Aid store for $6.99. They were actually quite comfortable.

So I stripped down to my undies put on a robe and just rested because my scenes wouldn't be filmed for at least another hour. It gave me some time to rehearse privately and unwind. We were shooting in a busy area in North Hollywood.

I completed my two scenes and I think I did pretty well. One scene involved some hysterical acting and crying. And if you know me, you know I can be a drama queen. I was told I would be invited to the wrap party and of course the screening of the film. My first red carpet! Unless of course, the Chola films wraps first. Then that film will be my first red carpet. I'll have to worry about what to wear. But of course, I have awhile to think about that later.

So now a slow week -- thank goodness -- and back to auditioning again. This is the life of an actor. But you know what? I love it! This is Lupita signing off.

Starbucks Espresso Commercial - Sue

2011-03-14T17:10:00.000-07:00

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This is my Starbucks commercial. Don't blink or you'll miss me!

On the Chola Set

2011-03-14T15:15:00.001-07:00

What a busy week -- we filmed for a very long day and this is a photo of me with Alicia -- two Cholas from back in the day. I love the make-up and the costumes. I am always in my curlers and my pink robe. We are very close to completing Attack of the 30 Ft Chola. I only have one or two more scenes to film.

Kieron Estrada is our director and he does so much and is so knowledgeable. It is my thrill and pleasure to work with him. I am hoping that this film will get into the indie circuit.

It was a hectic week and now I am relaxing. Yay! Glad that the weather is better. I plan on catching up on housework, laundry and eating some good homecooked meals.

I just received an email this morning from a fellow co-star on our commercial. The commercial is for Starbucks and now that it is being aired I can talk about it. It was very exciting to go to the audition. I did a good job and the very next day my agent called me to let me know I was on avail. Then the following day she called me to tell me I booked the job. It is such a great feeling of accomplishment to know that I did something right.

I am reading a book right now about acting and so much is just trial and error. I have had some bad auditions but I learned from them. And I have had some auditions where I booked the job and I don't even know what I did right. And now I am to the point where I know I did well, didn't do well or could have done better. But I am feel that this job has put me into the category of being a professional actor. It's a wonderful feeling. I don't know anyone there, this job was not a favor for a friend. It was auditioning and being professional and doing a good job.

They were so wonderful on the set, I can't even tell you. The staff was professional. The food was good, everything about this job was amazing. And to think that I was very close to quitting at Christmas time. And as low as I felt, I kept thinking to myself that the next job could be the big job and it will go to someone else. So I swallowed those feelings of rejection and negativity and just knew that tomorrow would be a better day.

And here I am with a national commercial, an indie film and a feature film all in one month. Needless to say, my agent is happy with me. And I am thrilled to have her in my corner.

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Happy Birthday to Me!

2011-03-05T00:02:00.000-08:00

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Oh my, I thought it was like 11 pm but it just turned midnight which means today is my birthday! It has been an incredible year so far. Truly incredible. It started out a little slow and then things started picking up and it has been a whirlwind of activity since mid January.

This week I had no auditions and that was fine with me. I really rested my bod all week. I caught up with paperwork, did some house work. I haven't really watched any movies but have watched a little television here and there.

I'm filming next week and it is really important to focus and be on my game. So I'm glad that I didn't have any distractions. Friday was the most amazing day. Had a wonderful breakfast and I got some wonderful birthday gifts. My brother called me and we had some chuckles. He always has me laughing. He wants to fly Mom & Dad out west to come see us. I can't wait to see them. I haven't seen them since October and I know they would like to get out of that cold weather.

I was offered a role in a new film and I get the script tomorrow. And, I spoke with a casting director earlier in the week. Things are happening in my career!!! It's so exciting to see some fruits coming from all my labor these past 7 years.

I hope to see my son and my nephew for my birthday too. It's not the same without family around to help you celebrate. I used to hate birthdays but now I love them.

As I get older, I realize what is really important and that is family, friends, work, laughter, spirituality and giving back. I hope to become a better person with each day that I am given, because everyday is a blessing. Everyday is a gift from the creator, this gift of life. And for that, I am truly humbled and grateful.

In Like a Lion

2011-03-01T09:36:00.001-08:00

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Happy March 1 -- I like March, I like the saying In like a lion and out like a lamb. My birthday is in March so I've always looked forward to March. However, growing up in northwestern Ohio the weather was always horrible with snow and ice everywhere. How is a kid supposed to have a nice birthday party with snow everywhere? Oh well. There are many famous people born in March such as Liza Minnelli and other famous Pisces are Elizabeth Taylor. I think she was born in February,though.

So March is here and before you know it, it will be June. Trust me that is how quickly time flies by. So in March I will be filming two movies: One is my final scenes for the indie flick, "Attack of the 30 Foot Chola" and the other is a small role in a feature film, "White T". You can look me up on www.imdb.com

I look forward to more auditions in the month of March. I was interviewed yesterday for an online local publication. And I will be doing a radio interview for Disabled Radio on March 23. I am enjoying being a part of the disabled community and I working towards being an advocate for hiring the disabled. My agent has several disabled actors that she represents and that is a wonderful thing. I don't know if I can help anyone but I hope to inspire folks to concentrate on what you can do and not what you can't do. My goodness, if I worried about all the things I can't do, I would never even get out of bed in the morning.

I really enjoy being a writer, sitting at my laptop and conducting telephone interviews. It's great. I can do my research, set up interviews and connect everything for telephone interviews. When I did my personal interview yesterday, I was thrilled to go back to the theater where I had so many beautiful memories. I remember hearing about the building of the theater and what groups would be allowed to perform there. And I knew that I would be performing there someday and I did. Such happy times!

Well, off to start my day on this first day of March. Like a lion, I am ready to roar -- start my day -- and head off into the jungle.

What's Wrong With Asking for Help?

2011-02-27T09:18:00.001-08:00

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There is so much uproar going on in the world right now from Unions and Wisconsin to Libya and gas prices. One can get truly overwhelmed and I am feeling a need to get away from computers, cell phones and Facebook. I want to get back to nature, family, my cats, and making some home cooked meals.

I have had a hectic time lately of LA, Santa Barbara, Las Vegas and everywhere in between. I love working but sometimes it can get crazy. I reconnected with some friends through acting classes and it feels good to learn again and create. I am challenging myself more and more and although I did not book every job I hoped to book, I am still working and that is a good thing.

I got to thinking though about asking for help. Awhile ago I was down in a funk and not knowing where to turn, I asked for help. A friend of mine who is a pretty well known actor told me that I should not be asking for help. I wondered why the hell not? There is nothing wrong with asking for help. Some may think that it is too needy, that I am showing that I am too vulnerable. Asking for a job is one thing. Asking you to solve my life's problems is something entirely different.

We all get in times of strife where it does seem hopeless. And there are times when financially you cannot get new head shots, or pay for an acting class even though you know it would be beneficial. Being an actor takes a financial commitment. It takes classes and training. Head shots and promotion. I am a writer too, so I need to keep up those skills as well. I don't like it when someone asks me for a job. But sometimes you have to speak up if you need money to pay for a place to live or for a meal. You have to earn that money, not just have someone hand you some cash.

What I don't have respect for is the person who wants a free meal, free room and board and wants to tell you how to live your life. Excuse me? Everything I own in my home has been paid for by my hard work. I have worked in hospitals, temp agencies, banks, government offices, small companies and large corporations. I have sold cosmetics, jewelry, shoes and mortgage loans. Believe me, I know how to work.

Ask for advice if you need it. Ask for help if you need it. But ultimately you are where you are because of the decisions you have made in your life. Surround yourself with positive, uplifting people. Eliminate bad people, negative people from your life. You'll be much happier at the end of the day.

Great Month

2011-02-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

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I have been really blessed this month with four auditions. I had to bail on one audition because of the physical challenge. And of the other three auditions, I had two callbacks, one booking and one avail. Yay! I'm getting better, I can feel it. And it all comes down to training and experience.

The training is going to give you the knowledge of what to do. And the experience good and bad is going to give you the confidence of what to do and what not to do. And the more confident you are, the more jobs you book!

I constantly hear from other actor friends who are wondering why I am getting booked and they are not. And it is all about the above. You cannot just sit around waiting for the phone to ring with a booking. The training will keep you sharp and competitive. The more auditions you go on, the more confident you will become.

I have had a reporter from a local publication contact me about doing a print interview. I am going to try to schedule that for sometime tomorrow. And I have been booked on a radio program, Disabled Radio. I am going to be their guest speaker on March 23. So, google Disabled Radio (they are in Chicago) and listen in @ 8 pm CST. I am on the west coast so it will be 6 pm PST.

Tonite I have another acting class. Our guest instructor will be David L Lander from the Laverne & Shirley show. Remember him? Well he has written a book about his bout with multiple sclerosis. And now he is an advocate for hiring disabled actors. Yay, unity in numbers. I am looking forward to the class tonight.

LA all last week and in Vegas this week and then back to LA. I have to be in Santa Monica this weekend and next week in Palm Springs. Yikes! Sometimes I think I need to have a personal driver.

My friend is currently living in Texas and is coming back to California. I worry for him because he has no job and don't even know if he will have a place to live. He talks about going up to San Francisco and finding a rich boyfriend to take care of him. Yikes! Does anyone else see something wrong with this picture?

I am having a great month -- gotta keep it up. Gotta keep the momentum going. If it is to be, its up to me.

Riding the Wave

2011-02-19T22:54:00.000-08:00

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Do you know what happens when you work really hard and you learn your craft? Well, if you don't give up -- you get the job!

I had breakfast this morning with a good friend who is also an actor. We talked about how important it is to not only learn your craft, but to stay positive, network and do all the right things. There were times when he would be down and I would help by giving advice. And there were times when I would be down and he would give me advice. That is what friends are for.

I have friends who are casting directors, production assistants, make-up and wardrobe ladies, acting coaches and even managers. You need friends to be honest and give you constructive criticism. And you need a thick skin. This business is tough but not impossible.

You need a support system of friends and family to cheer you on. Believe me, there were times that I felt like giving up. There were times that I worked all day and went to rehearsals at night. I did shows and plays. I've screwed up auditions and cried all the way home. But I learned from each and every audition. A friend of mine, Culture Clash member Herbie Siguenza told me to go out for each and every role that I felt I was right for. He said to learn from each and every audition. And I did. I took mental notes and each time tried to be as prepared as I could be.

And so look out -- because you will see more and more of me -- on television -- in films -- on the radio -- and in print. I am not sitting by my phone waiting for it to ring. I am taking charge of my career. I am the boss, I am in charge.

Don't Worry, Be Happy

2011-02-14T08:38:00.001-08:00

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Thank you to all my followers who have taken time from their busy day to accompany me in this life. There are so many times when one can feel so alone and it is nice to reach out into cyberspace and find some friends. I recently asked some friends to pray for me and it warmed my heart that I received messages of encouragement, thought and yes, prayers.

I worry about those folks that are alone especially on days like this, Valentine's Day. I think about my sister who is unlucky in her love life. I think about my brother-in-law who is 55 years old and has never been on a date (to my knowledge). And I think about those who are alone now through death, separation or divorce. Wow. I feel for them, I really do. But there is such a thing that is called self love.

I always try to work on myself. I compete with myself, if you will. I know my shortcomings, believe me. I try to work on those. I know I can be impatient. I try to laugh everyday. And I do have a sarcastic tongue. Now that I am older, I often bite my tongue. I would rather do that than say something mean or sarcastic to someone just because I can. I enjoy taking the high road. I'm not perfect by any means but I know when it is better to say nothing at all than to say something spiteful.

I have some news! I have been asked to speak on the radio. It's true. We are still in talks of when and what to talk about but I feel so blessed to be asked. It's exciting! I think I have stuff to say. And if you know me, you know that once I start talking, it's tough to get a word in. Sorry but so often I am alone and in my head so that when I do get around folks, I do like to talk.

I had a lovely chat with my friend, Andy. I always feel good when I talk to him. We can commiserate together because he is also an actor with a disability. We are each other's cheerleaders. One of the things I intend to do this year is to stay on top of my game with acting classes. If you don't stay in tune, you can get rusty. That is true with any profession. I always encourage Andy to take classes, to stay sharp. He encourages me when I go to audition after audition.

There are so many good films right now and I am excited that I saw The Black Swan and The Kings Speech. I still want to see some other films before the academy awards. I'd better hurry up.

Well, off to start my day. I must pace myself and not overdo it. There are people to see and places to go. I have my cell phone, my writing tablets and my pens. I have my camera and my tape recorder. Who shall I interview today???

Never Give Up

2011-02-11T07:05:00.000-08:00

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I enjoy reading some of my old posts. When I was a teenager I had a diary. It really helped to get rid of teenage angst. And now this blog helps me get out of my head, voice some frustrations, get excited about what is around the corner and really stop to smell the roses.

I think about people like FDR who had polio and still unified our country in a very turbulent time. I think about Winston Churchill who lifted his hands in a V for Victory. They never gave up.

Sometimes it feels like why am I auditioning over and over? Why am I reading another book on acting or taking another acting class? Why do I do research and contact people and interview people and meet deadlines? Why am I taking a clown class? And I realize it is because I am an artist and I have a voice that i like to use.

I always felt this way. When my siblings were excelling in Sports, I was reading the classics. When things were low because we had no money and were getting on each other's nerves, I would entertain our family. When I was on high school I practiced and practiced until I became good enough to get on the dance team. The polio I had only made me work that much harder to get better and better.

I auditioned for every high school play. I played every role that i could get. When I got out of high school I missed acting so much that I found local community actors and joined them. At first they only let me help actors with their lines. Then I started getting small roles. Then I started getting chorus work on the musicals. Then I started doing Shakespeare in the Park. Then we moved to Los Angeles and I started doing background in the movies.

Along the way, some have discouraged me. And some have encouraged me. I have received rejection after rejection. And occasionally, I would receive an encouraging word from a director or a casting director or a fellow actor, or a good friend. And believe me, those encouraging words kept me going in my heart and in my soul.

The moral of this story is this. You must believe in yourself. If you do not believe in yourself, no one else will either. And eventually, it all begins to make sense and come together. And eventually you know what you can do and what you can't. You know what you are good at and what needs to be improved. You learn to accept constructive criticism and stay away from negative people.

Opportunities don't come that often so when they do, you must reach for them. And you must prepare for them because sometimes they come when you least expect them. And most of all, enjoy the ride.

Things are Looking Up!

2011-02-09T21:29:00.000-08:00

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I am very excited!!! On my way to a new audition today, my agent called me to tell me that I am still in the running for the job that I auditioned for last week. I hope I get it!!!

So I go on the audition today and I ran into Estella from Real Women Have Curves!!! I keep running into her at auditions! She is really nice and we spoke for a few moments before they called us in. The job is very exciting and I hope I get it!!! My agent said this looks good too, so keep me in your prayers. I have this philosophy that if you are meant to get something then you will. And if it is meant for someone else, then that is the way it is. All you can do at auditions is be yourself and do the best job that you can. It is important to listen and follow directions.

A friend of mine was on television last night on the show 1,000 Ways to Die. He was so funny. I love to see my friends on television. It seems strange to see myself on television, I get so critical.

I have heard that this will be my year. Something about a planet moving into my area and this year will be the first of a really good year for the next 11 years. Yay!!! I am so ready.

Good things are around the corner for me, I just know it. And I auditioned for a new casting director today and that is always good!!!

I'm Mad as Hell...

2011-02-07T16:22:00.000-08:00

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I am writing in blue because I am blue. I'm mad as hell and I don't know how much of this I can take anymore. I was in so much pain because of the pps and again I took a hot bath, tried to relax and now I am on the couch again. I hate this. I have so much to do. I am surrounded by two remotes for the television, a book, two writing tablets, no pen, my cellphone, a glass of lemonade, some moisturizing lotion and a pillow for my back. Where is that damn pen?

Thank goodness for laptops and the Internet. I am at least able to connect with the outside world. I do miss my sisters and I wish one of them were here to help me take care of myself. I was reduced to yelling for my husband (again). I needed help to get out of the tub and getting dressed in a house coat. For younger readers a house coat is a cotton sleeping gown, very unglamourous and unsexy. He hates when I wear it, I like it. It's soft and cozy and when you are in pain, you don't feel sexy.

I have just taken a pain pill which will make me drowsy in about one hour. I feel like taking two or three. Pain, pain go away! I am reminded of that self portrait of Frida Kahlo called the Little Deer. There is a little deer running in the forest and it has been hit by numerous arrows in its tiny body. It sheds a tear because it is in such pain. I remember when I was a little girl I told my mother I wish I had extra feet. She wondered what I meant but I told her I wish I could take these feet off (cause they hurt so much) and could put on some new feet that were ready to go. My new feet would be all charged up like a battery and they could take me wherever I wanted to go and I wouldn't be in any pain anymore.

My house has a step from the living room to the hallway towards the bathroom and bedrooms. Every day I go up and down that damn step. By the end of the evening, I am hobbling up that damn step and holding onto the wall for support. I'm mad as hell!

Okay, enough of a pity party. I haven't heard anything yet from the audition last week. I hope I do because it is an exciting gig. I know you are wondering how can she do it? Well, for now I use my heating pad and some pain meds. We polio survivors are very strong and determined to work hard and be our best at whatever we do. So I am not worried about it. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I did decide not to audition for "Jesus Christ, Superstar" and "Evita". Two of my fave shows of all time. But I know I cannot do night after night of rehearsals and shows for no $$$. I have heard from my director though, and I am filming for two weekends in March. Yay!!! He wanted me to work on March 5 (my birthday) but I am not filming on my birthday. I am relaxing on my birthday. I want to go sailing on my birthday. I want to eat lobster on my birthday. I want to have a drink and party on my birthday. I don't want to film for an 8 - 10 - or 12 hour day!

God, where are my sisters? I wish I had one of them here with me to help me. But they all have their own lives so I bet they wouldn't want to help me. It would be very "Baby Jane" with me lying in bed or on the sofa or in the wheelchair. And my sister doing the cooking and the cleaning. She would be Jane and I would be Blanche. I can see it now! Oh, if I wasn't in this wheelchair! But you are Blanche, you are! Yikes!

My sister is getting a divorce. And she is working at a medical facility. And she has been trained as a certified nursing assistant. She would be perfect. But she has this big dog that is dying and he takes up half her living room. Would she like living in my California home? I have an extra bedroom and bathroom. I could get her a television with free cable. All she would have to do is do the shopping, cooking and cleaning. I wonder? Maybe I'll give her a call. Maybe she could help me out of the tub and help me get dressed.

She could sit out by the pool and have a glass of wine with me. I wouldn't be too much trouble. I know I wouldn't be too much trouble. I am excellent company, I'm very quiet. We could watch movies together. I think I'll give her a call. Would you like to relocate to sunny California? Post-polio syndrome is no fun.

Audition Tomorrow

2011-01-31T20:34:00.000-08:00

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Yes! An audition tomorrow for a really cool (and easy) project. I am hoping I do well enough to book this gig. It pays really well and I know my agent would love it if I get the gig. So keep your fingers crossed for me. If I don't get this, I swear I'm moving away, far, far away.

I was looking up some old friends today and heard from one of them. She is involved in the Rotary Club. I was glad because they do so much for so many. The Rotary Club is trying to wipe out polio around the world. I was asked to be a guest speaker at one of the local chapters. It was very interesting. And they presented me with a book on all that the Rotary International is doing around the world. I felt quite honored.

I have to get an early start on my day tomorrow. I am very tired today. I took a bath, got dressed. Made out a grocery list, went to the store. Came home and started making some home made soup (caldo). Dinner came out really good. I also sent out two job resumes and then received the email notification of the audition tomorrow.

It's a little chilly in the air but I can't complain. I feel so badly for everyone back home who are going through a really rough winter. I don't know how they do it. It gets down to 50 degrees here and everyone complains. I myself get some logs and throw them in the fireplace. Gees! But when you are a polio survivor like I am, then it is imperative that we stay warm. I am sitting here on the sofa with a blanket over my legs and a pillow for my back and I am still in pain.

I really don't talk about it much. At least, I don't think I do. But being an actor with a disability is not easy. We also have our own little group. There are some that are hearing impaired. There are others with cerebral palsy who are in wheelchairs. There are some that are blind. Some have speech impediments. I know I am lucky to be as mobile as I am. I wear leg braces at home. I also have a cane for balance. I have a wheelchair when I get too exhausted to walk. Lately, my back has been hurting and my head feels like it weighs as much as a bowling ball. Yikes!

Any other polio survivors out there??? Or others with disabilities? Because I would love to hear from you. One of the other wonderful aspects of having post polio syndrome is the sleep apnea. I have a CPAP machine to help me breathe at night. It is a godsend.

I go to the doctor again soon. But what am I going to say? It's the same old thing again and again. Unless I get a new body, the complaints will be the same. What's the use? Who cares about those of us who have post polio syndrome???

How Foolish

2011-01-30T15:20:00.000-08:00

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LA Casting is looking for a cat woman. Not a hot cat woman like in Batman, but a real cat woman to interview. Oh yes, you must not have one or two cats. You must own a minimum of twelve cats. Don't you want to make a fool out of yourself on national television for $100?

What is this world coming to? Is reality television the death of real acting? I am so sick of the Housewives of ... (name your city). I am sick of the I Almost Died because.... and Ghost Stories of celebrities, blah blah blah.

That goodness for the power of the remote control. There are times that I watch the History channel which has better programming than most programs. And thank goodness for PBS. I have an interview lined with someone coming up for a PBS program on Tuesday night. So be sure to catch up on my articles for Latino LA magazine.

I am working on some clown material. And guess what? I have actually learned how to make balloon animals. It was kinda scary at first. My cats got scared of all the balloon rabbits and dogs around the house. I can't explain why I need to do this. I wrote an article once on taking clown classes and now here I am actually doing it. I guess my point is sometimes as an artist we have to do things that don't make sense to anyone else but us. And I felt the character of a clown calling me. It may lead to a future role. It may lead to nothing at all. But it was something that I needed to do.

I may start writing again soon. I may have to. Well, I guess I am just so sick of how some people in this industry uses others to get ratings for so little money. Where is your dignity, people?

okay, no more bitching. New head shots... trips to LA ... interviews to line up and people to see. a busy week... no rain, please. sunshine and a trip to the ocean.

What's My Line?

2011-01-29T23:13:00.001-08:00

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Hello again and welcome to What's My Line... just kidding. I am sitting home on a Saturday night with my laptop. The television is muted because I can't seem to concentrate on two things at once. I am thinking about the leftover Chinese food in the refrigerator. But it's too late to eat and I had a chocolate candy bar today which I probably shouldn't have eaten. However, I have been craving chocolate and once presented, I had to eat it.

I watched my friends on the new episode of Pit Boss. Yes, I worked with Sebastian and Ronald on a film pilot last year. We had a really good time playing the role of angels in heaven. My other friend, Lexi is rehearsing for a new play. I am still waiting to see my episodes of I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant and Childrens Hospital.

I spoke with my former boss, Rick Najera (pictured here with me). I saw him recently at the CBS Diversity Showcase in N. Hollywood. It was good to see him again as I interned with him last year when he was Senior V. P. @ Movido TV. I really enjoyed working with Rick, he is such a talented and gifted writer and actor. I recently read his play, Diary of a Dad Man and I cried. It was very moving. I hope to be able to write as well as Rick does someday.

It's very exciting to see your friends working so hard on projects and then I get to watch them on television or in film/theater. I know there is so much work and training to get to that level. I may have to write another show for myself since I am auditioning but haven't really booked anything significant for awhile.

So far away from little Ohio. I sometimes wonder what my high school friends would think about how far I have come. I was very shy but I was very interested in theater and had started writing too. Now I write for a Latino magazine and I have been on television and a few films. They probably would be very surprised. Who keeps in touch with folks from high school anyway?

I miss my friends from some of my old jobs back home. When I worked at the police department I made some good friends. Most of them were men, police officers. They really looked out for me and I learned so much from them. It's a shame how you only hear about the bad cops, not the good ones. They've probably all retired and moved away to a warmer climate.

I remember how I would keep some writing tablets and plenty of pens in my police car. During my half hour lunch period I would find a shady tree. I would park the car, go into the trunk of my car and retrieve the writing tablet and start writing. I wanted to go to Los Angeles so badly. I had never been there but I was there in my imagination. I pictured the tall buildings and the crowded streets. I'd picture myself going out for auditions and finding my way through the maze of LA traffic. And now here I am. I don't know how I envisioned that for myself but I did. It seemed so real to me, like I was seeing the life I should be living instead of writing parking tickets and directing traffic. And now -- here I am. Who says dreams don't come true?

I have an interview to set up -- I have some research to do. I have friends who are performing at a comedy club and I'd like to support them. I have friends to catch up with. The only constant thing about life is change. You have to adapt to change. I miss the ways things were sometimes. But then again, you never know what is around the corner.

How Do You Measure Success?

2011-01-17T14:00:00.000-08:00

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I am very pensive lately. Perhaps that is because this is a new year, perhaps because we recently lost Uncle Ted who was 88 years old. I recently contacted a long lost family member. We went to high school together and now we live on the opposite coasts. I started thinking of other high school classmates.

There is the girl who cheated on weekly tests and became class President. There is the girl who was supposedly my best friend and we haven't spoken since graduation. There is the girl who was killed in a snowmobile accident and didn't live to see her 18th birthday. There is the boy who was my boyfriend for two years but then we broke up our senior year.

I went to our class reunion and I was shocked by how many looked so much older in only ten years. I wonder how many children we all had and how many are grandparents today. I wonder who retired, who died and who became really successful? And then how do you measure success?

Well, my friend left Ohio for Florida to work with his father. His father had a painting company. He painted offices, small companies and residential homes. He left Ohio way before I did. We tried to stay in touch but after his divorce and remarriage, we lost contact. I have been through so many jobs and now here I am going on auditions and working every now and then in commercials, film and the occasional television show.

What is really funny is that this is always something I wanted to do, even in high school. I went out for every high school play. I went out for community theater roles. I was a dancer at the football games and yes, I was in the Glee Club. I wrote for our high school newspaper. I was very active. And now, I am working with a Hollywood director and auditioning for national commercials.

I remember being on the lot of Sony Studios and taping some promos for Jeopardy. We drove by the studio where they filmed the Wizard of Oz. I remember thinking that I am walking on the same lot that Judy Garland walked on. I am in the same space that Joan Crawford worked in. It was awesome. And it took me back to the end of our school year where there were predictions. My goal was to be working on the lot of MGM Studios. Wow. So I am taken out of the past and into the present. Back to the fake store fronts at Sony. Hey, there goes Cameron Diaz walking by.

I may not have a huge Hollywood contract. But I am exactly where I wanted to be all those years ago. I don't know what everyone else was thinking and where they envisioned themselves many years later. I was thinking of Hollywood and how far away it was from Toledo, Ohio. And how do you get there, to the end of your dreams? Simple, you take one step at a time.

1st Callback of the Year

2011-01-16T17:14:00.000-08:00

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I received a call from my agent that I had a callback for a commercial. I hadn't even gone on the audition, it was straight to callback. That was nice. It is for a regional commercial, California only. Crossing fingers!!!

I went to the CBS Comedy Diversity showcase. It was so good. I have auditioned for several showcases but in truth, you have one minute to act in a comedy routine that is original material. Now that I saw what was involved, I was amazed at the phenomenal talent out there. The showcase was directed by Rick Najera. I thoroughly enjoyed it. Afterwards, I went to the above audition and then had dinner with some friends. What a great day!!!

Today I found a cousin that I have not spoken with for several years. I am so happy to connect with him again. We practically grew up together. It's nice to stay in touch with family.

Well, I am off to watch the Golden Globes.

I Will Join

2011-01-10T21:38:00.000-08:00

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I was so excited when I woke up this morning. I couldn't wait to grab my cup of coffee so I could be wide awake when I called the AFTRA office. I am ready to join and be a full member of the actors union! It is an exciting time to be an actor. I remember when I first moved here and started out as a background extra. I didn't really know anyone and so I learned so much through trial and error.

My background is in community theater and Shakespeare in the Park. Television acting and film is very different from live theater. So it took me awhile. After some training and auditioning I finally got some roles. It has been several years later and now here I am eligible to join SAG. Anyone can be an AFTRA actor, you just have to pay the dues. However, I wanted to do it the right way by auditioning and getting roles.

It is very exciting to go out on auditions, even non-union auditions and give it your all. It is also very exciting to get that telephone call from the casting director who says, congratulations you won the role. I never get tired of hearing that. I've heard stories of some gals who do unscrupulous things to get a SAG voucher or two. But of course, they never last because they have no talent. I would rather pay my dues and earn my way into the union. And now I have!

I received a message today from a young lady that I worked with last summer. She knows of someone who is hiring and asked me if I was working. Nope, I wish. And she asked me to send her my resume and she will forward it to someone else. Yay! I was just putting it out into the universe that I need some $$$$ and a job and then she contacted me.

Be careful what you think, what you say and with your attitude. I had a disappointment today and I was sad but I refused to let it deter me from what I wish to accomplish. And then I saw Jim Carrey on the Actors Studio and he was so positive and confident. And he said that even though he went through some tough times too, he always knew that he would be successful. He was so inspirational. I was never a big fan of his until I saw him in the Truman Show. Comedy is so difficult (for me) and he can do comedic acting as well as drama.

I am staying positive, Jim and to the universe: yes, I am ready. Ready to work. Ready to learn. Ready to meet new people. Ready to earn some good money. Ready to take some chances. Ready to travel. I know who I am and I am ready.

Move it and Lose it

2011-01-09T09:29:00.000-08:00

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Yes, I have joined Dr OZ's weight loss program. I really enjoy his television show and I like how he breaks everything down so that I can understand. I am not particularly fond of diets and I have tried a few but nothing seems to work. I have gained weight over the last three years and I seem to have reached a plateau. I will lose a pound or two or gain another two pounds and still hover around the same weight. This year will be different.

The plan is very simple and it should take about one year to get to my goal weight. The meals are very sensible. And they encourage physical activities to get into shape. Now I have to be sensible and not injure myself. I have decided to use resistance bands one day and the next day I will do Yoga. The following day I will see if I can walk 20 to 30 minutes. I miss playing tennis. I have my rackets but no one to play with. So maybe later this will be an exercise that is something I will be able to do. In addition, I was given a caloric intake amount for my height and weight. I must log everything I eat and drink and it adds up the calories. It is amazing how one little flour tortilla is over 300 calories! Yikes!

The other thing going on right now is I missed an audition for Jesus Christ, Superstar. Now, I love that show and have always wanted to be in it. However, it is at our local community theater and I just don't have all that time to put into a show that is not paying anything. I talked to my agent and she told me what I already knew. Theater is good training for an actor. However, I am at the point in my career where I want to make some money and I can do that in television and films. I have missed opportunities to go on good commercial auditions because I was doing a play. I can't miss anymore opportunities like that. That means making the tough choices in my career. But this is my career and I have to take it seriously.

My clown classes are coming along nicely. I have received some good make up tips, learned how to make some animal balloons and am working on my character. I look forward to my other upcoming classes.

I received a letter from AFTRA. I am now an AFTRA must join. I have worked on several jobs last year at the union rate. That was great. And now I am eligible to join the union. The television shows are either AFTRA or SAG. For the first time ever, the majority of television shows are now AFTRA. So once I join, I will be eligible for submitting to AFTRA projects. I'm so excited. I remember when I received my letter from SAG that I was SAG eligible. It was so exciting. Joining both unions was a goal of mine and now it is within grasp.

Things are coming together for me and this is a very exciting part of my life right now. Believe me, this is such a competitive business. I remember all the people that encouraged me to keep going. If people only knew you have to go on ten auditions before you get one role. There is so much rejection. But if you keep your eye to the prize and do the work that it takes, you can move forward. I have several upcoming programs on television and it is nice to receive those checks in the mail. It is even more exciting to audition and win a role, and then perform it. I sent out thank you notes to all the casting directors that hired me last year. I want to thank them and remind them that I am ready and available to work for them as a professional actor.

My new business cards have come in and I am ready to hand them out. I am working on a new, healthier me and my bod will look better too. I am connecting with my girlfriends and looking forward to 2011.

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T09:58:00.000-08:00

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Happy New Year to everyone out there in cyber space. I am so excited because I read in my horoscope that I will have a good year and this will be followed by 12 more years of prosperity. It also said that the last two years have been difficult (true) and that my hard work will finally come to fruition this Spring. That sounds good to me and so far this is true.

In Hollywood it is difficult, but not impossible to make your dreams come true. One of my favorite actors is Mark Ruffalo. I never thought I would ever meet him and I certainly never thought I would ever work with him. However, two years ago I received a phone call from Rich King casting. They wanted to know if I would be interested in working as a featured background person in Mark's new film. The project was a SAG film and would soon be submitted to the Sundance Film festival. Of course I said yes and that is how I got my third SAG voucher. He was particularly looking for performers with disabilities. Now how often does that happen? Oh yes, the film is called "Sympathy for Delicious" and I got to be in a scene with Orlando Bloom. When we finished shooting the scene and we wrapped for the day I told Mark, "I am a big fan of yours". And he said, now that I've seen your work, I am a big fan of yours, too! And he hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. See, dreams do come true. I just saw "The Kids are Alright" and it was so good. I was invited to the screening last Fall and wouldn't you know it, I got really ill. I had two tickets reserved at the Arclight theater. My friend, Andy Arias was going to be my guest and the tickets were in my name. Andy went anyway and he got to talk to Mark. I was so upset but it was one of those bad days when my legs were not working and I was sitting at home pouting.

I am very excited for the new opportunities coming my way, some are in the works as we speak. Keep the faith, people! You will be seeing more and more of me in person, in print, on television and on film. I am getting better and better as I hone my craft and encouraging those that I meet along the way.

I am sad that we lost some friends and relatives last year. However, I know they would want us to continue living and loving those around us.

How Can Anyone Be Afraid of a Clown?

2010-12-26T09:00:00.000-08:00

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Well, Christmas is over and I am glad. So many people driving like crazy fools for the past few days. They wait till the last minute and then shoppers everywhere and people fighting for parking spots.

The holiday dinner turned out really good and we still have some leftovers. The cookies were excellent and I'm so glad that I made them. I handed some away as gifts too. A pretty quiet holiday. My brother was going to visit from Las Vegas but the rains were so bad that he decided to stay home after all. I don't blame him. In this weather, better to fly.

I talked to a few people who said they were afraid when they saw me dressed as a clown. What? How can anyone be afraid of a clown? But some are and that is so strange to me. Clowns make you laugh, they are so goofy and funny. They give you animal balloons, they ride around in little cars. They have big feet. I love clowns and love being a clown. I am going to learn to juggle and paint faces and do animal balloons. I can't wait!

I've given my writing a bit of a rest during this holiday time although I should probably pick up on it a bit. I cut all my nails off which helps me type faster and I love this. I usually write not on a computer, but on yellow legal pads. I have them everywhere. Whenever I'm working on a project or getting stuff out of my head, it goes right on the paper. I guess different writers use different techniques. This works for me.

I read Water for Elephants in one day. It was so good that I reading it all over again. This is one book that I definitely want to keep so I guess I will be going to Barnes & Noble to pick up a copy for me and one for my Mom. She is an avid reader too so now I know that I take after her in that regard.

For some reason I am craving chicken. Perhaps I will make some fried chicken. I make it the best. Really, I have yet to go to any restaurant that makes it as good as mine. I have a taste for some greens too. A nice tossed salad, biscuits, potatoes and fried chicken. And then, come New Year's Day, time to diet again.

Ugh! But I must unless I want to be a little roly poly clown. And that will not do. Oh no, that will not do at all. I must admit that I am looking forward to the New Year. New adventures, a new job and better opportunities. I know that things will be looking up.

Christmas is Around the Corner!

2010-12-23T14:33:00.000-08:00

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I know that Christmas is on December 25 and somehow I am never prepared when it comes around. I guess I just don't want the year to end and I always drag my feet. Ironically, I do like New Years Eve and New Years Day.

I finally have my Christmas tree up and decorated. It looks lovely, a 6' tree. Not a real one but like so many things in California, it looks real and that is the important thing. There are many decorations including the little red cable cars that I purchased in San Francisco several years ago. I love those as it brings back fond memories.

I am in the kitchen baking some Christmas cookies. Now this is a first for me. I do bake good cakes but I am not usually known for my cookies. I'm actually having a good time. I am baking oatmeal, peanut butter, thumbprint and finally sugar cookies. The house smells really good too.

Thank goodness the rain has stopped for now. So sad to hear so many people lost their homes and are stranded. We have been very fortunate. I try to stay out of the elements when the weather gets bad. No use killing yourself over an audition. There will be other auditions.

So I finished reading one book and decided to read another but I didn't want to buy another book. So I called our local library and yes they had it. I took my grocery list with me, stopped by the library to pick up the book. I went to the grocery store and picked up the cookie items.

The book I picked up is "Water for Elephants". You may have seen the promos for the film which is coming out soon. The film stars Reese Witherspoon. It is a film about the circus. This man has some financial problems during the Great Depression and he jumps on board a train at night to get away. He doesn't realize until morning that he has boarded a circus train. His life changes in so many ways. It is wonderful. I don't know if I am glad that I read the book before seeing the film.

Now that I am working as a clown I wish I had learned about the casting of this film earlier. I remember seeing some breakdowns earlier in the Spring but I didn't know anything about this project. Shame on me for not finding out ahead of time. See what I mean about opportunities? You must stay on top of this stuff. It would have been amazing to be in this film. Oh well, I will see it when it comes out nevertheless.

I am very excited about some upcoming opportunities. Can't say anything more at this time. But I just wanted to thank everyone for reading my posts and encouraging me to keep going as you have. You know this business is not for the faint of heart. Every time someone kicks you down, you have to get right back up again. Sometimes I need to remind myself of this.

Stay well, don't shake too many hands as there is the flu bug going around. Be careful when you are shopping at night. Be aware of your surroundings. Don't chat or text when driving. Stay tuned to the local channels for current weather and road conditions. Be safe so you'll be around for next year!

Childrens Hospital on Cartoon Network

2010-12-19T09:45:00.000-08:00

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Well, I had a blast on the television show Childrens Hospital. This started out as a webisode, turned into a television show on the WB and then got picked up by the Cartoon Network. This program pokes fun at all the serious hospital shows like ER, Grey's Anatomy, etc. The show stars Henry Winkler, Megan Mullally and others.

I am excited because I told my family I want to be a clown. It was in the back of my mind and I walked into our local thrift store. And lo and behold there was this beautiful little red hat just calling out to me. Price $2. I tried it on and it was a perfect fit. I went home, had this costume hanging in my closet and came up with my clown outfit.

I practiced with the make-up till I found something I really liked and ta da! Now to get some stockings, underwear and gloves. Did you know that there is clown etiquette? It is true. There is clown etiquette. As a clown you cannot show any skin. Nada! So I even have makeup over my ears, neck and throat.

I have been an elf and now a clown. Yay! Very excited because I am going to learn to juggle and of course, make the balloons for the kids. I would love to visit hospitals, go to the library and entertain the children.

I was in a room full of 13 other clowns and we had a blast. There is nothing like a room full of clowns entertaining each other and the crew. There is nothing like the look of a child when they see a clown. Their whole face lights up. I love it.

We took a lunch break and we were starving. I didn't think anything about it until I heard a small child say there are so many clowns! And sure enough he looked like he was 5 and his face was so happy. He probably never saw so many clowns in one place.

I wish I were more agile and could do somersaults and stuff like that. But alas, with this polio I am happy to walk.

I am looking forward to the movie, Water for Elephants about the circus. If I had my photos with the casting agencies perhaps I would have been chosen too for this film. Ah! coulda, woulda, shoulda. But you live and learn with this business!

Be a Clown

2010-12-16T19:28:00.000-08:00

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Be a clown, be a clown all the world loves a clown. Some of you may have noticed that I changed my profile photo. Yes, I did. Well there was an audition notice that I received and they were looking for clowns. Apparently some folks who are not clowns submitted themselves. And the notice went out again for real clowns.

So I put on my full clown attire including all makeup and sent in some lovely photos. The project is for a television show and this is an AFTRA job. Yay! Today I received the phone call that I have been selected. No audition necessary! This is a featured role and I am so excited. I am packing my items because I have an early call time tomorrow and must be in full clown attire and on the set.

Of course the rest of my week has been dead and then I get an email from my agent that I have a big audition for a really big project. And the audition is tomorrow! Why does everything happen at once? Ugh! It never fails. The audition couldn't be Saturday or Monday. It has to be tomorrow after I already accepted the clown job.

Now in case you are wondering what the protocol is, once you accept the job it is yours. And you cannot or should not even try to get out of it. It is considered bad form to leave one job for another. And in all fairness, tomorrow is an audition it is not a job. And besides, I already accepted the job.

Now I love being a clown and have never been a clown on television. I have auditioned as a clown on several other projects but was never selected. I am an actor not a model so doing photos is difficult for me. But, I have been watching America's Next Top Model and I have been learning what to do and what not to do from that show.

And guess what? It really helped. The models only have a few moments to get into character and then strike a pose. The same with acting. Our head shots are our calling cards. To a certain degree you can make yourself look better. But you have to start out with a good face, a good pose and good clothes. Sometimes if you get nervous, it will show on your photo. So the good thing about being a clown is most of your face is in clown makeup. But the camera still sees your eyes. And that is where being in the moment comes in.

I had a really good time getting into character with a doll, an umbrella, using my hands, and making faces. Well, apparently they liked what they saw because I got booked from my photos. I report to the set early tomorrow for a long day of filming. I'm so excited! We shoot in North Hollywood and let me tell ya, this job could not have come at a better time.

Cheers!

December is almost over!

2010-12-14T18:01:00.000-08:00

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My goodness, where has December gone? I can't believe that half the month is here already. My month has been busy and I have several writing assignments. I am writing for a newsletter and I have started writing a book. The book is about our family. I have written three chapters and so far, so good.

I was thinking of getting a puppy for Christmas but I have decided against this idea. I do so much travelling that I don't think it would be fair to the new puppy. I already have three cats and they are well cared for when I travel. Perhaps later when I have more time at home.

I sure hope that next year is better than this year has been. I've been thinking of several friends and relatives and it seems that most of them are having a hard time too. I wonder how they are keeping their spirits up. I have been reading some of my previous posts and it seems that I have been up and down. I can't help it. It's not that I worry all the time because I don't. I don't worry about things. I just ride it out. In this industry, you can be really down and then you get a call for a job or you do a really great audition and then I am working again and all is well.

I have been more worried about my health. I did get my CPAP machine and have been using it. I did notice a big difference in my sleeping habits now. I am actually starting to dream again. I guess I am getting the good sleep that I need. I am not yawning all the time as I once did.

Things will get better, they will! I know they will. I believe in the abundance theory and I know that good things are around the corner for me. My brother is coming to visit me for Christmas and I am really looking forward to seeing him. I actually was going to invite myself to his home in Las Vegas but he is coming here. I can't wait to see him again! After losing an Uncle it really makes you glad that I have more relatives.

I would like to thank you, dear reader for sticking with me this year. It has been ups and downs but that is the way life can be. I do want to get more organized. I did miss some events this year because I did write them down and then forgot about them. Yikes! I can't do that anymore. My schedule is too important to miss important events. I am getting very particular about which events I attend.

There are still Christmas cards to mail out and gifts to send. I look forward to another turkey dinner surrounded by family and friends. I am keeping my fingers crossed for an audition on a SAG project. They were looking for clowns so I put on my clown outfit and sent in my photos. Wish me luck!

Through Rose Colored Glasses

2010-12-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

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I wish I could paint the world pink. Pink is my favorite color. Pink makes everything better. Pink is soothing and soft and safe. And right now when it feels like my world is falling apart, pink is like Valium.

When I was younger I heard the term looking at the world through rose colored glasses and i realized that you see the world as you wish it were and not as it really is. That is so true but I believe it is also a safety valve. Yesterday I didn't watch any news programs at all. I tried to get into the Holiday spirit and was listening to some old fashioned Christmas music. I felt better and the music brought back memories of Christmas past and friends that I had not thought of in years.

But then we went to lunch and while lunch was good we had a conversation about the death of Uncle Ted and things went downhill from there. I tried to brush it off but it was upsetting. I made a nice dinner of homemade chicken noodle soup and that was really good. I read some more of Janis Ian's book, Society Child. That book is a very real look into the music industry.

I wanted to watch an old Christmas movie, Scrooge but it had just ended. I remember taking my youngest brother and sister to the movies to watch that. It was a nice memory but my hubby looked bored to tears with watching old TV movies about Christmas. I had asked him 3 times if we could put up our Christmas tree. Asked him 3 times if he was going to put the lights on the house. Asked him 3 times to bring down the Christmas decorations so I could start decorating our tree.

And like Scrooge he didn't want to be bothered. Okay, let's see. No job, no money, no visitors, no family left here. I can't go anywhere, can't spend anything and now we can't even try to get into the Christmas spirit by decorating the house? What am I doing with someone who doesn't even get me? OMG, I married Scrooge. We go through this every single year.

Do you know what it is like to be married to someone who is clinically depressed? You cheer them up every single day, like a cheerleader. You prop them up and laugh at them to ease the tension. You encourage them to take their antidepressant medicine everyday. You try to cook them their favorite meals, you encourage the pets to give him extra love. You try and try and try and everyday they still wake up unhappy. It's like that movie, Groundhog day. Everyday is the same and every morning you hope this will be the day that is different. But it's not -- it's Groundhog day all over again. It's like the merry-go-round that you want to get off and you are afraid if you jump off, you'll crack your head open like a coconut.

I have a film I'm shooting. I have only filmed one scene and I have three more to go. I have a TV show that I'm in that is coming out in the summer. I have another episode of I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant coming out in a few weeks. I have been asked to proof some scripts but I actually had to ask for payment because they wanted me to do it for free. Do you believe this? I have a play coming up in the Spring. And right now all I want to do is make the world go away.

Where are my rose colored glasses? Where can I get some Valium? Why are there a bunch of users who want to take, take, take? I have a ticket to a class this morning run by one of the top casting directors in LA. I can't do it. I can't drive to LA to hear another casting director tell a room full of actors what they want to see at auditions. Because I know what they want to see. They want to see some beautiful 18 to 24 year old who looks like they could still be in high school or on another episode of Glee. Who are they kidding? And if this is not you, you may as well stay home. Hell, even the Sex and the City 2 women looked like shit. Did you see a worse movie than that?

Does anyone care about another writer in Hollywood? Remember Sunset Boulevard? Well, it's just like that. You chase your dreams in La La land and end up in a stuffy, studio apartment. A Murphy bed, a rancid smell. You eat peanut butter sandwiches for lunch and eat cereal for dinner. You walk and walk and watch people eating nice meals in fancy restaurants. You drive down Sunset Boulevard and look towards Chateau Marmont where John Belushi died. You wonder if this is all worth it.

You drive past the street and look up to the homes in the Hollywood Hills and know that you once worked there at that home, the one next to the home of Drew Barrymore. I took a non-union job there for $200 a day. I knew that the production company would make a whole lot more money than that. But I was hungry and $200 a day is better than $0. They take advantage of talent every single day and if you don't want to do it, someone else will. They keep coming off the bus from places like Kansas.

I can see how people cross that line from sanity to insanity. You walk the line of the straight and narrow so long and then you wonder why you do it. For dignity? Doesn't pay the bills. You wonder who knows you out here in Hollywood anyway? And who really cares? And the truth hits you between the eyes. No one knows you in Hollywood and no one really cares. And then you wind up lonely and broke and in the depths of despair like Neely O'Hara in Valley of the Dolls. And you understand why Neely keeps taking pills.

At night you walk down the main street in Beverly Hills. The lights are so bright and so welcoming. But it is all an illusion. After all, this is Hollywood where the unreal can seem so real. And I am reminded of the Twilight Zone episode where the actor is miserable in his real life but loves his life on the TV series. And he finally comes to the realization that life is better in his make believe world. He jumps in and he never looks back. Fantasy or reality? Pass the Valium, please.

Back to Work

2010-12-09T16:36:00.000-08:00

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What a day yesterday was. I don't think any of us anticipate death and yet there it is. Life is so much better. So I have dried my tears and come to terms with a family loss. Back to work!

I had jury duty on Monday and then dealt with the loss of our Uncle on Tuesday and Wednesday. I may have an audition tomorrow, will have to wait and see.

I am trying to get into the Christmas spirit but it is difficult this year. I have not had a steady job this year at all and acting jobs have been too few and far between. I did however, have a wonderful opportunity to work as a production assistant earlier this year. And I did some television filming. I also got to meet several celebrities and have been offered several writing assignments too.

I am going to concentrate on family for the remainder of the year. I know that my children look to me for guidance and while it has been a trying year for everyone, life goes on. And there have been tough times in the past and we have weathered the storm and we will do so again. And hopefully, we will have learned some valuable lessons like always save for a rainy day. And hold those that you love dear to your heart. You never know when you may not see them again.

It cracks me up when people call me to interview them just to promote a new movie they are doing or because they are getting themselves out there. Well, I am an actor too and getting yourself out there is part of the job. I am amazed how many times I will meet an interesting person and I will ask for their card only to have them tell me that they don't have one with them. Really? And you are promoting yourself? I learned a long time ago to have 4 or 5 head shots in my car at all times. And I always have my card which is a business sized head shot with my phone number and email address on it. You never know who you'll meet and you may not have the time to really chat. So I always say, I'd love to stay in touch. May I give you my card? See simple stuff that I learned when I was a Mary Kay consultant.

Okay, now you know my secret to staying young looking and beautiful. It is my Mary Kay products! I love them and I always pamper my Mom, sisters and girl friends when they come to visit me. We do facials and I teach them how to care for their skin. Everyone should moisturize, even men!

So I have applied to several jobs, one at a local casino. And I submitted 4 applications to Warner Brothers studio. Wouldn't that be awesome to work at Warner Bros??? I have worked as an actress at Universal Studios, Paramount, Sony but have not yet worked at Warner Bros. I have a background in Administration and in Finance in case you were wondering. And my major in college was Communications. Communications is a wonderful field and goes hand in hand with the dwindling degree of Journalism.

Well, I am going to stay optimistic because I am a glass half full kinda gal and win or lose, we must keep going forward. I just know that there is a good job out there with my name on it, good supervisor, good pay and a place where I can spread my wings and fly. Come on, Universe bring it!

Please deliver to Uncle Ted in Heaven

2010-12-08T09:14:00.000-08:00

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Dear Uncle Ted,

I am writing this letter to you because I know that you wanted us to stay in touch. I am going to miss your laughter and the way you said you needed some lovies. I enjoyed watching you eat everything on your plate. I remember visiting you in the hospital and seeing your face light up when we walked into the room.

I remember how cute you looked on our doorstep when you came over to visit us and you handed me a bouquet of flowers. I dressed for dinner and I took your arm and we walked into the restaurant and you loved the salmon dish you ordered.

You loved eating ice cream – and you loved entertaining. You were very kind to my parents and you thought my Mom was a pistol.

You said you don’t remember the last time you went to the movies and I made a mental note of that so we could take you but many times you didn’t want to leave the house. I think you knew you didn’t have much time left.

I didn’t realize what a romantic you were until you said that your wife died in your arms. It made me realize that you still grieved for her to this day. And now you are with Enid.

We had spoken some words and said some things that we both regretted and when John called you were so happy and apologetic. Then I knew that we could never be mad at each other again. Life is too short to say mean things that you can’t take back. And nothing is worse than having no family.

You told me many times how much you loved John and that was nice to hear. You showed us many photos of your family and told us how Grandma Ann was more your mother than a big sister, you loved her so!

You loved music and I think you were really happy that John, Jeremy and Amy all shared your love of music. I think you were proud of my acting career too and would call me movie star!

You gave us good advice on where to move, when to buy a home and when to keep our homes. You talked many times about how you didn’t like doctors, and illness and you were so proud that you were able to drive yourself to the doctor’s offices and you very rarely asked for any help even though we offered many times.

You were stubborn as a mule at times and there were times when we intervened but I think that you loved the fact that we cared. And we did. You were not perfect but no one is. In the end, it is all about forgiveness and love. And family. Thank you for your guidance and your love. We will miss you.

R.I.P. Uncle Ted

2010-12-07T14:56:00.000-08:00

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It is with sadness dear reader that I tell you about the loss of our Uncle Ted. He was the great Uncle of my husband and he was 88 years old. I first learned about Uncle Ted when we first married. He was the Uncle that lived in San Diego. My husband's grandmother Ann was Ted's big sister. She was 11 years older than Ted and very protective of him.

He was the youngest of many children and was only a baby when they all came over on the boat from Poland to Ellis Island. He said his older brothers and sisters were much older and they were always shooing him away. He had a good full life with two previous marriages, one son and two grandsons.

He was a professional musician for much of his life and a health problem deterred him from serving during WWII. After a failed first marriage he left his wife and young son and headed out west to Phoenix. As a head waiter he saved enough money to buy a home in La Jolla. He told us he brought his home with his tip money!

He was pretty happy with his second marriage which lasted 12 years. They enjoyed travelling, boating, and he lost his wife to leukemia the year that we moved to California in 1993. He was very instrumental in helping us choose a place to live in nearby Poway. Great school district and low crime!

He was a realtor for the last 30 years of his life and retired a few years ago. He enjoyed working out, cooking on his patio. He hated getting older and seeing his friends pass on one by one. He always said why am I the last one? Why do I have to see all my friends go?

I didn't know until recently that when his wife passed, she died in his arms in their bed. He knew his health was failing but he didn't want to go into a nursing home. I figured out that he wanted to die in his home too. We asked him to come and live with us but he didn't want to.

He loved jazz music and the big bands. He loved having visitors. He loved living in San Diego. He was not a perfect man. No one is perfect. But he had a plan for his life and that did not include getting old and having your health deteriorate. He hated that.

When we picked him up from the hospital that last time, he told me how much he loved my husband and I said he loves you too. He told the nursing staff, I don't know what I would do without these guys (meaning my husband and me).

I was filming all week in LA and was happy to be home on Saturday. I told my hubby we should go see Uncle Ted on Sunday. We both had a lazy morning and watched TV. Before we knew it, it was 5 pm and too late to visit. We called him earlier today to check in on him and his friend, Marie answered the phone.

She told us that Ted had taken a spill and had fallen. The next part is sketchy but some how she was notified that he had fallen. They took him to the hospital on Sunday. On Monday around 4 pm he passed. No one had called us. If we had not called him today, I don't know when we would have been notified.

We are both so shaken that this happened on Sunday and feel somehow that had we been there perhaps he would not have fallen. Everything is up in the air for now. I am saddened for us but I know he died where he wanted to die, at home. He is in a much better place now, that I know for sure. His heart and his kidneys were failing him.

After his release from the hospital, we brought him to our home to recover. He asked me if I thought he would get better. I told him no, I didn't think he was getting better. I told him his head nurse told us his two major organs were failing him and it was just a matter of time. I hope I did the right thing by telling him the truth. I held his hand as I told him and he looked like oh, okay. And then he wanted to go home. And yesterday he went home to our Lord.

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2010-12-05T15:57:00.000-08:00

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I've had a blast today doing some voice over work for the internet radio station, WWWN on Live 365 radio. http://www.live365.com/ and look for my radio station, WWWN. Please do log on and listen. If you'd like you can even request a song or make a dedication. I am notified via email and I will put your song on or make the dedication for you. Become a listener! The station is songs from the 60s, 70s and 80s which was a fun time.

I do voice over for an episode which I call the Hollywood Minute. I talk about stuff going on in Hollywood, gossip on upcoming films, and today I am promoting my friend Christopher Carrington. He is appearing on an upcoming episode of ABC's Castle tomorrow night. I am very excited for Chris. He and I worked together on the indie film, "Woman's Work" which went to like 20 independent film festivals.

I am tired after working on a TV show last Wednesday, and another show on Thursday and Friday. I was hoping to catch lunch or dinner with some of my LA pals but I wasn't expecting to be on the set for a 12 hour day. Yikes! After that all I want to do is have some dinner, put on some jammies and jump into bed.

There is nothing like driving down the 101 towards Hollywood and knowing I am working on the set. I report to wardrobe and makeup. Bless those makeup ladies for helping me look good. I never quite know what to wear to the set and believe me, all the actresses come in looking like death warmed over. We stumble in with no makeup and head straight for the coffee!

So for my upcoming week, who knows? Well, I have mandatory jury duty tomorrow. Yuck! I am not happy about this because there was a really good SAG job that I could have auditioned for but because the auditions were on Monday, I knew I couldn't go.

And I missed an audition for Anna's Linens. I was working on the set and my agent told me to try to audition if I got out early enough but nope, it wasn't happening. Oh well. That's how it goes. I met some really awesome ladies last week on the set of the new comedy show, "Jon Benjamin Has a Van" and one of them shared some good gossip on where to shop for clothes. I love it when you go to the set and the vibe is just right. It makes for an easy, tranquil set where we all work together and believe me when there are 10 women there sometimes that doesn't always happen.

I have to say though that even though I am one of those people that are unemployed that I have been really lucky. I have some upcoming projects in 2011, I have some job prospects and am doing a play in February. I had an audition this year for Dexter and got a callback on a national commercial. Even though I didn't get cast, I did get in front of 2 new casting directors that I'd never seen before. Dustin Hoffman once auditioned for Mike Nichols and even though he didn't get the role, Mr. Nichols remembered Dustin and cast him for The Graduate and the rest is history.

I'm listening to WWWN and Leslie Gore is singing a song. Wow, this brings back memories of watching my older sisters dancing to 45s. I was the little sister always hanging around them and asking them to teach me how to dance. They would shoo me away and I would still watch them and mimic their moves. One sister was much older and just wanted to get married. The other sister was incredibly self-conscious and shy. And all I ever wanted to do was dance and act.

And so I did. I acted in school plays in grade school. I joined the Glee Club in high school and acted in high school productions. After graduation I joined local community groups and acted in some drama plays and did some musicals. I was doing West Side Story when a police Lieutenant I knew asked me to encourage his niece. She wanted to be an actress too. Believe me, she didn't need any encouragement from me. She had ambition and you know her today as the beautiful and talented Katie Holmes from Toledo, Ohio. True story!

I have been asked to write a story on the master class I attended which was taught by Janis Ian. I am so excited because I know she will read it. I wish I had taken notes now but I couldn't take my eyes off her. She was just so amazing. Have you heard the Buddhist saying, when the student is ready the teacher will appear? Well, it's true. I feel sometimes that I still have so much to learn about the entertainment business.

I will share my journey with you, my readers as I stumble across this mine field. There are pitfalls. There are setbacks. There will be blood, sweat and tears. And there have been many times when I have been so tired that I could only manage a bowl of cereal for dinner. But then when things are better it makes the white wine and lobster dinners that much sweeter!

I Booked it

2010-11-29T16:51:00.000-08:00

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Yay, I booked two jobs. I went on an audition last week for another episode of I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant. I received a call on Friday to put me on avail and just received a call that I got the job. I work on Thursday and Friday.

And then I booked another job as a featured extra on a television show which works on Wednesday. I need the work and praise the Lord now I have two jobs.

I notified my agent and she is very proud of me. So I will have the casting directors contact my agent and clear my schedule for the rest of the week.

I was a little nervous about finding employment this time of year but the only thing I can do is try and audition as much as possible. And now my prayers have been answered. Thanks to everyone who said a little prayer for me.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I had a nice time and am trying to stay warm. My goodness where did all this cold weather come from?

Well, thanks for reading. Hopefully this is an indication that things are looking up. Does anyone need a full-time production assistant? I have excellent references and good experience. I am sending resumes to Warner Brothers and Universal Studios. Background in Finance but would rather work on films. Let me know!

How Was Turkey Day?

2010-11-26T17:21:00.000-08:00

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Mine was very good although I miss my son who is serving his country abroad. We kept him in our prayers at dinnertime. Speaking of dinner I have eaten so much these last 3 days. Yikes! But as I said earlier Thanksgiving is not the time to be dieting. No regrets. I love turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes and the pumpkin pie.

So sad to hear that George Lopez and his wife Ann are divorcing. I had heard that quite some time ago but to know that it is finally happening is still sad to me. I read an article recently about marriage being obsolete and I don't think that is so. Marriage is the glue that holds families together. I think most people long for that special someone to love them when they are young and hot and someone to grow old with.

What do you look like first thing in the morning? I always remove all my makeup before I go to bed. Sometimes I still have lipstick on because I hate dry lips. But other than that my hair is a mess, I usually have a pillow line on my cheek. It's not glamorous in the least. My face needs a good scrubbing, a brush through my hair and some toothpaste. A little moisturizer and I'm good to go for that hot cup of coffee in the morning. Then all is right with the world again.

I recently had two sleep studies. I found out that I have been so tired because I'm not getting all the oxygen that I need. I have sleep obstruction and sleep apnea going on. So my doctor has recommended a CPAP machine. Oh, now I look really glamorous when I go to bed. I have this mask with tubing that goes in my nose so I can breathe in good oxygen and get rid of the carbon dioxide. It is very quiet and amazingly, my throat doesn't hurt every morning. It makes me sleep better already and sleeping better gives me more energy through the day and I'm not constantly in a haze, fumbling for thoughts and words. It has only been 3 days and I feel a big difference already. So much fun having polio, isn't it?

I am looking at the calendar and I can't believe it is November, 2010. My goodness this year has just flown by. I'm looking around my house and there's just so much stuff! I have to start downsizing. I have boxes and boxes of books. I have cabinets full of DVDs. I swear I'm going to downsize. Not having a job can be a good thing. You don't have any extra money to buy more junk. I've never been one of those gals that has to shop, shop buy, buy all the time. If I need a black skirt I go to the store and walk straight to the skirt section. I may try on 3 or 4 and then find exactly what I want, purchase it and leave. I can't see wasting your time at a mall. I actually hate shopping. If I could afford to have a personal shopper, I would hire one in a heartbeat.

One thing I do love is getting my hair done. Nails are nice too but that is a luxury I can do without. But hair is another thing entirely. Love the shampoo and conditioner part. Just quietly resting my eyes while my hair is being washed. Love it! I am growing my hair out again and its growing in thick and nice just like always. I've had shorter hair for years because I was writing and didn't want to be bothered. Just chop it off and give me a pad and a pen. I've got things to do, people to watch and stories to write. But now I'm reviewing the situation as they say in Oliver!

I miss so many things but no time to ponder on what was. Time to think of what could be. I think I'll watch the Wizard of Oz and start decorating my fake Christmas tree. I love a real tree but when I was paying almost $100 for a tree that dies anyway I had to review the situation. We can make some hot chocolate and listen to some holiday music. Then sit down and watch Judy Garland sing Over the Rainbow. Love it! Welcome to the holiday season. Time to make sure I have correct addresses to send out the Christmas cards. Do you believe it? I'm thankful for my family, my friends near and far and my cats. My furry little friends make me laugh and give me joy. I'm thinking of getting a dog but what type? Don't know but it seems everyone around here has a dog or two. I want something not too large but not too small either. A type of dog that gets along well with cats. Any suggestions?

Good News!

2010-11-24T14:09:00.000-08:00

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My, oh my what a week this has been. My friends are travelling by air to Pennsylvania and the other to Texas. I am staying home this Thanksgiving and happy to do so. I love the smell of the turkey and all the goodies cooking. Yum! Now is not the time to be dieting.

So I have good news! I received a call on one of the auditions I did recently. While I am not officially booked, I did receive a call to be on avail. And what that means is they are interested in you and want to know if I am available to film should they decide for sure on me. I have not been getting callbacks lately and now I received one callback and one avail. Yay, things are looking up.

I have been trying to keep my attitude positive and sometimes that is difficult. And you know this is true if you read my last email. But I can get very strong opinions when it comes to politics and my rights as a citizen in this country. Enough about that!

Hurray for Andy who is performing comedy again this weekend. I plan on going to see him on Saturday night. He is doing so well, hanging in there and working his comedy. I will have to ask him how performing comedy before a live audience is different from acting.

I have done theater, film and television. I actually like theater because it keeps you sharp. And when I had an audition for a national commercial recently I used the skills I had learned in theater to help me with my audition. Skills, people. Acting is a skill and it can be learned.

I am meeting new friends and going to meetings. I am taking care of myself and trying to pace myself. I have had an amazing year. I worked at Paramount Studios. I have auditioned for Dexter and now a national commercial. I am stepping up my game. I have had some good training and met some awesome people.

I have so much in which to be thankful and one is you. Thank you for keeping up with me. Thank you for your comments and your interest. I try to be honest in this blog and I hope that you have learned something or shared something. I have met some of you face to face and that of course, is always exciting. Here is to trying, succeeding and enjoying every step of this journey called my life.

R.I.P. JFK

2010-11-22T09:46:00.000-08:00

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On this date 47 years ago, our beloved President John F. Kennedy was assassinated. It was a terrible day and to many of us our innocence was lost on that day. Why does it seem that whenever we get a good person to speak up for the common people that their voices are then silenced?

Our country is being taken over by corporations. Don't believe me? Who runs ABC? Disney Corporation. Who runs NBC? General Electric Corporation. Who runs FOX? Rupert Murdoch Industries. What happened to newspapers? They are going by the wayside for the internet. Who runs Google? Who runs Facebook? What are their interests? Do you really believe that journalists are given free speech anymore?

Watch the evening news with ABC, CBS and NBC. You know what you get? The same stories told 3 different ways but in essence saying the same things. You watch FOX and all you get is Obama bashing. Why do the journalists get 2 day suspensions for donating to the candidate of their choice when Rupert Murdoch gives $1M to the GOP? Why? Because he owns and runs FOX any damn way he chooses and can say anything that he wants. Is that freedom of the press? I don't think so.

If anyone doesn't think our country is being handled by the corporations, think again. And as an actor do you know what really pisses me off? It pisses me off that television is the babysitter of the people. Why do movies like Jackass make all that money? Why do we watch crap like Dancing With the Stars? The Next American Idol? Because they (the corporations) want us to be lulled into a false sense of security that all is right with the world and why don't we just go shopping? At Starbucks, Macy's, Target, Wal Mart, etc.?

Why care about what is really happening in the world when we can just go shopping? Because they are counting on the fact that most people don't give a damn about their fellow man. Most people just want to put their heads in the sand and give up their rights to civil rights like free speech, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.

Where were you when President George W Bush gave away your civil liberties by shoving the Patriot Act down our throats? When was the last time your Congressman or Senator actually voted for something that you wanted? Most of the time they vote for something that will benefit them directly or for something that the lobbyists have pushed for. And don't forget that the lobbyists are hired by the corporations. Didn't we as voters have a voice? Nope, we don't.

And Meg Whitman was defeated even though she tried to buy the governorship in the State of California. Her hypocrisy was her downfall. The hypocrisy of those in power in the City of Bell was their downfall. And now they are paying the price. If it wasn't for good reporting by good journalists, then Meg Whitman's hypocrisy would not have been brought to light. Good reporting brought down the bad guys in the City of Bell.

So yes, people turn off the mindless television sets. Do you really want to watch 10 commercials in a row where they all say buy, buy, buy? Aren't we as a country in debt enough? Why aren't there any commercials that say save, save, save?

As an actor, I am just trying to make a living doing what I love to do which is acting. But it is just that, acting. I have a life outside of the business world of acting. I care about my country and I care about my family. But guess what? I care about your family, too. I care about our education system and the fact that kids today aren't as smart as we were. I care about crime. I care about police being fair and honest and not thumping someone over the head just because that person has brown skin or black skin.

I care about the homeless and the hungry in our country. That's right, in our country. Let the other nations of the world care for their own. Wake up people! There are too many real problems in our country that need to be fixed. And they need to be fixed by good, caring, law-abiding citizens. Turn off the television and the video games and start doing something today to lift up your family, your neighborhood, your friends and neighbors. And how about those less fortunate who sit lonely in nursing homes and the youth of today who are jobless and hungry?

Volunteer somewhere. Anywhere. A nursing home, a food shelter, your local church or the county library. There are seniors who would love a visit. There are hungry people in the streets. There are those who are struggling with addiction. There are children who need to learn how to read. Please do something than just sit idly by.

I volunteer at the library. I volunteer at our local PFLAG because I feel that parents who are struggling to accept their gay son or daughter need help and understanding. I think gay teens are having a difficult time coming to terms with who they are and I'm tired of reading that another child committed suicide because they didn't see any other alternative.

My mother worked at a nursing home for years where she saw neglect for the elderly. I worked for years at the Salvation Army where I saw the hungry come in every morning for a hot cup of coffee and a kind word. Believe me, it humbles you and makes you thankful for a nice home, family members and a warm place to sleep at night.

This Thanksgiving, this Christmas don't spend, don't buy. Go against the corporations who are trying to bankrupt all of us so that they can be more profitable. What does all of this have to do with President Kennedy? Well, I believe he was trying to show us a better way to become better citizens. Let us be smart enough to make our country accountable. If you don't know the constitution, read it again. Our rights are being trampled on by the corporations and our elected officials are looking the other way. Want to see one of the biggest people who takes money from the corporations? Sarah Palin. She is a puppet to them. And she doesn't care because her pocketbook is getting quite full. She does not have the leadership skills, she does not inspire anyone to be better citizens. Don't believe me? How many new books does she have being published? How much does she charge for speaking fees? Who does that benefit?

Wake up people, before it's too late.

Audition Notice at 11:45 PM

2010-11-20T10:37:00.000-08:00

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One of my favorite pastimes is watching the Saturday morning marathon of America's Next Top Model. I like it because you never know what kind of craziness will occur. Modeling is very competitive and so is acting. If you don't believe in your talent no one else will either.

I received a telephone text at 11:45 pm on Thursday night. I was requested to come and audition for a tv program at 9:00 am the next morning. When you are in this business opportunities come and go so quickly that you must be prepared at all times. Be like the boy scouts and always be prepared. My clothes are clean and hung up ready to grab and go.

I downloaded the script which was to be done in English and in Spanish. I printed out the directions. I had extra head shots and had my outfit picked out and hung in the bathroom. The next morning I arrived early and reviewed my lines. I went in and did my thing. The casting director said I like you, I'm going to suggest we hire you. We are doing wardrobe this afternoon and we are shooting this weekend, are you available? Yes, I answered. Of course I said yes.

And then I waited and waited and no call for wardrobe. No calls at all. Finally, at 4:00 pm I called the casting office and they said someone else was hired for the tv show. Darn! But you know that is show biz. You have to just be ready, be prepared and do your best. I know that I did the best job I could and I put myself out there. I also know that a new casting director who didn't know me before well, she knows me now.

Are there some things you are really good at? Sure, we all have our likes and dislikes. Don't do the same thing over and over again with the stuff where you excel. Work on the stuff that is difficult and you will get better. I took three semesters of Spanish in college but didn't get a chance to use it. Now I'm using it all the time. I read, write and speak Spanish all the time and have been getting better.

Being an actor means learning and growing. Never be afraid to try something new. As a disabled actor there are some things I cannot do. However, there are many other things I can do and I can do them well. Accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative. Same with people.

Keep negative people and negative things out of your life. Surround yourself with positive things and positive people. Life is too hard to go it alone. Competition is fierce. I don't compete with others. I only compete with myself. If I had a bad audition, I don't beat myself up over it. That is simply a waste of time. Learn from your mistakes, do better the next time.

Callback

2010-11-17T16:58:00.000-08:00

What a day I've had today! I had a callback today for a SAG national commercial. It was early morning and if you know me you know I am not a morning person. But I woke up early, took a bubble bath and got ready. I'm supposed to look really, really nice like a trophy wife. So that means nice hair, nice clothes and definitely time for the false eyelashes. So I looked good, grabbed my folder which had directions and extra headshots just in case they are needed.
I put on extra moisturizer and I'm glad because the temp today was 81 degrees! Traffic was horrible and even though I left in plenty of time, by the time I arrived I only had 5 minutes before my call time to run to the ladies room and do a quick touch up of lipstick and rehearsing my lines.

They sat me with 2 guys who would audition with me. One was a distinguished older gentleman who would play my husband and the other guy was a younger fellow. Both were very nice looking and Latino also. In a few moments they called us in and we did our thing. Now because this was a callback, other folks were in the room. Don't know who they were but I didn't want to get nervous thinking about them. I just wanted to concentrate on why I was there and do my job.

I started to get nervous then I reminded myself that I have been onstage many times in the past doing live performances. This was a piece of cake! So we did our thing and guess what? It was probably the best audition I've ever had. I am feeling really good about my performance and this reminds me why I love acting. Plus I haven't a callback in forever so I felt good about that too.

It's funny how you know if you had a bad audition (Dexter) or a good one (Capital One). You just know, you don't have to wait for feedback from your agent.

Well, I have a new follower. Hello to Ernie! Thanks for chatting with me the other evening. It was great to catch up with you.

Oh oh, starting to get really hungry for dinner and I am craving my homemade fried chicken and mashed potatoes. I was so good at lunch eating a light salad, soup and drinking water. I'm going to lose weight if it kills me! Anyone know anything about Isogenix? A friend of mine is selling this stuff and says I should get a 30 day supply but $300 is a little much for me right now.

Why does everything have to be so crazy right now? I had two tickets to go to a screening of a film with Mark Ruffalo. I had plans to be with my friend Andy and have dinner. And I had to cancel because my legs were bad! I don't understand it. I got up early, took a nice bath. I went to the hairdressers who did a wonderful job of making me look gorgeous. And then I came home. And as the afternoon went on, my energy just left. I was cold, lethargic and could not walk at all. It was pretty scary. Now for my post polio buddies out there you know what I'm talking about. I was so mad because I was supposed to sit in on a Q & A with Mark Ruffalo after the show. And I haven't seen Andy in awhile and we were really looking forward to spending some time together and catching up. But Andy has cerebral palsy and is in a wheelchair and he knows how bad pps can get. He said he would pray that I would feel better soon. So sweet! And sure enough I talked to him today and he said you sound so much better already.

So hey folks, if you believe in prayer -- please say a little prayer for me. This job that I had a callback today would mean so much for my career. Thank you, Jesus! Amen!

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I Love LA

2010-11-15T14:24:00.000-08:00

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Another commercial audition scheduled for tomorrow. WooHoo! No word yet if I have any callbacks on last weeks auditions. Victor called but I told him to sit tight because sometimes these things take awhile. I also heard from Andy finally! He is doing well and he did tell me to contact him if I am in town. It would be good to have lunch with him again. Andy is a young actor who happens to be disabled. He was so excited because he just booked another stand up gig. This makes 3 consecutive shows. Go Andy!

Several upcoming screenings: The Kids Are Alright at the Arclight Theatre in Hollywood followed by a Q&A with actors Annette Bening, Julianne Moore and Mark Ruffalo. Then on Wednesday, the latest Harry Potter film. Yay! I am on the list for both screenings. Who will be my date?

Auditions and screenings, that is my life right now.

A National Commercial would be amazing!

2010-11-13T09:12:00.000-08:00

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Well, what a week! Three auditions -- almost four! I auditioned with my friend Victor for a print ad. We are still waiting to see if we get a callback. Then I received a call to be at another casting office but could I make it in 1 hour? No way. I asked them if I could come Friday morning but they said no. Then my agent from Daily Talent called and I had another audition Friday afternoon. This was for a SAG national commercial at Alyson Horn casting. So I had the I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant audition Friday morning and the other commercial audition Friday afternoon. Whew! Tired but it felt good to go on these auditions. The more you audition the more comfortable you get and the better you audition. A national commercial would be amazing. That is what I need right now!!!

I've been invited to several screenings. The first is the new Harry Potter film. I am looking forward to going. I asked for an extra ticket and they said yes! Who wants to be my date??? And then SAG is doing a free screening of a film called Reel Injun at the Museum of Tolerance. I also get an extra ticket for that screening. Should be good!

I think I'll do some writing this weekend. I have been reading on the Polio Today site and it gets me depressed. Yikes, I feel sad that some of the members have been going through so many difficulties. But it is nice to go in there and ask a question to someone who is going through the same thing or something similar. Sometimes I wonder if these tweaks are all in my head. Like the other night I was so tired and I didn't overdo it. I just was so tired and it was only 8:30 pm but I couldn't take another step or keep my eyes open. I figured my body is tired and I'm getting my rest. Sure enough, the next morning I felt refreshed. Wouldn't it be great if people had a reboot button? We could just shut it down for the night, no thoughts. No dreams, just out like a light. Then in the morning we would be full of energy and ready to go. I swear I wish I had bionic legs. Then my legs and feet could take me wherever I wanted to go. I could do all the things that other people can do. Like roller skate, ice skating, and dancing. I miss dancing so much. Now maybe I can dance one dance, then I get tired and I have to sit for the remainder of the evening. But my friends who are in wheelchairs tell me I am lucky to stand and walk. So yes, I am grateful.

Now my hands and arms are starting to hurt and I have headaches everyday. I know I am lucky that I was not in the iron lung. And I know I should be wearing my leg braces every day. But I want to go, go, go! And my body says, I don't think so. I'm trying to eat healthier. I remember reading that those of us who have PPS need protein everyday. Eggs, peanut butter, nuts, cottage cheese. I've been cutting down on portions too so hopefully that will help. Nothing like being overweight and sitting in a wheelchair. No fun and it doesn't look sexy either.

Like my new photo? Well I was feeling good and wanted to try a new look. I may look confident but actually I'm quite shy. It takes awhile for me to get to know you. But once I feel good, I'm actually quite funny. I am all business but once I let my hair down, I am actually quite nerdy. Some people look right past me. And that's okay, because I am a silent observer of life. And it's my job as an actor to observe real life. And it's my job as a writer to imagine. And according to Janis Ian, it is our job as an artist to be true to ourselves. I always wondered why I felt different from everyone in my family and from my friends. And it is because I am an artist. And we know each other. We know it before we even see it or say it. It's a beautiful community of artists and that is why we seek each other out.

Oh Janis!

2010-11-10T18:47:00.001-08:00

Yes, it is true. I met Janis Ian! I attended the Women in Art festivities in Palm Desert, CA over the weekend. Now the Los Angeles Women's Theatre Project had their program at the Stella Adler theater over the last two years. I participated in previous years by writing and directing. I loved it. This year I just went to show my support. My friend, Donna received two VIP passes and asked me to be her guest. Thanks to Donna and her lovely sister, Marie we all had a great time. Marie has a home in Rancho Mirage and we stayed there. But the best part of the weekend was getting front row seats to the Janis Ian concert.

Janis taught a master class on Sunday morning and I loved it. She was so generous to share herself for well over an hour. She answered questions and I purchased her autobiography, Society's Child. Wow, what a weekend!!!

I have audition news! I was notified yesterday to come audition today for a print ad. I can't really talk about it but it is a great opportunity to be seen. I think it went really well so we shall see what happens. I auditioned with my guy pal, Victor. We hit it off right away when we met six months ago and now here we are auditioning together. After the audition we grabbed some lunch then went our separate ways. Keeping fingers crossed for us!!!

Well, I get to rest for a little bit before going to LA again on Friday for another audition for "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant". Yes, I know I was already on the show but this is for another part. Don't know if it will be okay since I was on the show. I notified the casting director so we will see what she says.

Keeping fingers crossed, keeping the faith. I am working hard to being the artist I was always meant to be.

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Can't Sleep

2010-11-05T23:33:00.000-07:00

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It's funny how sometimes when you can't sleep the weirdest things pop into my head. Right now I am thinking of redheads. You know, like Annette O'Toole, Ann Margaret, Rita Hayworth, Julianne Moore. Remember Bridget Fonda in Single White Female? Loved her cute little bob haircut. I do not look good as a redhead. Just doesn't look good with my skin or eyes and there are only certain clothing colors you can wear. Nope, don't want to be a redhead.

Big weekend planned. Palm Desert, Palm Springs for the Los Angeles Women's Theatre Project. I am looking forward to art all weekend! Concerts and parties, workshops and meeting Janis Ian! I will take photos and upload them when I return.

Haven't heard anything more on the recent auditions. It was cool auditioning at CBS. And my Agent has submitted me for many upcoming projects. Oh, I need a national commercial big time! The commercial I did last week was just background. So I need a leading role in a national commercial. That would be awesome.

I saw an old movie today that I really liked, The Turning Point with Anne Bancroft and with Shirley Maclaine (another redhead). Why aren't there more roles like that with two women friends? The dialogue is great and the ballet dancing. Ah!!! I never tire of that film.

Did you ever dream of meeting someone really famous? I mean, like really pined over someone and read every interview, knew their birthdays, their favorite color, their favorite food? And then you pray and pray that someday you'll meet that person? And then wonder of wonders, you actually do meet them? Well that is what happened to me on more than one occasion. And each time, I was not prepared. Because it seems to happen as a fluke and you are not prepared. But maybe you wanted it so badly that the universe just opens up and gives it to you when you least expect it. I met Joel Gray. I met Esai Morales. I met KD Lang. I met Keiko Matsui. I met Jay Leno. I met many more show biz folks! Sometimes I have to remind myself to breathe! Breathe, Lisa! And they are just folks like us, well maybe not exactly like us.

So anyway, I guess my point is this. Believe in yourself. Believe that you are worthy of good things happening to you. Because what you think about, you will bring about. Now I am thinking of writing the next great screenplay that actors will fight to be in my first film. How's that for thinking big? It wasn't that long ago that I was riding around in my police car writing parking tickets in Ohio. I knew that I was wasting my time. I knew that I should be in California. I knew I was an actor and should be acting. I would carry yellow legal pads in my trunk. I would take my 30 minute lunch time and pull under a shady tree and park. I would write and write. I didn't know how I was going to get from Ohio to California. I just knew this was where I belonged. And lo and behold, here I am. Again, the universe opened up and gave me this opportunity.

Did it just happen? Or did I bring this about? You know the mind is a very powerful tool. That is why we must stay positive. If you think negative things, then that is exactly what will happen in your life. If you think positive things, you will get positive things. I am very picky about my friends. I am very picky about how I spend my time, the books that I read, the films that I watch. There is so much negative stuff going on and I refuse to be around it. So I know, I just know that this weekend will bring about some very positive things in my life.

I am excited, so excited in fact that sometimes I can't sleep. Okay, glass of wine I know you want me to drink. And so I shall. You are cool and tart, light and aromatic. You beg me to drink more and so it will be. We have shared many a lonely night together. You have helped me through some tough times and sad times. You have kept me home when I felt like wandering. You have kept me sane when I wanted to scream. You have filled my belly when I wanted to eat something. You have calmed the little girl in me that screamed out for revenge. You have given me balls when I was scared. Yes, I can say you have been a loyal friend. And loyal friends are hard to come by, especially in Hollywood.

Audition in Beverly Hills

2010-11-02T16:41:00.000-07:00

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I was notified yesterday that I had an audition early this morning in Beverly Hills. The role called for was a Mom. I think they are casting only two Moms to be in a music video for a Disney show. It was fun. It was difficult finding something to wear. When I arrived the lobby area was full of folks. There were a few younger Moms but most looked well over 50, 60 and up. So maybe they will choose me (fingers crossed). I would say more but you know these auditions are hush hush so I can't say more.

I called my friend, Andy Arias to see if he wanted to grab a quick lunch but he said he was currently working on the set and couldn't talk. So we will talk later and I will get the chisma on what that young man is up to. As you may recall, I interviewed Andy for Latino LA. He is moving up in his acting career. He will appear in the new Tom Hanks film, Larry Crowne.

So I drove home and stopped at one of my favorite restaurants, The Lone Star. They make the best chili. I'm trying to lose some weight and I love food so I'm trying to make better choices. I'm cutting down on portions and trying not to eat red meat. Difficult because I love tacos. What to do?

The Los Angeles Women's Theatre Project is doing a big weekend of women who are writing, acting, directing and putting on live theatre in Palm Springs. And the fabulous Janis Ian will be performing a concert. My friend, Donna was lucky enough to get two passes for the entire event, including a VIP pass to the after parties and she invited me! Yay, so I know we will have a fabulous time. Palm Springs, here we come.

And I was invited by Stacy Codikow, executive director of POWER UP to their annual event November 7 in Hollywood. All kinds of fabulous women will be there and maybe even some from The L Word. Ugh, I can't be at two places at once. If only!

Guess who got asked to review the new Harry Potter film to be released November 19? That's right, me! The first two screenings are coming up very soon at Warner Brothers studios. And I get to go to the final screening. I am so excited as this film is Part 1 of the final Harry Potter film series. Sadness!

So much news today!!! I hope you all took the time to get out to vote. Democracy is a wonderful thing. So with that, I am signing off for now.

Auditions & More

2010-11-01T14:05:00.001-07:00

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Well, I hope everyone had a nice Halloween weekend. I went to LA to audition at CBS studios in Studio City for a short film. I received an email invitation and got a copy of the script. I had to memorize 8 pages of dialogue for the audition on Saturday. I prepared mentally, got up early on Saturday. Got ready and went through my wardrobe. As the role called for a teacher, I found a lavendar long sleeved shirt and wore that along with a navy blue jumper. I wore black stockings and black shoes. Now that I looked the part, onto the studio!

I arrived on time and checked in with the security officers. Parked the car and walked in the building. Found a ladies room for a quick look see to see if I looked okay. Found a seat outside the waiting room and there was a young Asian woman. I thought the role called for Hispanic? Yes, but this is what I am running into lately. Jobs are so hard to find that this is occurring more and more often. Oh well, whoever is the better actor gets the role. So I think I did a good job. I read through it once with the director/writer and he said very good. And then I find out that the job is non-union and non-paying! WTH

And then on Sunday, I get a phone call to come audition on Monday morning for a theatre project that I submitted myself to on Mandy.com This role was for a Mom. It is theatre and musical theatre at that. Well, I do have a theatrical background but haven't done musical theatre in awhile. So I did some research on the project and it actually sounds really interesting. Today I had second thoughts on this theatre project and decided not to go after all. When I left a message I was a little worried but I think I made the right call.

I spoke to the artistic director of the Breath of Fire Latina Theater in Santa Ana and she wants me to reprise my role of the Latina reporter, Gertrudis Hernandez in the play, the Medea Complex. This time we are doing the play at the South Coast Reperatory theater in Orange County. I am very excited because she asked me to play the role again, and secondly, because the South Coast has a very good reputation. We will do the play at the end of February and the early part of March, 2011. Yay! It's a great role and approximately 65 pages of dialogue. If you have ever done live theatre, you know how challenging it can be. But it is the best training for an actor. If you can do live theatre, you can do television!

I have to be very picky and choosy right now when it comes to the decisions I make on my career. I have paid my dues and now am ready to choose professional acting gigs. Come on, universe. Bring it on!

New Commercial

2010-10-27T14:34:00.000-07:00

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Yay! I am booked on a regional commercial! Although I will be background, it still is a paying job. I will be a customer in a Sizzler commercial that we are filming in San Diego. The commercial has a run date of 2 years. And lunch is included! I love Sizzlers and we were just there for lunch last week. I love the 6 ounce steak with the salad bar. Yum!

Well, I haven't heard anything yet from the film which I auditioned for on Saturday. I thought I did a great job. The film shoots the second week of November which is just around the corner so I hope I hear some good news soon. I will keep you posted.

I sent some new photos including this one on this site to my Agent. She liked them (I sent two different photos). And I am hoping that they will land me some elf jobs soon. A girl has to eat, right?

I'm hearing more and more about how artists really need to write their own material and cast themselves and I think this is true. But, I am at a writer's block right now. I hate that. Can't push it, though. I do think I am a good comedy writer and perhaps should think of writing for someone else. Hmmm, just a thought.

I am looking forward to getting together with some of my girlfriends for lunch, movies, wine and some laughs. You know who you are, Paula, Susan and Rebecca! I miss my friend Pam who moved back to New Orleans. I've never been there but when I go, I am looking forward to that southern cooking.

Well, I'm trying to shake this head cold that I've had for the last week. Nothing worse than showing up on the set when you're ill. I have cold tablets, throat lozenges and tissues ready to throw in my purse.

Do you believe Charlie Sheen is in trouble again??? What is wrong with that guy? I think he is a drug addict big time and someone should commit him before he self destructs. Finally, someone says it like it is. As long as the studio keeps looking the other way, he is going to continue his self-destructive behavior for the real cameras that are rolling. What a waste of time to continue filming his antics. At least Robert Downey, Jr. had some real talent. Charlie Sheen is going down the toilet and it is his own fault.

Speaking of drugs, I worked with actor Tom Sizemore once. Okay, he was the star of Robbery/Homicide and I was just an extra on the set. But I did get to talk to him between scenes and told him how much I liked his work on the old film, Heart & Souls. He was so good. And he laughed and said that was a loooooong time ago. And then when I was working as a Production Assistant at Movido TV, he worked with us on a short film project. He is trying to get his career back. And I hope he does, because he is a big talent. I said Mr. Sizemore you probably don't remember me but we worked together once. He was so sweet and we took a photo together. I would add the photo but I worked on the set all day and was exhausted and was not wearing makeup. So see if you have talent and ask for help, folks will help you. But if you continue to blow all the chances you get and abuse your body, you will get flushed down the toilet. Are you listening Lindsay Lohan???

Some of us actually have to work really hard and get training and pay our dues to get a chance to work in show business. It is not handed to us like Paris Hilton. And I don't mind working hard and I don't mind paying my dues. Because I won't compromise who I am to get a job in Hollywood.

It's Elf Time Again

2010-10-24T23:21:00.000-07:00

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Whew, what a week. Busy as always and guess what? It is Elf time again. Took some new photos in elf attire and hoping to land some SAG commercials. It's a great time of year to hire some elves to help Santa!

I had an audition on Saturday for a short film. The role called for a woman to be either homeless or in a shelter. And she may or may not be crazy. Right? So guess what? I killed it. I had two pages of sides. Not memorized but I felt pretty good about the lines and the character. I went in dressed on the dowdy side and no makeup at all. If you are homeless, you don't care what you look like. There were about 5 people in the room but I didn't let that throw me. I asked a few question about my character then proceeded. Next thing I know the director asked me to do it again but this time standing up and I read with the writer. I think it went really well and I could tell they were very excited. I haven't felt that good about an audition since I auditioned for the play, The Medea Complex. I was thrilled driving home and I sure hope I get the role. It starts shooting in November which is just around the corner. I will let you know...

The episode of Dexter that I auditioned for was on tv today. It's funny because I freaked myself out and did a terrible audition. There were 4 lines in Espanol and I totally flubbed them. And to top it off, when I saw the episode tonight the woman who got the role only said 2 lines. Now whether they cut them because they changed the dialog or perhaps they cut them because she couldn't speak any English, I don't know. But to think I came this close to landing a part on Dexter. ugh! Oh well, that job was not mine. It's too bad too because that would have given me an opportunity to work with David Zayas whom I interviewed awhile back. He is very nice and it would have been great to share some screen time with him.

Everyone I talk to tells me how slow it is right now. I am actually thinking working as an Extra right now just for the cash. My friends tell me I shouldn't do it but hey acting is acting. And some money is better than no money.

Trying to keep my attitude positive and I do feel like there has been a shift in the planets or something. Good things will come my way soon, I can just feel it. I just want to be able to pay my rent, eat at a nice restaurant once in awhile, see my friends and perform on stage. I don't that is asking too much of life right now. Oh and a job. I need a job!!!

I saw an old film with Edie Falco today. She looked so young and you know, she just filled the entire screen. Just love her and look at her fine work in The Sopranos and now in Nurse Jackie.

What is happening in Las Vegas? Well, I was supposed to go there 2 weeks ago but then my plans fell through. But I've heard that no one was winning on the casino floors. And hotel prices are plummeting, trying to get folks to come to Vegas. Unemployment is still bad and folks are still losing their homes to foreclosures. Is anyone winning in Vegas? Doesn't look like it. So my advice is this. Hang onto your cash. You'll thank me someday.

Watch It

2010-10-02T12:06:00.000-07:00

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Wow, my friends are booking gigs left and right and I can't wait to watch them. Andy booked a role in the Tom Hanks movie, Larry Crowne. Karen booked a role on No Ordinary Family. Jonathan booked a part on Big Time Rush. Well, I have some things coming up too. I did two days work on Nickelodeon's Gigantic. Don't know when it will be on TV but hopefully soon.

And, I have another audition!!! It's for a commercial and that is really all I can say for now. Many times we cannot speak about the project so wish me luck!

This is a strange business. We all go out for roles and some roles are perfect for us and some are not. I am accustomed to doing plays so commercials are quite a bit different. They are usually only 60 seconds. When we haven't worked for awhile or taken classes, you can get rusty. So it is up to me to keep working, keep training. I am working on losing weight, eating healthier, exercising in the pool and drinking plenty of water. I am also working on my Spanish. There are more and more roles lately for bilingual people and any language fluency is a great skill to have.

I am also becoming a more rounded person by reading and writing. I enjoy reading so much that I usually read one or two books at a time. I was going to Barnes & Noble but now since I haven't been working, I have been going to the library.

Well I heard yesterday that one of my favorite journalists, Rick Sanchez was fired from CNN. I am so disheartened. How many Latino anchors are there on TV? Giselle Fernandez, reporter John Quinones, Geraldo Rivera. Anyone else??? Just goes to show you really have to watch what comes out of your mouth. It sounded as though Rick was really jealous to Jon Stewart. Jealousy is a terrible thing. Green envy is a terrible thing. This business is so competitive that we cannot waste time being jealous of other people or their success. It makes you want to work that much harder on yourself to be better. I don't compete with others, I compete with myself. And if I have a bad audition or take a bad head shot, I learn from that experience and I work harder to make it better the next audition or the next head shot.

And I was hurt by the fact that my parents didn't really care to spend time with me but I cannot let that stop me. We have a dysfunctional family and it will probably always be that way. I won't be side tracked by their drama. I need to stay focused on my dreams. It's easy to give up. It's easy to blame other people. What is hard is keeping a stiff upper lip when you go on audition after audition after audition and you still keep professional. I like to read stories of how others have gone through tough times and didn't give up. Throw in the towel, no way! Do I always have the support of my family? To be honest, no. But I know that I have to be true to myself and I do think I have something to offer. And even if I don't get the job, guess what? I still win. I win because I gave it my best and I put myself on the line and another casting director who didn't know me yesterday, knows me today.

Silly Me

2010-10-01T14:59:00.000-07:00

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Well, as mentioned in a previous blog my parents are now in Las Vegas. They are staying with my brother who lives there and is an entertainer working at the Imperial Palace. My sister and her boyfriend have just arrived in Vegas too and they are talking about going out to lunch, shopping, etc. Now my sister Mary lives in Ohio with my parents and they all see each other every week. I live in CA so I only see my parents when I visit Ohio or when they come out west.

I told Mom that I can come to pick them up and bring them back to my home but they didn't sound interested at all. Isn't that nice? I have a beautiful guest bedroom all ready for them but they want to stay in Vegas. They live on social security so I know they don't have much money with them. Nothing worse than being in Vegas with no money but yeah, let's stay there in Vegas. Maybe I'll see them next year sometime cause I am not going to go to Vegas. Silly me for thinking that they wanted to see me. Now back to the slot machines!

Audition at CZAT on Formosa in LA. The job was for a Host. I do have some hosting experience but not a whole lot. It's funny because the job did not specify that they wanted someone with a ton of hosting experience. Sometimes I don't think they know exactly what they want. Oh well, moving along. Next!

Did you hear that another young person killed himself just for being gay? What the heck is going on in these small towns? This is a shocking week. For heavens sake, we must help our young people come to terms with who they are. When we had all the ridiculous posings over Prop 8 I realized that our small town is also not very tolerant. Hate filled signs everywhere, people using their children to wave Yes on Prop 8 signs everywhere. I decided to do something about it. So I marched into our local PFLAG office and decided to sign up as a volunteer. I got tired of all the bull I was seeing. So if you are also outraged at the recent suicides, please stand up and do something about it. PFLAG could use volunteers -- gay and straight. All are welcome.

Silly me for thinking I was missed by my parents. Silly me for being worried that I didn't get a part. Do I have a wealth of experience from which to draw emotions as an actor to the stage. Oh yeah, you bet!

Hooray for Hollywood

2010-09-29T19:15:00.000-07:00

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An audition, finally! It has been very slow for me lately. Too bad I'm not in the age group that is very popular right now 18 - 24. When I was that age I didn't have a clue about show business, modeling, money management. I did have some experience under my belt and some training but nothing of the caliber that I have now. Where are the rewards for experience?

I think I did pretty well so we shall see what happens next.

One of my friends and former teachers was going to be on an episode of No Ordinary Family and her scenes ended up on the cutting room floor. I felt so bad for her but that is happened to all of us at one point or another. She is so talented too so I am not worried for her because I know she will land on her feet.

Too bad about Jimmy Smits new series, Outlaw. It is not doing that well in the ratings and I think it will get canceled. If you watch the commercials, he looks so angry all the time. And who wants to watch an angry screaming guy? Not me. He was so good in the series Cane. Too bad that got cancelled because of the writing strike by the WGA.

It's good to see Tom Selleck back on TV again and I heard that his new series Blue Blood has gone through the roof. Good for him. Let's see an Irish Catholic family of cops, yup sounds like a winner to me.

Another good new series is Detroit 187 which I heard is actually filmed in Detroit. Love Michael Imperioli ever since he was on The Sopranos. Another cop film and I do like his character.

Here is hoping that the new series will bring more work into Hollywood and more work for us actors too. Don't like reality tv except for the Amazing Race!

And I actually filmed an episode of Pit Boss last year but it never got televised and probably never will. No worries. Once I become a big TV star, they will probably drag it out, dust off the spider webs and air it.

Oh, did you hear that George & Ann Lopez are getting a divorce? So sad. I remember interviewing him last year for the Kidney foundation. They were both there. She was giving an interview to someone else and I was standing in the wings. I heard the guy ask him if George was pretty well set in his career when they met and Ann said he didn't have $5 to his name. She was the one who was casting and he came in looking for a job. She said he didn't get the job but he did get her. I thought that was so sweet. I feel badly that another Hollywood couple has bit the dust.

My friends are working hard on their careers and I have to step up my game. It felt good to see the Hollywood sign, rehearse my lines and go in on an audition again. I just know that there is a job with my name on it. I just won't give up, it's not in my nature.

Happy Fall

2010-09-25T16:07:00.000-07:00

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I am coming to you live from my backyard and I'd like to wish everyone a Happy Fall. As for me, it is 100 degrees outside and I just got out of my pool. I've hung up my swimsuit and I'm sitting here on my chaise lounge in a towel. And sunglasses. I have a cool drink on my stand (lemonade) and I'm listening to Andrea Bocelli.

Don't know why I've been in such a funk lately. Well yes I do know why but I'm not going to get into that right now. My last blog I was talking about getting on a plane and leaving San Diego for anywhere. But actually, I have been missing Seattle big time.

Several years ago my hubby was in a position where he was in charge of the west coast. He had some business in Portland and we have some friends up there. We decided to mix business with some vacation time. We flew up to Portland, rented a car and after his business was concluded we spent some time with our friends. We had a lovely time seeing the city. We spent one day on his boat and saw the city from the water. So many bridges. I really enjoyed Portland. After a few days we left and drove up to Seattle. What a blast. I couldn't believe how beautiful the scenery was.

I am from the east so I missed the evergreen trees. I also missed the seasons so much. I believe we were there in July and the weather was quite cool up there. Unfortunately, I only brought southern CA clothing so I was freezing up there. Fortunately our friends were kind enough to loan me a jacket. Can you imagine wearing a jacket in the middle of July? But there ya go.

Is anyone from Seattle? I'll tell ya I would love to retire up there. I know you get tons of rain and snow but it's such a beautiful city. I am sitting in my backyard surrounded by six palm trees, tons of bushes, roses and of course a lovely pool. We have a little fountain that I water daily and the birds just love to come and take a splash. We have a lovely jasmine bush that the hummingbirds love. I love to just come back here and relax in the shade and enjoy the lovely warm weather.

I remember growing up in cold northwestern Ohio. The doctors would always tell my mother that the best thing she could do for my polio legs was move to the southwest. And here I am. And now what am I thinking of? Moving up north. I don't know, I really miss the seasons. Fall was always my favorite time of year.

And it's still strange to cook a Thanksgiving dinner in the oven when it's 80 degrees outside. I guess I'm feeling a little homesick. Not for Ohio but for my family. I have a huge Latino family. It's not unusual to have 36 people in the house and that is not everyone either. Sometimes when I go back to visit I get a little overwhelmed.

One of my favorite photos of my eldest son is when he was around 4 years old and we were playing in the leaves. He had a cute little jacket on that his grandma Mary Ann had bought for him. He looked so happy. Now he is in Italy! I wonder if he misses us and if he remembers those days?

This is my dream home. Sitting in my backyard, relaxing from a swim and typing away on my laptop. Should I work on my book? Should we go out to dinner or cook on the grill again? Decisions, decisions. Yes, I think going out to dinner is in order. A nice shower, a sundress, splash of perfume and a little makeup. Walk into a restaurant with my hubby's hand in mine. Can life get any finer than this?

Dysfunction Junction

2010-09-21T09:24:00.000-07:00

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My friend, Patty once said Lisa, I think my family is dysfunctional. I said who's family isn't? At some point in time you will recognize that your family is crazy. The only family that isn't is on TV and that of course, isn't real. I had to laugh because that is so true. Remember in "Back to the Future" when Martie went back in time and saw his little future Uncle in the baby play pen and said, 'better get used to these bars, kid". And sure enough, his Uncle would land himself in prison later.

I am starting to dread the upcoming holidays. Thanksgiving and Christmas. Ugh! I do like New Year's because we can all get a fresh start on a new year and hopefully make everything better. Now I am a good person, and I am a good cook. To me, my idea of the holidays would be to gather my family and we all volunteer at a local shelter. We cook and serve food to those less fortunate than ourselves. Our children would see that we are truly fortunate. We would get a paycheck of the heart by doing something for someone else.

Or, we could rent a cabin up at Big Bear. Play in the snow, ride on a sleigh and throw snowballs at each other! My hubby and I can get away from cellphones and computers. We could toast each other with a nice glass of wine as we sit in front of a fireplace. We could keep each other warm at night!

Or, we could take a trip back east and visit our family in Ohio. We could eat wonderful food, cooking together, opening gifts and catching up on family gossip. Our kids could stay here at my California home and cook their own dinner. They only come to eat anyway, then they leave. They wouldn't even notice that I'm not there this year.

But no, I'll tell you exactly what will happen because it happens every year. I will spend two entire days cleaning the house to perfection. We will spend one whole day decorating the house and putting up the Christmas tree. I will spend two hours at the grocery store getting everything needed for a beautiful dinner and dessert including beverages and wine for later. The kids will promise to come help with the cleaning and the cooking but of course they never do. There is always an excuse for oversleeping, a hangover, partying too late with their friends or some other drama that prevents them from keeping said original promise. So of course, I will overdo it and pay for it later with polio aches and pains. I will not complain because frankly it does no good and I'm tired of hearing myself talk.

My husband will invite his brother Tony to come and spend the holidays with us. Tony will need constant care and attention because he does need it. He also eats like a horse. At least someone appreciates my cooking! He loves to watch sports, any sports on our one and only television set which means I can't watch what I want to watch. My husband will spend all of his time watching him and not paying attention to me. I will get hurt and start drinking way too much just to ease the loneliness and pain of spending another Christmas holiday alone.

My son John is stationed overseas and this will be another year that I will not get to spend with him and my grandson. My other son could care less about tradition. He comes to eat then he either leaves to go home or he leaves and spends time with his friends here. In any event, he leaves. Same with my daughter. Her friends are more important than spending time with family. They'll open their gifts, eat and then leave. All the preparation is over in two hours. Then I am free to put away all the leftovers and clean the kitchen which looks like a disaster area. After all this work, I will drop in bed from exhaustion or being pissed off and drunk.

Gee, I can't wait. The holidays suck big time. I hate them and I hate that this happens every year and I feel helpless but there is nothing I can do about it. What would I like to do? Get on a plane in San Diego and go anywhere but here. And to think, I signed up for this.

News from LaLa Land

2010-09-20T13:27:00.000-07:00

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Auditions are being held for a project with actress Holly Robinson-Peete. They are searching for attractive women (30 - 45 yrs old) who are in need of some new tips and tricks in fashion and make-up. This must be a new show possibly Bravo? Did everyone watch Holly when she was on the Apprentice last season with the Donald? She looked fabulous and she is one tough cookie. I am not going for that audition but if this is you and you live in the LA area, go for it!

I heard about a low budget film that is looking for production assistants so I sent my cover letter and resume. And guess what? This is a non-paying job. I am so tired of folks wanting others to work for copy, credit and a meal. Now in Hollywood talk that means when the production is over and the project is completed you will get your name in the credits, they will feed you lunch while working on the set and you will get a copy of the film. In all the time I have worked either as an actor or a production assistant I have literally had to beg to get a copy of the work. I've only received two!!! Now if you are just starting out and have zero experience then by all means go for it. But if you have paid your dues and are eligible to join a union like SAG or AFTRA then join. It puts you in that professional category and you get treated as such.

Lots of new TV shows that are airing soon. I saw Hellcats and I saw Outlaw. To tell you the truth, I didn't really care for either one and I Love Jimmy Smits. I am looking forward to the new Hawaii Five-O. What new TV shows are you excited about?

I have been in a little bit of a funk lately and I am sorry about that. I have determined that yes I have polio but I am not polio. I will not let it define me. And I believe in The Secret. I am determined to be more positive and I know that positive energy will flow in me and through me and out into the universe. And the Universe will bless me with good things including a great job and new opportunities to audition and show what I can do. And that is the Hollywood minute from me!

Potpourri for $1000, Alex

2010-09-15T19:59:00.000-07:00

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I was going to write about how I hate to see doctors but I decided to change my mind so this blog is going to be about potpourri. That's right, a mish mash of stuff.

Some of you may know that I am a history buff. Love it! I just finished reading a book about Teri Garr and her bout with muscular sclerosis, another book about Mr. & Mrs. Lew Wasserman and Universal Studios, a book about Anne Boleyn and Henry VIII. I am an avid book reader. I recently started going to the library again because if it were up to me, I would have purchased all those books. But now I can read what I want for free and return them to the library for others to enjoy them too. It's a good thing!

I am saddened that there is nothing good on TV tonight. I saw "Glee" last night and I honestly tried to like the show but it is so sappy that I kept it on just hoping it would get better. It didn't. I did see Josh Groban on the show and I do like him. Oh well. And the funny thing is I was in the Glee Club all through high school and loved it. But of course it was so different from the TV show and that is Hollywood for you. The thing that really irks me about that show is the young guy in the wheelchair who is an able-bodied actor. Why didn't they hire a real disabled person? Because they said they couldn't find one who could act and sing like this guy. Right and Beyonce is a natural blonde. Meow!

Went with my hubby to work yesterday and what a long day. We were travelling all over Orange County. Boy, talk about the haves and the have nots. If you want to know what I'm talking about, just watch an episode of Real Housewives Orange County. It was really sad to see such a beautiful area and to see so many latinos riding bikes, pushing baby strollers and waiting at bus stops. Are things ever going to improve for my people? Until we get in positions of power how are we going to be perceived in Hollywood? Because I for one do not want to play the stereotypical maid/waitress/nanny/hooker.

Good news! I heard that my parents are coming to Las Vegas. A niece is getting married in Vegas (18 years old) and they have invited the grandparents to come too. My brother lives there so I'm sure Mom & Dad will spend some time with him. Then they will want me to drive over there and pick them and spend a few weeks at my home. That's fine. I haven't seen them since May and I do miss them. It's just difficult having house guests when I haven't been working in awhile. They like to go to the casinos and they like to go out to eat. And all of that costs moola. I guess we will be cooking at home for them and they can just relax out by the pool.

I have been good about trying not to over do it. And even though I was fighting it, I caught a cat nap on the couch while I was watching the Biography of Henry VIII. Guess when your body is tired, I must listen.

Now that summer is winding down and fall is around the corner it brings back memories of going back to school, seeing old friends again and shopping for school supplies. I miss it and yes I miss going to Catholic school and being challenged by the nuns to do better. Good times. What are some of your favorite memories?